This morning’s dream: I was at my parents’ house cerebrating something together with our relatives. Among the relatives, there were even some people already passed away such as my aunts and their husbands, and my mom. Everybody looked happy. We shared foods and great time chatting.
After I woke up, I thought it was my mom who sent me the memory. She misses those days when we gathered together while we all were still young and alive.
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In the night right before we fell asleep, my daughter helped me understand this dream. My daughter saw my mom close to the ceiling and waived at us. It has been almost three months since her departure. According to my daughter, day by day, her image figure has been fading. Tonight she came to us to say good-bye. She has to go up and get ready for her new life.
We wished her good luck and sent her lots of our love.
All of the good memories of my mom flooded back to me. I could not stop my tears falling down on my cheeks. One thing that still bothers me is about our visit my parents in March 2019. I was too scared to stay nights at my parents’ house, so I reserved a hotel that is one hour away from their house. They asked me many times why I didn’t stay nights at their house. I could not tell them the true reasons because I didn’t want to hurt their feelings. One reason is about my mom. My mom and I didn’t get along with each other, and we always ended up with arguing. I didn’t have confidence in myself to stay calm if I stay at my parents’ house for many nights. Another reason is about my dad’s smoking a cigarette inside the house. My parents seemed very sad for my staying at a hotel rather than at their house.
I still think it was my best option that I could do at that time. I just feel sad that my mom and I had spent many years, in fact the majority of years, for not getting along with. I really wish we had been getting along with so that we could spend our years much nicer. My tears are for the grievances that we could not spend many years as good friends.
All in all, at the last moment with my mom, I wanted to tell her how much I loved her. I had missed her for many years. I wish her good luck and successful life in her spiritual homeland. Thank you so much mom, for your support and love to me.
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