Today was my daughter’s first day of the new school year. She was nervous about her new class. I told her everything would be fine for her. After I saw her off at the school bus stop, I already had good feeling about her. I had confidence in her to have a great day at school. She is very lovable. Her family spirits and angels always support her.
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After I came back home from the bus stop, I went to my fifth acupuncture treatment appointment.
Before the treatment, the acupuncturist always starts asking me some questions about my recent life on both my physical health and mental health.
I feel my physical body is on the healing way. When I thought of my mental health, for some reasons I started feeling anger to my husband.
I was not intending to complain about my husband to anybody else, but when I started explaining the reasons why I am mad about my husband, I found myself getting madder about him.
I am mad at my husband for not communicating with me about important things such as unexpected invoice issue. His unexpected invoice will affect our family money, and so, it is my issue too. I need to be updated. Every time when I ask him about the update, he automatically shows attitude to me. That prevents me from having a casual conversation.
I asked him many times to make efforts to learn Japanese language for me and my daughter. I haven’t seen any of his efforts recently.
I was surprised by myself, that I had a whole bunch of complains about him.
The more I spoke up about the reasons why I am mad at my husband, the more I got upset about him.
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The acupuncture suggested two actions.
First, I should sit down with my husband and talk about my feeling.
Second, I should get some jobs. Being independent financially will open up the door for me. I will gain more confidence in me and more resource on what I should do, than now.
— Get some jobs.
This phrase resonated with me deeply.
Maybe, this is the main message I needed to hear today.
I would like to get some jobs that I love to do. I love translating and I had worked for 10 years in Japan. Another thing I would like to try is to get a part time job on cooking at a restaurant.
Maybe I should start searching around the part time worker’s opportunities, which fits my desire and available time frame.
My acupuncturist might be right. Once I get my favorite jobs, it will for sure open my social world. I might spend less time on getting mad at my husband.
Thus, it might be my issue, not his. He might stay as he is, but changing my world will change me. Changing me might be beneficial for both of me and my husband.
♬ Any feedback? (^^♪
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