I watched the lecture video of the homeopathy teacher. I agree with her teaching by her saying that the most important thing on our life is to improve our spiritual awareness levelこの世で一番大事なことは霊性の向上. All the events happen to support our learning and improvements.

She shared Ikkyu Soujun who was a Zen Buddhist monk and poet in the Muromachi Era.

「有漏路（うろじ）より無漏路（むろじ）へ帰る 一休み 雨ふらば降れ 風ふかば吹け」

「この世の生は、無漏路に至る一休みのなのだ」

有漏とは煩悩があるという意味

I interpret his teaching like this.

During our life, we have rainy days and windy days. It means we sometimes encounter tough time and challenging events. However, our life is a short term from the point of spirits. It actually is like a short break between the time we go back to the spirit world. Therefore, no matter what happens on this world, if we fully understand everything is temporary and nothing stays the same, and stay being in the condition of Satori; the enlightenment, nothing can bother us and nothing can hurt us. Take it easy. And enjoy every moment.

I attended the online Reiki gathering at midnight. There were 37 attendees. One Reiki teacher from Myanmar has been successfully introduced Japanese Reiki to her people. There were many Chinese oriented new students attended at tonight’s gathering.

Today he chose the Japanese word 生き甲斐 Ikigai to share the meaning with the group. Before he shared his wisdom, he asked me to share the wisdom from my personal point of view. I appreciate my Reiki teacher for allowing me to speak up in front of the group. Even though I don’t raise my hand to share my wisdom, he always asks me to speak up.

I shared my understanding of Ikigai like this. It is the life purpose and the reason why I am here. It is something to make me happy in soul level.

My Reiki teacher agreed my understanding and followed his personal understanding like this.

生き甲斐 is good result for living. It is not intellectual understanding, rather you should feel. His Ikigai is to teach Reiki and offer supports to the people who need them.

I feel blessed to be able to be there with him. He always inspires us in a good way on how to live our life happily according to our soul’s purpose.

I want to share the story of my neighbors. They were an old retired couple who moved in to our neighborhood before Covid pandemic. The wife was friendly and we chatted from time to time. Recently, maybe sometime in last June, the wife told me she lost her husband from pancreas cancer. She also mentioned she was renting the house at that time and decided to purchase the house. On the next month she did a yard sale almost every day to get rid of her late husband’s items such as his motorcycle, tools, and other personal items. Then one day I saw her garage got completely empty, which used to be fully packed with whole bunch of items. I hadn’t seen the widow for almost a month or so. Just recently the widow was at her garage with a man. They were moving other items from the house to a truck.

Late on that day another neighbor shared the information about the widow. She met a man at her yard sale. They fell in love and started dating. And to our surprise, the widow already moved into the man’s house and started living together. The widow is probably in her middle of 70 years old or even older.

The point is that nobody can say anything bad about her. It is her life and obviously she doesn’t have many years left. She needs to make a quick decision. To me personally, I am happy for her as long as she is happy with the new man. And I am impressed with her braveness to take a quick action.

It was a busy day for my family with lots of chores, but all in all, it was a nice and blessed day.

Last night I went to bed earlier than usual. I woke up at 3:30 a.m. and attended the palmist’s group lesson at 4 am in the early morning. It was my very first attendance to join this group. It was a small group of 14 attendees. Although I was very sleepy and hard to keep opening my eyes, I enjoyed meeting with new people who were nice.

My daughter had a dental cleaning appointment at 2 p.m. Same as always, the dentist praised her for her taking good care of teeth. And same as always, she didn’t have any cavities. I am happy for her that she kept her teeth clean and strong. Back in my youth days, every time when I went to see a dentist, he found new cavities in my mouth and I needed to return to the dental office for a long period.

Today was my husband’s birthday. My husband and daughter went to their favorite Steak Restaurant and had dinner there to celebrate his birthday. I enjoyed my alone time at home.  

I have been in the process of purchasing a life insurance for my husband before his birthday. Today my husband and I finally succeeded to finish the application. I needed to make several phone calls to the insurance company because this was my very first sales. I hope it will go smoothly so that I will gain confidence in my job.

Recently the gas price has been going down, which is good news. Today I found out our cell phone company increased the monthly rate by $6 per line. We have 2 lines and so the $12 increase. They increased the tax and some small fee, ended up more than $13 per month increase. Just wanted to leave it here on how the increase of the fee gradually tortures us in our daily life.

My family usually go to bed around 9 p.m. Tonight was different. Right before 9 p.m., my husband and daughter came to me all excited. They started talking about the Chihuahua dog at my mom-in-law’s house.

This Chihuahua dog was originally given to my late dad-in-law in last July. One of his friends had some puppies to give away. They were born on June 12^th 2021. Around that time, my late dad-in-law got really sick and was diagnosed as Covid. One month after the puppy came to him, my dad-in-law passed away. My mom-in-law is a cat lover and not really a dog lover. My mom-in-law told us jokingly but many times that we could take the puppy with us back to our home. We believe she was serious. There was one time when she even threw the puppy onto my husband’s lap sitting in the passenger’s seat when we were about to leave back home. We all laughed and returned the puppy on the ground.

