We are planning our trip to Japan in next spring to visit my parents and friends. The other day when my mom asked me if we wanted to stay at the same hotel as last time, or stay at their house, I instantly answered the first option; staying at the same hotel.
On my second thought however, I felt we should stay at my parents’ house on this trip.
Today I talked with my mom on the phone, and told her my decision to stay at their house. She sounded she was very happy.
After she felt the happiness, she quickly got back to her original old habit. She has a habit to hurt me by her mean wordings.
She said to me…
— That I should wear something nicer than last time. According to her, I looked miserable and shabby in my outfit every day during the trip.
— That I should not buy anything at Hyakkin (Dollar) store. It made me look cheap.
— That I should put make-up on my face. According to her, I looked older than my age due to no-make-up. Aldo, my no-make-up made her feel embarrassed.
— That I should lose my weight before the trip. According to her, I looked overweight miserably on our last visit.
— That I should not stay at my friends’ house. According to her, our staying at their house would be troublesome for my friends and their family. They cannot say NO to me, but I should read their true feeling.
When I heard these complaints about me, I almost said this words to her.
Okay mom, enough!! I am not going back to Japan to see you. Forget about my visiting forever.
But I didn’t say that to her. Luckily, I could swallow these thoughts.
My mom seems to never change her bad habit. She once told me she owns me because I am her child. Because she owns me, she can say anything she wants to say to me. It does not matter to her whether her mean wording hurts me.
I know it will be a tough challenge for me to keep my inner peace when it comes to my mom. My mom is my last boss character in this lifetime. In a way, overcoming my mom is one of my life missions in this lifetime.
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Later on the evening, we had some thunders. When one thunder struck in our neighbor area, I suddenly noticed one important thing. It was as if my family spirits sent me a strong message via the thunder. The important thing is the reason why I am going back to Japan to see my parents.
The reason is simple. I love them. That’s it. I love them and I want to spend more time with them while they are still here. I am not going back to argue with my mom. I am going back to tell them I love them.
With this confirmation, I think I will be fine during my stay in Japan. I should keep this in my mind.
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