In my dream, I was with my dad and brother. We dealt with distributing the inheritance from my late mom. They were planning to divide it into two by themselves. I never said I don’t need it, but they misunderstood that I said so. Somebody urged me to tell them I wanted to receive my share. So, I followed the advice. I took courage and spoke up to them I wanted my share. Then, they decided to distribute it to me too. I finally could receive my share.
When I woke up, I considered this as a message from my mom. She was the one who urged me to speak up to them. In my case, I cannot contact with my brother. The only one whom I can contact right now is my dad.
For these past days, around 6 p.m., which is 10 a.m. in Japan, I sat down in front of the work desk wondering if I should call my dad or not. I knew I should call him more often, but I was reluctant to talk to him. On our last conversation,
Today I felt strong obligation to call him. So I called him.
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Right after he recognized my voice, his voice tone got raised. It was obvious that he was happy to hear from me. I regretted that I didn’t call him for the past 10 days. I have a good reason why I didn’t call him sooner. On our last conversation of March 8th, my dad asked me to discard my inheritance right from my mom because he wanted to take all to himself. I got shocked at what he said. I always trusted him as a fair person. I could not believe what I heard from him.
We started our conversation about Coronavirus Disease 2019 (COVID-19). I mentioned about our life here in America. Schools are shut down for two weeks. Stores got almost empty; they don’t carry items including produces, frozen foods, bottled water, dry foods, and paper products. My dad didn’t believe what I said. I know what he means. Even I don’t want to believe what is happening right now.
My dad said he experienced the similar situations many times in his life. He said everything always comes back to normal. We just need to be patient and have a solid trust that everything will be back to normal. Talking with him calmed me down.
Then, he switched the topic to the inheritance from my mom. I asked him how much my mom had. He didn’t answer my question, but he said my mom had more than he does. He said more than 70% cash is under my mom’s name. Several years ago he believed he would die before my mom. At that time while my mom was totally fine and healthy, my dad lost eye vision from diabetes. Also, everywhere in the world women tend to live longer than men. Thus, he transferred most of his cash to my mom’s bank account, so that my mom will have enough money to live her remainder life. The situation drastically changed in June 2016. My mom got a sudden sick and transferred to ER by an ambulance. There, she stayed in the hospital for one week. Since then, her good health collapsed.
— Honesty, when I heard this part, I could not fully believe what he said. Why he cannot tell me more specific amount? Why he stays being secretive, even though this inheritance is a matter of our family, not only his issue but to my brother and I are lawfully involved.
I took my courage to speak up. I told him that I cannot discard my inheritance right until I know the total amount of how much my mom had, and that I am lawfully qualified my share as 25%. Based on the total amount, we can negotiate the percentage together. My dad said he never asked me to discard the inheritance right. But he did asked me to do so on our last phone conversation. I said he did. He insisted he didn’t. We continued this statements back and forth.
— Again, I almost lost trust to him. I am pretty I was right about this. Is he losing his mind?
My dad continued lots of new information that I didn’t want to hear. He has three real estates; his current house, and his second house, and a big piece of land. He is planning to leave all the real estates to my brother. For that part, I agreed, as my brother helped my dad for my mom’s funeral. But as for what my dad continued, I don’t agree. He continued, as for cash, he is going to give my brother the majority of them. I said I don’t agree. While I was visiting them in japan in this January, my dad asked me to divide the cash equally with my brother. When I mentioned it to my dad, he said an excuse that my brother has five people in his family while I have three. I told him I don’t agree. When my brother takes all the real estates and the majority of cash, my share will be very small from the total amount. Maybe my share will be 20% or less, compared to my lawful share of 50%.
My dad started being mean. He said he is also planning to donate a big portion of cash to some non-profit organizations. He never mentioned such things until today. I hope he just mentioned just to be mean to me.
By the time I hung up the phone, I was drained. I felt my dad stole my energy from me. I started losing confidence in myself.
In my mind vision, the image of my mom popped up. She had been dealing with this stubborn man for more than 50 years. No wonder why she drained all her energy by living with this man. She had been a buffer between my dad and us; children. She told me lots of things about my dad. Those days they didn’t affect me directly, so I didn’t take it seriously. Now, without my mom, I have to deal with this difficult man all by myself.
Still, a good thing is though, I don’t live with my dad. Now I have my own family that I can fully trust.
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I noticed one thing. In my natal horoscope chart, my progress Sun is under Taurus 8 degree until March 2020. The sabian symbol is “A sleigh without snow.” It was my “a-ha” moment. It is right. In this pandemic situation, the symbol teaches me the wisdom to prepare enough for rainy days. After April 2020, my progress Sun will be under Taurus 9 degree. The sabian symbol is “A Christmas tree decorated.” It teaches the importance of not to share in order to protect myself and my family with fully equipped preparation. This symbol teaches the importance to keep being protected by myself. Synchronicities are happening to teach me this lesson. I have witnessed others who are well prepared and protected, and they are not offering help to others. It is not talking about being selfish, but talking about the importance of protecting myself first. Same logic about an oxygen mask in an airplane. I need to put on an oxygen mask first before I start helping others.
At this moment, in this, everybody is dealing with the same environment; a pandemic. Each individual needs to think and act based on their decision. Some people sensed the paper products and food shortage, so they had stocked them up in advance. Others got panicked after they saw the empty shelves in stores, and they keep complaining and worrying about the shortage. I am in the middle. I didn’t stock them up enough in advance so we will have to survive with what we currently have, which is almost running out. I thought about what I can do to protect my family. I cut my old clothes into small pieces and used the fabric for my toilet paper and facial tissue. I have been living like that for two weeks so far. My action is helping my daughter in my house so that she can still use paper products until they completely run out. Also, my humble way of living is helping others who cannot think of other ways except for using paper products.
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