Last month I didn’t have my monthly period. It was supposed to come on August 14th. Today it finally came back with a 3-weeks delay.
My first period came when I was 14 years old. Since then, I had my monthly period come regularly except for 3.5 years of my pregnancy and lactation. I kind of liked it, because of its cleansing process. After the monthly period, I would feel lighter physically and mentally.
Starting from early of this year though, my period had started its irregularity. One month it came one week early. The other month it came one week late. This time it came at three week’s delay.
I understand I am in the menopause process and it is a natural process for my age. I also understand my monthly period will eventually disappear from my body function.
I want to write about my honest feeling about it.
I feel sad and scared about the transition. It is natural to feel that way for any kinds of changes, right?
Simultaneously, I feel relieved and happy about the transition.
Here is the reason.
I am becoming back to the same condition as a child, who is not influenced by male/female hormone. It is beyond the gender difference of male or female. It is “it” rather and “he or she.” To think back my childhood days, I fully enjoyed being “it.” I had many friends of boys and girls. I was free from gender.
I am happy about the menopause process because I am in the process of getting back to the “it” condition again.
All in all, I guess I am happy and excited about this transition. I should enjoy this process.
♬ Any feedback? (^^♪
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