Today’s dream: I was with a big orange tree. I enjoyed watching the vivid orange fruits and clear green healthy leaves. I think I am practicing to become a clairvoyant in my dream.
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Last night’s rain had continued to this morning. I woke up with the gentle female rain sound. It was a real treat. I decided to enjoy spending this quiet moment
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Today turned out to be a hectic day, even though it started in a calm morning. In the morning the temperature dropped down to 19 degrees Celsius with the rain. I needed to wear a light jacket to go for a walk. Around noon, the rain stopped. The sky was cleared from clouds. It turned to be clear sky with sunny weather. The temperature went up to 33 degrees Celsius. I started having headache. I started having dinner around 4 p.m. as usual. I didn’t have appetite so I prepared miso soup only. Even a small amount, I could not finish the soup. I started having headache and nausea. My sickness was probably due to the temperature’s rollercoaster. I went to bed and had some sleep.
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While I was asleep, I had a dream. I saw myself as a light ball. Four another light balls appeared and they approached to my light ball and connected with me. I knew the four light balls were four spirits who are unconditionally loving me and protecting me. I intuitively knew that the four light balls were my daughter and my husband. One of the other two was introduced as “my soulmate who had lived a past life at the same time with me.” The soul mate and I were ninja in the past life. We could communicate each other through telepathy. No matter how far away we were, we were able to be there at the right timing at the right place for each other. This spirit has been supporting me to become a clairvoyant. This is why I started seeing things in my dream much more clearly with detailed colors. The last light ball was introduced as “Mother in magical world.” I felt the last one was my late mother. She said she loves me so much. She has been working on my dad to be fair on the inheritance from my mom. My mom showed me the image of my dad. He has been feeling lonely and missing me. My mom didn’t tell me to call my dad. She just showed the image of my dad.
Then I woke up. Everything I saw in my dream was still vividly in my memory. I looked at the watch. It was 8:20 p.m. I started talking a nap from 4 p.m., so I had slept 4 hours in all the afternoon.
I usually don’t check my LINE app right after I wake up. But for some reason, I opened LINE app, which was very unusual for me. My intuition was right. I saw two missed calls and one text message from my cousin. It was sent to me just 10 minutes ago. The message was my dad asked me to call him.
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I was reluctant to call him. Last time I talked to him on the phone was May 4th. We ended our conversation with an argument. Before I called my dad, I prayed to my family spirits for their support. I didn’t want to argue with my dad anymore, but I needed to tell him the reason why I haven’t called him for these two months.
Then, I took my courage and called my dad. He answered the call within the first ring. He must have been waiting for my call in front of the phone. He asked me why I haven’t called him for long. He has been worrying about me due to the news regarding the worsened situation of Covid-19 in Arizona. I told him I have been sick for a while, but I have another reason why I haven’t called him. I told him if he was calm and ready to listen, I would tell. He said he was calm and ready to listen. So I told him my true feeling. He changed his voice tone. Obviously he got mad. I quickly understood the situation, so I hung up the phone.
He was not ready to listen. Why he cannot understand? Maybe I should stop hoping that he will be ready and listen. Even though my mom asked many times about her wishes regarding grave and after-death Buddhism way ceremony, and her saving money for inheritance, my dad insisted he never heard anything from my mom. He never listened to anybody. He is stubborn and manipulative. I regretted for calling him. I should definitely keep the sacred boundary from him to protect my inner peace. All I can do at this moment is to wait for the right timing for him to listen. I don’t understand and accept my dad’s claim. He claims all the money that my mom had earned is actually his, and that is why he has rights to own everything from my mom all to himself.
I don’t agree with him. My mom had worked at my dad’s company as the accountant. He worked very hard and saved some money every month. She told me she wanted me to take it after her departure. Before her departure she asked me to make it very simple and minimize all the things related to her death, because she wanted us (my brother and me) to keep the saved money regarding her death. She instructed us in details on how we should save money. She didn’t want to be buried in a grave. She wanted to be kept her ashes in her favorite temple together with her late dad.
Today my dad told me he never heard any of my mom’s wishes. I know my mom told my dad. He didn’t listen to her at all. That is why he doesn’t remember any of them.
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