At night I had a field training from the team leader. I went through some uncomfortable experiences from her for the last couple of weeks. I talked to her from my heart about my honest feeling. I did my best to talk to her calmly and objectively, but it turned her fighting mode on. She continued arguing with lots of excuses in her furious mode. I felt like I was talking to a reptile that does not have human emotions. After we ended the training session, I was exhausted.
I calmed myself and did a guided meditation. I had lots of useful advice and messages from my family spirits. I realized that these types of fights and arguments are happening everywhere. It does not happen only to me. The team leader and I might share something in common, but we are very different in our way of thinking. I am satisfied with what I have at this moment. I am not a material person. I don’t need to have any luxurious items or to eat out at a luxurious restaurant to make me happy. I don’t live in a small town where the living costs are high. On the other hand, she likes a luxurious life. She is a material person who needs lots of items to make her happy. She lives in a big city where the living cost including the housing is high. She will never be satisfied with. She needs more and more, even though she already makes lots of money. Maybe she sees everybody as a $$$ mark to make her profit.
I thought I understand people are different, but I guess I don’t fully understand yet. If I fully understand there are people who have completely different way of thinking from me, dealing with those people should not bother me at all. In reality, I was bothered by the team leader a lot.
My family spirits told me that first, I can start to fully understand the differences. Second, I should allow and accept the differences. My family spirits showed me how. If I can see things from the team leader’s point of view, using my imagination, I might be able to see why she is so obsessed with money. She recently got divorced and became a single mother of three children. She might be overwhelmed by the thoughts that she has to make a lots of money to raise her children and to keep living in a luxurious house in a big city. I have to admit that it is still hard for me to allow and accept the differences. But I have to admit them in order to make peace with them.
The other day I listened to the lecture provided by the instructor at the Homeopathy school. He shared his private marriage life experience. In this past February, he got Omicron variant. He had a high fever and coughs.
My family spirits asked me to focus on my preferable reality.
I thought about my preferable reality. I want to have a peaceful environment. I don’t want to have a strained relationship with the team leader. Even though I don’t totally agree with her way of thinking and she doesn’t agree with my way of thinking, I want to respect each other’s different way of thinking and admit and accept. I want to keep learning from each other and respecting each other.
I keep hearing the voices from my family spirits. Everything is going well. Everything is good.
Always remember that the outer environment exists for me as a mirror. When I smile, the outer person smiles. When I am happy and positive, the outer person reflects my happiness and positivizes. When I completely believe everything goes well, the outer environment turns out good as a reflection. I am creating the outer world. I am fine. I am happy. I appreciate everything and everybody to reflect my emotional status. I choose to be happy. I choose to be positive. I choose to have the helpful relationship and positive environment. Everything starts from my thought. So, I pay attention to my thoughts.
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