This morning after I woke up, I didn’t jump up from the bed. Instead, I stayed in bed focusing on my feeling.
It has been almost 4months passed since my mom has departed to the spirit world. I feel lighter day by day. I feel like I have been in the recovering process to regain my true-self. I noticed how heavy traumas and burdens I had been carrying on my shoulder. Each day the heavy burdens have been peeling off. I never felt my soul lighter in this lifetime.
The main cause for all my trauma was my mom. But now my mom’s departure revealed the hidden truth I didn’t notice while she was alive. The true cause is my dad. My mom had been so stressed out for dealing with my stubborn dad for the entire time of their marriage.
It was just recently when I really and fully experienced how stubborn my dad is. I noticed his true face while I was visiting my mom in this January. My dad was never nice to my mom. Whenever my dad treated my mom in a mean way, my mom turned into mean to me. My mom needed somebody to release her stress. I need to protect myself. I cannot stay with them forever. I am so glad that I got away from them while I could.
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