I have been thinking about the reasons why I am here on this land. Especially now that I like this land very much, my desire to know the reasons become stronger than before.
I asked my family spirits to show me any signs in any forms. I expected to find any signs and hints in my dream, in the book I happen to read, in the lecture I happen to listen, or in the casual conversation with somebody.
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The first sign was through my dream. In my dream I was very selective to the people whom I hang around with. When I was invited to some gathering that I was not happy to go, I could turn down the invitation without hesitation in my dream.
When I woke up, I thought it interesting. It was true. I learned to say no to the events or the people that I don’t feel comfortable with. For the first couple of years since I moved to this land, I had suffered from building a good human relationship with newly met people. That is why I was greedy in any kinds of opportunities. Thus, whenever I was invited for some gatherings, I would attend without thinking or hesitation. However, I often regretted being there. Almost every time I attended such gatherings, I felt being isolated or bored. I wanted to be polite to the people so I did not leave there early. I pretended enjoying being there. After I came back, I would feel frustrated with myself. I would get mad at myself being weak that I could not say no to people.
From these experiences I learned the importance to be true to myself. Asking my intuition is important for that. My inner feeling and my outer appearance should be matched up. Otherwise the mismatch between them make me feel unhappy.
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The second sign came in through the online lecture. While I was studying about Tarot card along with the energy of numbers, one part strongly resonated with me. It was the explanation regarding the energy of number 13.
The Japanese teacher mentioned that the number 13 has a charismatic energy. This energy enables us to be true to ourselves. It can be applied to the person whose birthday is 13th or the person whose Sabian symbol is 13 degree. Interestingly to know, on this land, my ascendant is Pieces 13 degree. This energy helps me to be true to myself. I am getting to feel comfortable to follow my intuition. Nowadays I can say no to any invitations without feeling guilty.
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The third sign came in the conversation with my friend. She mentioned about the Planetary Grid. I found out I live very close to the 17th grid. It was only three hours’ drive from my house. This area is also close to Sedona. At least for me, this area is good to enhance my spiritual ability. My spiritual awareness level has definitely improved after I moved to this area.
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It was an important process for me to know the reasons. My main purposes for being here on this land is to rediscover true myself. Also I am here to be strong enough to follow my intuitions. Knowing these purposes enables me to love this land more proactively than before.
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