In this morning’s dream, all my old and uncomfortable memories came back. These were the actual memories of my younger days when I could not say no to others. People used me for their convenience and I didn’t protect myself even though I knew they were using me. These memories were the ones that I wanted to forget. I wanted to pretend these never happened to me.
I have to accept that I didn’t wake up comfortably. It was not fun to remember these bad memories. I knew I had this dream for reasons.
Last night I watched the online homeopathy lecture regarding Mother Tincture. Even though I don’t have none of their Mother Tincture in hand and didn’t take it, the effect of the Mother Tincture miraculously happened. They have the Mother Tincture named “Somatsu.” It treats with the people’s inner child that they treated their younger selves without respect.
I followed the advice of the homeopathy teacher. I went to my younger-self and hugged her, and told her to rest assured that older-self me is now having a happy life with my husband and daughter. I, the-older-version-of-me, am taking good care of myself. I can speak up whenever needed.
Then I all of a sudden realized that the events happened recently to me happened for reasons. In every event, I could say no and speak up to protect me. Even though I didn’t look very nice to them, it is okay for me to do so. I deserve to speak up to protect myself. I am glad that I am not too naïve. I am not a too-good young girl anymore. I am a strong will woman to be able to protect myself and my loved ones. I picked my younger-self up and take her with me for the rest of my journey in this life.
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