Last night before I fall asleep I asked my family spirits to guide me through about whether I should visit my parents right away. I don’t remember exactly about the dream details, but when I woke up I was sure I don’t need to go back to Japan right away. I was confident my mom will be protected and fine for the hospitalization and surgery. I made my mind on not going this time.
I called my mom.
My mom confirmed me I don’t need to visit them at this moment. My mom wanted me to visit her after she gets well so that she is not at the hospital. My mom told me my dad hired a professional house maid for one month. With this improvement, my mom said not to worry anything. They should be fine.
My family spirits were right. I got relieved that I don’t need to go right now. I have some reasons for that.
Recently in this past March, I visited Japan for 10 days. During my visit, I had suffered from jet lag and sickness.
I believe the main cause for my sickness was the smell of cigarette. Everywhere I went, I could smell cigarette, from people’s mouths, clothes, bags, elevators, trains, and taxis.
Another cause of my sickness was food. I am allergic to many food ingredients. I could not fully control my diet during my travel because I needed to depend on the restaurant foods.
Furthermore, I have a little child. I cannot leave my daughter behind. If I take her with me, she will have to come with me busily for going back and forth between the hospital, the grocery store, my parents’ house, and our staying hotel. She is still small. I don’t want her to spend one month with me taking care of my parents without any fun activities. I want to honor her summer break.
It might sound being selfish. But I have to protect myself and my daughter of our physical and mental health.
Back in my younger days, when I was still small, my mom would go out of town for more than month to take care of my dad’s side relatives. She would stay in the hospital and couldn’t come back home. I know she did a very good thing to take care of my paternal grandma, aunt, and uncle. But I needed my mom with me in our house. I always wished my mom had been strong enough to say no to them and stay with us at home. I decided to follow my heart and desire to honor my physical health and my daughter’s mental health. That was why I decided not to go this time.
I know both of my parents will honor my decision.
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This morning we had an appointment of a recall repair for our car. We have two cars that they both are from the same manufacturers. Last month we had a recall repair for the airbag and this time we had a recall repair for the brake lights.
This time they were done on the repair within two hours.
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