While our visit in Navajoland, we went to the tool store in town. It was close to one of my good friends’ house. I thought of him wondering how he was doing. He was good at sewing Navajo traditional outfits. He used to sell his products in the flea market. Now the flea market has been closed, I was wondering if he has started his business online. I wanted to buy a Navajo traditional outfit if he sells it online. So, I searched his name.
I could find his name in the Internet much easier than I thought. But it was not in a good way. It was in a sad way. I found some sad news about him. He went missing in 2009 and never be found. Six years later his family held a funeral for him. I was shocked. He was still young. I wondered what happened to him. He was always calm and cheerful. He enjoyed his life. He was the last person who would commit suicide. Before I went to bed last night, I asked his spirit to visit me in my dream and show me what happened to him, if it is okay with him.
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This morning I had a dream of him. It was an answer to my request that I made last night. He showed me what happened to him. One man wanted to be with him, but he turned him down as he didn’t want to be in a romantic relationship with anybody. The man got offended by being turned down. He asked his friends to attack my friend. When my friend came out from the store late at night alone, several men attacked him and brought him to the middle of nowhere and left him there. That was how he was killed. I saw the man’s face.
My friend is now back to the spirit world with his family spirits peacefully. He told me he doesn’t have hate the murderer. His family spirits were there at the moment he was beat up. They took his soul out from his physical body, so that the transition back to the spirit world for him was smooth and painless.
My friend wanted to let me know how he passed away, because he wanted me to know he didn’t commit suicide.
I sincerely appreciate for his friendship to me. He had been always nice and kind. He was an amazing friend. I met him in 1999. Since then, we had built our trust and friendship. He took me many places. He had many friends and introduced me to his friends. He took me to the ceremonies at Zuni, Jemez, and Zia reservations. He took me to different Navajo traditional healing ceremonies. He took me to NAC meetings many times. We went to watch a movie The Four Feathers (2002 film) at the theater. He let me stay a night at his and his mom’s house. We often went to swimming and sauna together. One time I was driving from Los Angeles to Gallup. We set the time to meet at the entrance of Walmart. I missed getting off the right exit from the Interstate freeway. I got off the next exit and got lost there. I finally arrived at our meeting place three hours later than we promised. But he was still waiting for me. He was not mad at me at all. He greeted with his calm and gentry smile and hugged me. I still remember the moment vividly.
We always enjoyed staying together. He had a wonderful smile, and I loved his smile. I miss him so much. I don’t know how I can express my appreciation to him. It is definitely beyond words. I thank you so much, my dear friend. I hope he has been enjoying his peaceful life in the safe place with his family spirits in the Spirit World.
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