Tonight, my husband and daughter were talking about the chihuahua; how much they miss the dog. And that was why they barged into my room and started begging me to give a permission to adopt him. My husband was not normal because he already had some alcohol drink and got drunk. They kept on talking about the dog for one hour. I finally showed them the clock showing 10 p.m. and nicely asked them to calm themselves down and go to sleep.

After they went to bed, I thought about adopting a dog to this house. I love the dog and miss him a lot. But I don’t think it is possible. We are renting this house. This house is carpeted on all the three bedrooms. The dog was not toilet trained. We have seen the dog peed and pooped everywhere in my mom-in-law’s house. The dog loves to running around at his full speed on the Navajoland, but he won’t be able to do so. He will hate being leashed. I love to have him here, but I honestly don’t think it is good idea for now.  

It was our last day of our Navajoland visit. My husband’s cell phone alarm went off at 4:50 a.m., which was set to our local time of 5:50 a.m. I could not get back to sleep and so I chanted my routine mantra and daily prayer. Within one hour my family woke up naturally. We got ready to leave for our trip back to our house.

On the way back while driving, my husband and I had an interesting topic to talk. I mentioned that his parents and brother treated him as their Yes-person because he never turns down their favors. Now that his dad has passed, his mom fully depends on my husband a lot. She does not ask her first son even though he was right there during this trip. I felt like they are treating my husband as their daughter. I mentioned to my husband about my mom. My mom often told me she had two children a son and a daughter. Even though the son lives very close to her house, actually within 5-minutes walking distance, she could not ask anything to her son and his wife. But my mom often told me it was easy for her to ask me anything casually. And my mom always concluded that a daughter is mentally close to their parents rather than a son. When I shared this story with my husband, it rang his bell. He said it really makes sense to him. He was born 9 years after his older brother. Since their first son was out of their hand in his younger years, they often talked about their dream to have a daughter. When my husband’s mom got pregnant with my husband, they often wished the baby would be a girl. Thus, my husband received his parent’s expectation to be born as their daughter. We now know why his parents fully depend on my husband, not to their first son. It is good to analyze and come to a conclusion.

The day started with hectic energy. My mom-in-law set today as the memorial service day for my late dad-in-law. She gathered us, my brother-in-law’s family, and my niece-in-law’s family. She set 9 a.m. to start the ceremony, but she was running late from the early morning. And she was very irritated and scattered the negative energy around her. I tried to get close to her as much as I could. I didn’t want to get involved with other people’s negative energy and drama. We gathered at the cemetery area. my husband was the main one wo worked to dig a hole, put a gravestone, mix cement, and put everything back on the ground. After that, we shared some foods.

After lunch, the cousin’s family and we decided to spend the afternoon together. Our first stop was the flea market. My daughter wanted to get a snow cone but there were none. I guess nobody wants to have a snow cone in the cold monsoon. Then we went to the bowling alley. We had a good time together. The youngest child was not having fun at the first game. It was heartbreaking to see her crying. I asked the worker to set a bumper for kinds, then she started really enjoying.  

I am not going to write down in details, but it was a tough day for some part of the day. I think family gathering is tough for certain people like me. The great thing is though, my mom-in-law should understand how I felt. She never got along with her husband’s side of family. She never attended any ceremonies, funerals, or gathering of his side. I take it as a blessing that she went though the toughness before and she now understands. I am glad it was over.

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It was an interesting message in the early morning that I would like to share.

I woke up in the middle of night. I had a nightmare two nights straight on Navajoland. In the first night’ nightmare, I was forced to sit down on the cold and hard ground while other people were sitting on the chair. I was furious to others who treated me badly. I was yelling at them that I deserved to be treated with respect. In the second night’s nightmare, some young children tried to kill me. They didn’t want to do so, but they were just following somebody’s order to kill me. They kept on apologizing me and telling me that they didn’t want to do so. I was again, furious to others who treated me in such a bad way. I didn’t know exactly who was my enemy. It was not comfortable at all to wake up like that being furious to somebody I didn’t know.

I felt these nightmares came to me as a message. I saw a clock. It showed 3:33 a.m. I looked up the meaning in the internet, and one website says like this. This number has a message to “purge your negativity thoughts and replace them with pure love.” And “Your angels will help you in your journey of self-acceptance and finding love.” These messages resonated with my soul.  I admit that I am still struggling to maintain my peaceful mind at any situation.

Since last night we had lots of rain through the night. It was a cold morning. I regretted that I didn’t bring any long sleeve shirts or jacket. After the breakfast we went to the local grocery store to pick up some more cardboard boxes. The male worker at the warehouse remembered us and wished good luck on our organizing old items. I am glad he was nice.

After we put the boxes in the trailer house, my mom-in-law wanted us to go to the DIY store in town with us so that she could get some help from us. We treated her the lunch at our favorite Mexican restaurant. I purchased a long sleeve shirt at the mall. My husband and daughter purchased their favorite items too.

When we came back at the homesite, my husband’s cousin and her family already arrived there. We spent at her mom’s house all afternoon to hang around with. Nothing new and nothing special, but we all enjoyed each other’s company.