In my dream one woman showed up and kept on telling me Maria. She repeated the name of “Maria” so many times. Then I woke up.
I know what this dream means. It was a message from my late mom.
Last night during the meditation, I was thinking about my mom. She acted her role as a mean person to me while she was alive, but she is actually a kind soul just like Maria. She was not a Christian while she was alive, but I know she uses the name of Maria as a representative of a person who helps somebody with her unconditional love.
I have to fully admit my mom was a savoir who supported me in strengthen me. My life would have been easy if my mom was nice and kind to me. But she was not. Now she is back to the spirit world and keeps telling me that she had loved me from her heart. She doesn’t remember some of the mean words that she threw at me. Her being mean to me appeared a disaster for me while I was young, but I gradually start understanding that all the mean people are actually a blessing to be provided to me so that I can realize my bad aspects that I need to work on.
Tonight I had an argument with my team leader. I don’t agree with her way of thinking about certain things and I thought she is a hard headed and stubborn person. But maybe, she is the same way as my mom. She came into my life as a gift from my family spirits. She irritates me a lot. And I have to admit maybe, I have the similar personality as her. She exists for me to show her stubbornness as a mirror. I don’t want to admit, but maybe she is. So, I guess I have to appreciate her on everything that she irritated me and annoyed me.
I am in the process of learning Inner child course. My family spirits are happily providing me everything I need to heal my inner child. Once I fully admit that her bad aspects are just a mirror of my bad aspects and possibly my emotional scars, I will be in the next step, which is to work on the parts and heal. Then, she will never bother me again. In other words, I won’t be irritated or annoyed by her anymore even if the exact same thing happens to me.
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