I have been thinking of my mom for this past one month. I kept sending her a message through LINE app. Although I saw all my messages were read by her in LINE app’s feature, my mom hasn’t replied back to me since December 25th; Christmas Day, where she sent me a short message, that she has been very sick.
I could have called to my parents’ house. My dad would answer the house phone. I could not do so, because I was too scared to hear from my dad about the serious health situation about my mom.
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This morning my mom changed the situation.
When I woke up, I noticed one new message on LINE app. It was from my mom. She said she would call me at 10 a.m. in her time, which will be 6 p.m. in my time.
I got so scared to hear from her about what was going on with her. But at the same time, I knew I should know the current situation on what was going on with her. I have to face the truth.
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At 6 p.m. in my time, I was on the phone with my mom.
As soon as I heard my mom’s first voice, I could not stop my tears falling down on my cheek. Her voice sounded very weak. She said she has been very sick. She was feeling she would not live long due to her cancer.
Previously in last year, whenever I offered my mom to visit and support her, such as in August and September of 2019, she would always turn down my offer. This time was different though. When I offered my visit and support, she instantly accepted my offer.
I realized how bad her health condition was. I am scared to face the fact, but I have to do so, for both of my mom and myself.
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