My daughter and I went to the aquarium with my mom. It was so fun spending time with her. I thought about my younger days. When I was young, my mom was always busy. Her mind was occupied with something else. She has two children; my brother and me. To me, I always thought my mom’s favorite was my brother, not me.
In my childhood days, there was one more child who was my mom’s favorite. It was my classmate in the kindergarten. She had a different environment than normal. Her parents got divorced when she was 3 years or so. She didn’t have any memory of her biological father. Her mother moved to another prefecture leaving her daughter behind. She was raised by her grandparents. My mom felt sorry about her so much. Gradually my mom started taking good care of her, way more than what she supposed to do. When I came back from the elementary school, my mom went to the classmate’s house and she would come back late at night, without taking care of her own children. Those days, I could not understand of my mom’s action. Why she took care of other child, not her own children? These days, I probably started losing my trust to my mom. I had given up communicating with my mom.
While I was spending time with my mom at the aquarium, I started feeling very sad. By the time of the dolphin show, I could not withhold my tears anymore. My tears overflowed from my both eyes.
First, my daughter noticed at my tears. She got panicked of my overflowing tears. Then, my mom noticed it too. She asked me if I had any pain in my body. I said no. Three of us ended up crying in the midst of the dolphin show.
By the time when we came back to my parents’ house, I started understanding of my emotion. It was my inner child who uncorked her feelings. It was me of childhood days. The little me could not express my feeling about my mom those days. I wanted to spend more time with my mom in my childhood days. I was jealous to my brother and the classmate who always had my mom’s attention.
After I expressed my feelings to my mom, my mom apologized to me for everything that I mentioned. She said I was mentally matured and calm since I was very small. She thought I didn’t need much attention. I always listened to my mom and I had been always a good girl. She thought it was okay for her to devote her time to somebody else like my brother and other girl who didn’t have her biological mother close to her.
Then, I also mentioned everything that my mom said to me in my adulthood days. My mom had hurt me by her mean actions and violent wordings.
After this talk, I found out my mom thought it totally okay for her to say these things to me. My mom took the conventional thinking that children have to listen to their parents. I said no to her. I said the thinking is old and wrong. Parents do not own their children. Nobody can own anybody. Children choose their parents because they love them. Often times, children are mentally and spiritually more matured than their parents. Children come to their parents to teach and support them.
For this part, my mom disagreed with me. She kept on saying she does not agree with me.
When I got disappointed and about to leave from my parents’ house, my daughter whispered to me.
“Keep your faith. You have said whatever you had to say. Your angels and family spirits were surrounding you and supporting you. Your angels are all happy for you that you took this step forward. Grandma is just pretending that she does not agree. She completely agrees with you and appreciates you in her soul level for everything you have said to her. Everything is well.”
Can you believe that a 7-year old child said this? I am so blessed to have my daughter in my life. I think every child, especially being born in this new era, is an Earth Angel. If you are a parent, I am sure you have encountered this kind of breathtaking moment from your child.
According to my daughter, while I was talking to my mom, which was like a small lecture to her about spirituality, I was surrounded by a whole bunch of angels and spirits. She saw my maternal grandfather on my left shoulder, my maternal aunt and my son-to-be next to Grandfather, other old men and women spirits who are my paternal side ancestors, and my spiritual family members. My daughter said the room was completely filled with angels and spirits. No wonder why I was sweating. When I am surrounded by angels and spirits, I always feel the warm energy from them.
Thank you angels and spirits for your supports and encouragements. I feel my soul has been uplifted after this good communication with my mom. This trip to Japan is definitely meant to happen. It was done at the right timing and at the right way.
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