My husband told me that recently I started walking much better than before. I still limp with nerve pain in the right foot, but the nerve pain has gotten reduced day by day. I know I still have a weird way to walk and need to correct it back to normal. The physical therapy doctor told me it would take another couple of months to completely get back to for me to walk normally. At least, I am thankful that I am in the right healing process.
In the evening, I watched the homeopathy lecture. The teacher shared her experience in her private life. She always teaches us to lose. She strongly believes in losing and forgiving others are the only way to increase our spiritual level. I completely am against her opinion. Of course, I am not going to say that to her because I respect her believe. I believe whether losing is good or not depends on situations. In my case where I decided to fight against my sibling regarding our late parents’ inheritance via lawsuit, I strongly believe that my decision was right for me and my spirit. My soul has a bad habit for being timid and weak and cannot say no to people. Then, the people around me took my gentle personality for granted and take everything away from me. It happened many times in my past lives. Now it is the right time for me to learn to say No to protect and honor myself. By doing so, I can protect and honor the people and spirits around me.
So, back to my homeopathy teacher’s lecture. Her recent experience challenged her if she can lose and forgive her employee no matter what. She decided she would let the employee leave from her company this time because the employee’s actions went way beyond her ability to lose and forgive. I am glad to hear her confession. There are so many people especially in Japan who were taught not to get angry to others and not to fight against others. But these are the old teaching and don’t fit to this new era. We have to stand up and say No when necessary.
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