I had lunch with four Japanese women. One is my long-term friend, and she introduced me to other three Japanese women.
I knew that there are many Japanese women living in our local city and that they have a Japanese community. I don’t like gathering with a whole bunch of people.
When I was still new to this land, I had participated the Japanese community several times. The community consisted of twelve Japanese women. I never felt comfortable being in the big group. Because I didn’t want them to think bad about me, even though I didn’t enjoy participating to the community, I forced myself to be there. By the time when I was so exhausted being in the big group, I finally could ask all the community members to omit me from the group. Since then, I never participated to the community.
For the absence of these past eleven years, I heard from people that most of them are not here in this local area anymore. They already moved to somewhere.
That was why I thought to give it a try again to participate to Japanese community again. This time though, I wanted to go to a small number of group.
Today’s people were nice people. But I don’t think any of them were interested in making a close friend with anybody. I didn’t fully enjoy being in the group. Maybe, my subtle feeling is the right answer for me. I should follow my intuition. I will stop participating to this community.
Once I made my decision, I am feeling good.
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