In my dream, I was with my friend in Japan. I was driving my car. We found a nice restaurant. Unfortunately the restaurant did not have their parking lot, so I parked my car on the street in front of the restaurant. After our dinner, when we came out to the street, my car had a parking violation ticket on my driver side window.
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There I had a sudden wake-up. It was around 3 am. It was a scary nightmare for me. It reminded me of my past days. I had a similar experience while I was living in Japan.
On the next moment, uncontrollably, other memories of my bad experiences surged in my conscious.
Firstly, one of my coworkers’ face popped up. He hated me very much. He was jealous of me because my boss highly evaluated me. He spoke ill of me using his made-up stories behind my back. Everybody in the office informed me of that. He hurt my feeling and pride. I was mad at him. I hated him back.
Secondly, three people’s faces popped up. These people almost killed me intentionally by choking my neck. I went very close to the death line. I thought my life was ended. But at the last moment, for some reasons, they took their hands off from me. They changed their minds to kill me.
While seeing the visions of these four people’s faces, my heart was filled with anger. I started thinking about my possibilities to fight them back, at that time.
As for the first case; the mean coworker, I could have explained each one of my other coworkers about the truth that he made up stories. But I didn’t take any actions. I just put up with his mean actions to me. I hoped he would leave the company, but he didn’t. Instead, I left the company.
As for the second cases; the three potential murders, I could have reported to the police. I could have sued them and fought in the court. I could have taken some actions. But I didn’t take any actions neither. I was scared. I hoped they would completely disappear from my entire life. They did. They disappeared from my life completely, because I moved to America.
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I started communicating with my family spirits.
Time has healed me in some level. I almost forgot about them, about their faces, and about their wrong deeds. I asked my spirits the reason why I had to remember these people. Why do I have to go through these angers again?
They told me “Forgive them”.
I could not understand right away. My spirits told me like this.
They hurt me deeply. The pains I got from them were imprinted deeply into my soul. Even though I appear fine in my conscious level, I still am suffering from the pains in my subconscious level. It is now the time for me to proactively forgive them. Forgiving is a proactive action. It has to be done by my will.
My spirits told me this too.
Don’t forget that I am a very powerful soul. Nobody can take my life without my agreement. I came back to this life with a firmly determined life mission. My family spirits are with me all the time. I won’t be left alone at any time.
While the conversation, I had come to understand the importance of forgiveness. It is important for me. It is nothing to do with them. I forgive their deeds for me, not for them.
It may sound being selfish, but it is actually not. If I can fully forgive them for myself, I can go to the upper level in my spirituality. It will be beneficial for me. That will enable creating a better situation not only for me but also for my loved ones.
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I wanted to share my experience because you might experience the same as I did. All of a sudden, some angers that you went through in the past might come back to you out of nowhere. If that happens, experience the negative feelings to the most, then proactively forgive the specific person in your mind. Once you successfully forgive them, you will feel much lighter than before. Then, you should tap your shoulder, saying “Good job to me!!”
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