Today’s meditation: I did the guided meditation. The guide asked me to see the colors of the lights. I saw pink, red, yellow, blue, many different bright colors. The guide told me the energy of the colors was what I need right now.
I ask my guide spirits to appear in a different figure, so they seldom appear in the exactly same figure as in the previous meditations. I like to see them in a different figure and am enjoying it.
My guide spirit appeared in a female figure. She looked like an alive version of Kannon-sama. She gave me a pink lotus flower. She said it represents an ability to forgive. She wants me to know not everybody is perfect. I am not perfect, and others are not perfect. We all are here on Earth to learn and discipline our spiritual awareness. She wants me to be tolerant and open-minded for others. Sometimes others showed up in front of me and annoyed me to the most. The person might be just spiritual and act as a bad guy for me to learn something. They might be highly awakened soul but acted the bad guys’ role for me. In that case, I should appreciate their support.
Then the meditation guide told me to move to one of my past lives that prevents me of executing my life missions.
I saw myself as a young man in the World War II. I spoke up my opinion to the supervisor in the military. Nobody supported my opinion even though they agreed with me deep inside. I was beaten up by many of others. My family and relatives were treated cruelly due to my opinion. This event had become a trauma in my soul. I made my mind not to speak up in public because I am scared of the similar situation. “The current me” went to “another me in the past life” and hugged him. I told him gently that the bad experience was over. I am healed and I am in the safe place now. In this lifetime, I am with the right people so that it is safe for me to speak up whenever needed. This time I will create a better situation by my speaking up the right opinion.
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