Accepting who I am 9/29/2017

When I was small, I used to hate the fact I was born as a girl. I wanted to be born as a boy. I used to say that to my mom frequently. During my elementary school days, I would play baseball with my male friends after school. In any kinds of gathering occasions such as New Year celebration or Obon festival, people naturally gathered as a male group and a female group. I tended to stay in a male group.

When I was a graduate student, I was 22 years old at that time, the school offered me a part time job at the university campus. There were around 10 male professors in my workplace office. It was a study abroad agency.

My job was easy. I made coffee for the male professors. I was the only female worker. I read several newspaper written in English and gave the brief highlights to the other professors. Whenever I found some helpful information regarding foreign schools, I gave the rough summary to the professors.

One day, I got pissed off at making coffee for male professors. I know it sounds silly, but I was serious at that time. I was mad that I was born as a female. I was mad at the society that made the stereotyped concepts. In most workplaces, female workers were naturally responsible to make coffee for male workers.

Among the ten male professors, there was one professor whom I fully trusted and respected. He was open minded and smart. I started expressing my feeling about the stereotyped concepts to him.

He listened to me quietly and carefully. After he let me talk everything how I felt, he asked me why I didn’t like being born as a girl. Once I started expressing the reasons, all the memories from my childhood, even from my past lives, came to me vividly. I started crying so hard.

What he said to me was amazing. He said something like this.

“First off, let me apologize to you as a representative as every man who treated you in a wrong way, both on this lifetime and past lives. Secondly, please know women are more superior to men, which is supported scientific data such as DNA. Women are gifted many things that men cannot experience”. 

He went on and on about the benefits being born as female.

He also reminded me it was me who chose to be born as a girl on this lifetime.

The conversation with him was an excellent healing session. He successfully healed my wounds and change the energy direction from the past to the future. 

This day became my turning point. Since this day, I started appreciating on living a life as a woman. I cannot appreciate enough to this professor who naturally guided me to the right direction.

And, now, especially after I have my husband and daughter, I do appreciate being as a woman so that I can become his wife and her mom.

Any feedback? (^^♪