Last night I shed lots of tears during the healing session with my palmist teacher. Then I woke up this morning, I felt a weird sensation in my throat. I could not say anything because my throat was clogged up with mucus. It was my very first time that my throat was clogged up to such an extremely point where I could not voice out.
I didn’t get panicked though. Because I knew it was a part of the healing process from the session of last night. I knew my throat clogged up to tell me that I could not talk back to my dad for many years, even now. I am not going to pick up my phone and go ahead tell my dad all the cussing words to him. Instead, I recognized my body, mind, and spirit had been suffered from putting back my true feelings and voices back for such many years. I talked to myself, my inner self, that I don’t need to suffer from anything anymore. If I don’t want to go see my dad, it is okay that I go back to Japan without going see him. It is okay that I would not be able to go see him again before his departure. I still thank and appreciate my dad for being my dad and for teaching lots of good things and bad things, so that I could retain true myself. I don’t need to feel guilty for not vising my dad anymore. Now I am free from feeling guilty. I live my life as I want. Thank you to my throat for guiding me to my true self.
By afternoon, all my mucus in my throat cleared up so that I could freely voice out.
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