Today I received an email from one of my Japanese friends on this land. I was happy to hear from her. We exchanged our updates in our lives via emails. This is all I wanted for now. I don’t wish to have a big gathering with anybody.
We don’t contact nor see each other frequently. Last time we had a get together was in 2015. Still, I like her. I often think of her. I feel her as one of the closest friends on this land.
Back in 2009, I was eager to make best friends on this land. I probably expected too much from them. My friends-hunting did not turn out well. I ended up with arguing with some people on this land. I have some people whom I don’t want to run into anywhere. They include Whites and Japanese.
After all those things, I have started accumulating anthropophobia, the fear of people.
When I think back my life in Japan, I didn’t have this symptom at all. This is my new sickness I built up on this land.
I have noticed one thing. When I use the term anthropophobia, it sounds negative. But when I use the term “loving alone time”, instead, it sounds positive and happy. So, I decided to use the term to make me happy. I am simply loving alone time.
The important thing is I don’t need to push myself to go see many people whom I cannot spend time happily. Time is very valuable energy for me. I want to be very picky to select on the person whom I want to spend time together with. I have some trustworthy friends. I am happy to have them as my friends.
I am writing this, hoping my sharing will encourage somebody who feels the same as I do. You don’t need to waste your precious time and energy on somebody whom you don’t feel happy to stay together. It might sound selfish, but still it is very important for you.
♬ Any feedback? (^^♪
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