Today’s dream: I was in the office at my brother’s company in Japan. My brother was wearing a clear blue jacket. It looked good on him. After we had a good discussion at the office, we left the office together. We stopped by at an indoor swimming pool and swam together, then we went back home together. Then I woke up feeling refreshed and happy. I appreciate my brother for his visiting me in my dream world.
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I attended my fourth trance class. There were six students attended.
I experienced many depressed moments. Everything didn’t turn out well for me.
I have noticed the serious sound issues every time when this instructor hosted zoom meetings. It is weird, but I never had same issues with other zoom meetings. On the recent Sunday service that this instructor hosted, as soon as I unmuted, it caused other participants voices muffled. However, on the next day, I attended another Sunday service that was hosted by American man, even when I unmuted, it didn’t cause any issues to my voice nor other participant’s voice.
To be honest, this sound issue has made me stressed out.
Since yesterday, my husband and worked on the zoom sound setting. We know a headset will solve the sound issue, but then, I cannot record the class. I normally record the class with my cell phone putting in front of the computer. In order to keep the recording method by my cell phone, we decided to buy a PC microphone.
In the evening we went a couple of stores to look for a PC microphone. All the microphones were out of stock, as many people started working online and needed a good webcam and a microphone. We finally found one microphone. After we arrived at house, my husband set up the microphone along with the recording app.
Everything was set. Everything should have gone well.
However, it didn’t turn out well for me.
20 minutes before the class, I restarted my computer. After restarted, my computer acted weird and kept freezing. I needed to restart it again. This time, the internet connection was out, even though the router was working normally. I got panicky. I somewhat could enter to the zoom room 1 minute before the class started.
The meditation went well. I got a good message.
My guide spirits showed up with four light figures. They looked like mirages. They gave me a blue star shaped toy. They told me to use this toy with a child’s pure heart. Normal people will think as this toy as is. However, with a child’s pure heart, with creative ability, I can use this toy in many different ways. They wanted me to do the same for everything I see and experience. They want me not to see things and events same as other people. Be creative and see things from many different ways. When I do so, everything in daily life should appear differently. I won’t be able to see things same as before. Everything and every event happens for reasons. The reasons are not just one, but plurals.
(Question) Currently on this earth, the second wave of Covid-19 has arrived. Many people are still suffering. What should I live in this environment?
I received the answer like this.
Same as the blue toy, be creative and open my eyes wide, and see things and events differently. Don’t get fooled only one aspect. For example, mass media reports one aspect, which is normally only negative aspects. However, things are happening for reasons. They always have positive aspects too. There are many positive aspects in Covid-19 environment. They want me to find many positive aspects and share them as many people as possible. Open up my mind to the Universe. Focus on lots of positive aspects and share them with many people. That is how we can raise our vibration together and proceed the right direction.
(Inspirational speech practice) About eternal and change.
I received the messages like this.
The eternal thing is our existence. We exist as a spirit. That is eternal.
The changing things are events and environments. We came down to this earth with life plans, but things don’t go exactly same as we planned. Because not everybody remembers their life plan, or not everybody acts as they planned, in this co-creating environment on Earth, we need lots of flexibility to create with others. Sometimes things go quickly, other times things don’t happen at all, and other times we have to proceed the way we didn’t plan before. Everything is okay because no matter what roads we take, we are destined to the right direction eventually. It might take longer than we planned, as we detour, but it is still okay.
(Trans talk practice) About other stars and planets other than planet Earth
I received the message like this.
The planet earth is not the only place where souls can reincarnate. There are many other stars and planets where souls can reincarnate. In other stars and planets, souls reincarnate as in spirit bodies and they are in a higher dimensions, so that humans cannot detect their existences. Some souls prefer to reincarnate in other stars and planets, while we chose to reincarnate to the planet Earth. Earth is a very unique place where souls can have a heavy human body and keep themselves as in a lower dimension. The learning process is much harder than that in other stars and planets. The souls reincarnated in many other stars and planets are connected with the souls reincarnated in the planet earth. We constantly communicate to one another and inspire to one another.
However, I decided not to share this message because of these reasons.
I didn’t concentrate to the high vibration at all. My mind was occupied by lots of physical leveled concerns. I compared me with other students. Their voice tone and vibration are changed when talking in trance. They said they don’t remember what they said. On the other hand, my voice tone and vibration stay the same, and I always remember what I say in trance. I feared about the instructor might kick me out from this class. That was why I chose the option of not to speak up. Because I scared of the instructor’s negative comment.
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I don’t know what to do. I feel I am lost. Maybe I should not take this instructor’s classes anymore. At his school, there are many other instructors whom I might feel relaxed and comfortable. Luckily he is not the only one instructor. I still like this school. I still want to learn a lot from this school. I don’t want to give up on my spiritual study.
Maybe, the issue is on me. The instructor actually didn’t do anything wrong. He never hurt me yet. It might be my ego. My ego wants my instructor to acknowledge my spiritual gift and praise me, just like he often does to other students.
I have noticed this instructor is very nice to other specific students. It seems to me they are his favorites. I probably feel jealous to them.
While I am writing this, my family spirits gave me a block of thoughts. Some of his favorites have studied under him for more than ten years. Some of them worked together with him for the school for many years. I don’t need to get jealous to them. I just entered to this school this June. I am still quite new to this instructor. He does not know me at all, so it is normal that I am not his favorite yet. I might become his favorite or I might not. It is all about the strength of spiritual connection. So, I don’t need to worry about it. Just stay being myself. As for my spiritual ability, do not ever doubt it. It is there for sure. I am gifted for sure. I don’t need to compare with anybody. Everybody is unique. I have my own way. I am well-protected and well-supported all the times. I should be aware of that.
Now I am feeling calm. Thanks to my family spirits, I think I can sleep now, without any concerns.
Everything will be all right. The zoom sound issue will be solved. I will get better on trance talk. I don’t need to be exactly same as other students. I might change my voice tone. I might still remember what I say in trance. That is all fine. Just relax and rest.
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