In the morning at 8 a.m., I attended a meeting for the new insurance platform. The meeting itself was beneficial to attend. I was glad that I moved to this platform. But there was one thing that bothered me. My recruiter, whom I have known and worked together since the old platform, happened to forgot replying back to my question. I know she just forgot, but it hurt my feeling. I don’t know why I can’t casually ask her “hey, did you just forget replying back to me?” I know I can ask this simple question to my family or close friends, but I cannot do so to her.
After the meeting, the first thing I did was to blame my daughter for her not finished drying laundry that I asked her before the meeting. When she was listening to my complaint, she was shedding tears. Then I realized how harsh I scolded her. I soon apologized her. My daughter said she forgave me.
We sat down on bed, and I started talking about how the recruiter hurt my feeling. I knew the recruiter happened to be a reason to let me down, but she actually didn’t do anything bad. She happened to be a person to nudge my inner child who was not still healed.
My inner child who was crying out was the one whom got hurt by my mom while I was still a young child. She was not there for me whenever I needed her.
I shed lots of tears while speaking about the feeling of my inner child. My daughter was sitting down next to me, rubbing my back gently. She was also shedding tears with me. Even though she is still young, she has gone through the sad time in school and from me.
The two hours or so that I spent time together with my daughter was precious. Our lots of tears have healed us deeply this morning. It is great to shed lots of tears once in a while for our souls to cleanse.
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