Right before I fall asleep last night, I received a text message from my mom.
As usual, I felt scared of opening her message. Nowadays her text messages are full of negative news.
She decided not to have a chemotherapy treatment anymore. My dad was not happy for my mom’s decision. He keeps blaming my mom for not having a chemotherapy treatment. My dad even threatens my mom that she has shorten her life without a chemotherapy.
First, I felt sad for my mom that she doesn’t get support of her decision from my dad.
She has had a chemotherapy treatment twice. As far as I know from her text messages and phone call conversation, the chemotherapy has taken away both of her physical strength and her willpower to live. The side effect of the chemotherapy has drained my mom’s energy out. She has been deeply depressed and exhausted. Considering these facts into consideration, I support my mom’s decision for stopping a chemotherapy treatment.
Second, I felt overwhelmed by negative feeling. It was as if my mom’s negative energy sucked up my energy even we were physically far away.
I really regretted about reading her text message before going to sleep.
I could not fall asleep. I tossed and turned for all night long. I could not rest at all.
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After I got out from bed in the morning, I checked my fasting glucose level as usual. This morning’s number was extremely high. Heavy stress affects my health.
I spent all day exhausted and tired.
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I understand I am not the only one who is suffering in this situation. Everybody loses their parents someday. It is a matter of when and how. Some people lose their parents in their younger age, and others lose around my age. It is tough for everybody.
I am feeling sad to face to my parents’ dying situation. I cannot support them physically as I live far away. All I can support them is through my good prayer.
I really hope both my parents will have peaceful days in their remainder days. I hope they will cherish every day without having pains or negative feelings. And I hope they will be able to go back to their spirit world on their preferable timing and in their preferable way. They deserve to receive a great amount of love and support from many people and their angels and spirits.
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