Nowadays for some reason, I keep on singing to myself the The B-52’s “Roam.” Usually this type of thing happens when you listen to a certain song through the car radio and the melody stuck in your head for some hours even after you get off the car. But in my case, this song stuck for several days. I think of my late mom. She wants me to enjoy traveling the world, just like what I did while I was single. “Roam if you want to, roam around the world.” While I am writing this, I feel my mom’s smiling energy. Yes mom, I am enjoying my life. I am not traveling the world, but I will, once the things calm down. Then you can enjoy the travel with me.

We all slept well last night on the hotel’s bed. None of the other guests were loud. The complimentary breakfast was also good. They served some hot meals of eggs and potatoes, along with cold foods of bagels, breads, and yogurts. According to my daughter, they had a sign that they can provide oat milk for lactose intolerance guests. I didn’t notice the sign, but I thought it was thoughtful of them to prepare alternative milk for the people like us.

After breakfast, we went to the swimming pool again. When we arrived at the entrance, a big group of people were wiping off their body and about to leave the place. So, again same as the previous day, we enjoyed swimming in the pool all to ourselves. We fully enjoyed staying at this hotel. We would love to come back to this hotel when we visit the cousin’s family again.

Before we headed back to our area, we stopped by at the cousin’s house again. We had a nice visit with them. We will see them again in next month at Navajoland.

I woke up earlier than usual and prepared for bento box for my family. It took us about 2.5 hours to get to my husband’s cousin’s house.

Once we got off from the car, we were surrounded by the strong heat. It was 111 Fahrenheit, but the cousin told us it can get up to 115 Fahrenheit. We spent some hours at her house. My daughter was so happy to see her kids. Soon they went to their bedroom pf upstairs and started playing together. The cousin and her husband offered us their homemade BBQ beef and side dishes. Everything tasted great.

After lunch, we headed to our hotel where it was located a 30-minutes’ drive away from her house. Once we checked in-, we invited the cousin and her family to our hotel’s swimming pool. The pool was vacant. We could swim and relax at the pool and hot tub without any other visitors for three hours straight.

We went back to the swimming pool after dinner. Again, nobody was at the swimming pool so we enjoyed the outdoor pool and Jacuzzi all to ourselves.

We all liked the hotel bed mattress. It was nice and firm. There was no loud noise at night. We all slept very well.

Even though it was the middle of monsoon, we didn’t have even a drop of rain tonight. I thanked my family spirits for answering my prayer. I asked them to keep the sky clear during our trip.

In the morning I watched some training videos of homeopathy and insurance agency. In the afternoon my daughter and I prepared some stuff for the trip of tomorrow. My daughter prepared a birthday gift and a card to give to her cousin. We are excited about our short trip to visit my husband’s cousin tomorrow in Phoenix.  

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As I was not satisfied on how the counseling ended without a remedy prescription, I contacted with the homeopath and asked for a prescription. It was just a misunderstanding between us and she thought I didn’t need the prescription. She issued the prescription to me. Now, I cannot purchase the LM potency remedies from Japanese stores, I might be able to purchase them somewhere in the US. I searched the Internet stores and found some sellers.

I ordered some LM potency homeopathy remedies from the online store on July 10^th. Today my ordered items arrived. It took them two weeks, but I would give them a high review considering the fact to be sent from India.

The homeopathy teacher recommends to take a sugar ball remedies for acute symptom and to take LM potency remedies for chronical symptom.

I started taking them from today. The recommended duration to intake the same remedy prescription is one month. Depending on how I feel, I will decide the duration of the intake. I hope it will work well for me.

In the evening at 6 p.m., I had a counseling with a professional homeopath.

I chose this homeopath because I have seen her lecture three to four times so far. I like her way of talk. She speaks thing clearly without hesitation.

The counselling started on schedule and continued for 1.5 hour. The time went by quickly. At one point I shed lots of tears. When I was talking about the experience of being picked, the old memory came back to me. I was sad not because of being picked. I was sad because my mom was not there for me. Every day when I came back from school, my mom was not at home. She went to my classmate’s home. The classmate was not my friend. She was abandoned by her parents and living with her grandparents. My mom felt sorry for the girl and went to her house every day. I didn’t understand the reason why my mom took good care of the girl. She was not her daughter. I was. Whenever I needed my mom to comfort and encourage me, my mom was not there for me. I was sad and mad at my mom.

At the ending of the counselling, the homeopathy didn’t give me a prescription of homeopathy remedies. We both knew they are not allowed to send any liquid from Japan to America so the homeopathy store cannot send me any liquid types of remedies. I expected and asked the homeopathy to advise me about any sugar ball types of remedies. I asked her for the advice but she decided not to issue a prescription.

I was disappointed with her decision. Even though the counselling itself was great, I felt like this counselling was not ended properly.

It was the Federal holiday to honor the independence day of July 4^th. My husband went to work normally. The sad thing is his company does not pay the extra pay for working on the Federal holiday. He still likes his company and is tolerant with it. After he came back he went to the local park where the local community offered a party open for the public. We re-united with the familiar friends there. We had a good time to catch up with each other. Same old, nothing new, except for our children. Every year we are amazed how tall they get.

Last night I woke up in the middle of night. I was hitting the team leader and yelling at her in the dream. I woke up around 2 a.m. I tried to get back to sleep, but I could not. Even though it happened before, even though she cannot hurt me anymore, I was still full of anger toward her. The anger is rooted from the disappointments that she does not agree with me.

I took some homeopathy remedies to deal with the anger and disappointments. Within some minutes, I started calming down. I thought it is okay that people don’t agree with me. We came to this Earth to experience the differences in any way. The important lesson is how I can deal with the different people. How I can keep being myself no matter what. Then I finally fell asleep.  

Today I watched one of the videos that the Japanese homeopathy school shares. It was a graduation ceremony of their professional homeopath course. It is a four-year course and the students are required to have a 100-acutual cases to graduate. It means they have to have a counselling 100 times. I didn’t apply for the professional course because of this requirements. The graduation ceremony was emotional that both instructors and students were shedding tears. Even though I don’t know any of the graduated students, I would like to send the best wishes to them because I know they have devoted their best efforts to graduate and receive the license.

There were five instructors and they had a short speech to the graduated students. One of the instructor shared his thoughts and it touched my soul.

He said “凡人でいることに徹したい.” It can be translated “he tries to be an ordinal person.” It resonated with me because I try to be a great person. I want to be somebody whom people admire and respect. But when I heard him saying this, I felt like this is a message to me saying that I don’t need anybody’s praises or compliments. I can be my great cheerleader who keeps on telling myself I am doing great but I don’t need any other people to keep telling me that.

In the morning I went to the grocery store. After shopping was done and I was about to walk to the exit, I gasped with surprise. In front of me one man passed by, and the man looked alike with my boyfriend who took me to the Navajoland in 1998. It was our first visit to Navajoland and there, I met my late dad-in-law.

When I came back home, I mentioned it to my husband. He said he would not be surprised if the man was actually him. In this world there are many miraculous things happen.

It was a great reminder for me that how happy environment I am at this moment. Without his support, I would not be here with my family. I appreciate his support. And I hope he is enjoying his current life with his loved ones.  

I cannot believe it is already in July, the beginning of the latter half of the year 2022. I feel I recently started fully enjoying my life.