I woke up in the middle of the night around 3:30-ish, because of my daughter’s scratching sound. Her rush parts in both of her inner elbow have gotten worse every day. They are now dry and changed color to white. She said it itches and hurts. I started worrying about her skin rush. I prayed to my family spirits and finally could fall back to sleep again.

In my dream, I was with my homeopathy teacher. My family were visiting her office in Japan. There were other helpers with us. Maybe they were around 10 people who were all professional homeopaths. We sat down in a circle. The homeopathy teacher, my daughter, and I were sitting in a row. My daughter and I were the patients, and the homeopathy teacher and other homeopaths were ready to discuss about the good homeopathy remedies that would hit to us and heal our symptoms. I felt comfortable and relaxed because I knew they would be a great help for my daughter and me. then I woke up feeling relaxed.    

I am glad my prayer is always heard, and my family spirits always show their reaction in some ways. I still clearly remember what my homeopathy teacher told me. She told me like this.

“You need to start healing yourself by taking care of your inner child. Once you heal yourself, the environment surrounded by you will follow. As for your family, you are the Sun for the family. Your daughter is very close to you and being influenced by your Sun light, she can receive benefits from you by healing yourself. So, don’t worry about your daughter right now. Focus on your healing now. Alright?”

I loved her innocent big smile and unconditional love to me.

まずは君自身のインチャを癒すんだ。君が変われば、君を取り巻く環境が自然に変わっていくんだ。君は家族の太陽だから、娘さんは君のすぐそばにいて、君の太陽エネルギーの影響を直接的に受けているから、君が良い方向に変わったら、娘さんはすぐにその良い影響を感じ取る。今は娘さんの心配はしなくて良い。君自身から始めよう。いいかい？いいね？

I need to work on the assignment for the therapy course as the due date of the assignment submission is set within 2 weeks after finished watching the lecture. The topic of this time’s assignment is anger. I meditated first, then started writing about the topic. But my mind has been wandering around here and there and I haven’t reached the goal where I want to head out. I thought optimistically that I already graduated from dealing with the emotion of anger. The idea made me feel good. Then I fell asleep at night.

I guess my family spirits wanted to say no to my thought of the previous night. I had a nightmare on that night.

In my dream I was traveling by a car with 5-6 people. The travel companions were the people whom I recently met for the job opportunity. We stopped by at a bento store. Just the same as my usual habit, I let other members go to the store counter before me. After all of them purchased their favorite bento and came back to the car, I went to the store counter. I ordered a Nori-ben special. The store person was an Asian Indian elder woman. She told me it was $11. When I open my wallet, I saw all I had in my wallet was $21 bills. So I gave the $21 bill to the store person and waited for the change. The female worker gave me back a pile of bills as the change, but the bills were written as Indian rupee. I told the worker that I could not accept the Indian money as I would not use it where I live (America), but the worker pretended that she didn’t understand English and kept on pushing the Indian money on to my palm. I looked back in the car expecting my team members would come and help me, but nobody was watching me. They were busy eating their food. I was so angry at the worker and at the team member that they didn’t help me. Then I woke up.

Even though I woke up uncomfortably from the content of the dream, I instantly knew it came from the love of my family spirits. They just wanted to show me that I still have to deal with my anger issue. I get angry when I expect somebody to help me but it turns out they don’t.

It happened many times while I was very young. Nobody helped me and I needed to deal with it all by myself. I thanked my family spirits for showing it, and I went to see myself of my younger days. I will need to work on the healing of myself many more times as the scars are deeply hidden and rooted.

At 2 a.m., the summer time ended. Thankfully since Arizona does not take the summer time system, my family and I didn’t need to concern about the time change. But I did need to change the alarm for the financial seminars that is set to Pacific time, that they use the summer time system and all their seminar will start one hour later than before.

I passed the insurance license exam at the end of April. It has been more than 6 months passed, but I never had any sales yet. I hope I will attract the right people around me who want to purchase any insurance products from me soon.

My family and I had muscle soreness and tiredness from the horseback riding of yesterday. But we all had a good time with horses. In the evening we spent some time doing yard work in the backyard. For the past one month I have been working on cleaning up the backyard and getting rid of unnecessary items inside the house. Every time we clean the backyard and house, I feel lighter.

In order to organize my mind, I did meditation and sorted out my monkey mind. I had suffered from irritations and anger in the past two months of last June and July regarding my new career and the people whom I met there.

Now I am peaceful and calm. From where I am right now, I can see things much clearly than before. I was irritated because we had completely opposite opinions about certain things. Now I know we don’t get along with because of the differences. Instead of arguing and disagreeing, I want to have peace. I acknowledge their wishes and dreams that are totally different from mine, but I respect their decisions. All I can do is to let it go and keep moving forward to my desires and dreams. The uncomfortable experiences happed to make me realize what I really want and what I need to let go. In that sense, I thank them and the uncomfortable experiences and say good bye to them.  

In the afternoon my family and I attended a one-hour horseback riding tour. The horse ranch was just a 30-minute drive away from our house. My husband was assigned a horse named Maverick, I was assigned a horse named Dude, and my daughter was assigned a horse named Nugget. There were one more old couple who attended the tour with us so that there were 5 customers and three workers in the riding tour.

There was one female guide led us. My daughter followed on the second, I was the third, my husband was the fourth. My daughter’s horse Nugget was a calm one. I was so happy that Nugget took good care of my daughter during the tour. My horse Dude was good. Once in a while he walked off the trail and got into the low shrubs area. he seemed to do that on purpose and enjoyed teasing me. He seemed to be giggling by being mischievous. All in all, he was nice and kind. Every time right before he entered to a place like down hills and up hills where he had to trot, he would stop and asked me if I were ready for it or not. Once I told him I was ready, then he would start trotting or moving little bit in a faster pace.

My husband’s horse was a funny one. He didn’t like being in a line and he would always walk right next to me. the tour guide told us that their horses are trained to walk very closely to each other; a butt to a nose, but not this one. There was one time my horse Dude didn’t like Mav walking too close to him, so that Dude kicked Mav. My husband said he had a tough time to instruct Mav to stay on the trail like the other horses.

After the tour, the worker took several pictures of us. When we came back home, I was amazed to see the pictures. My daughter’s horse Nugget was smiling big in every picture. I guess he enjoyed having my daughter as his rider during the tour. We all enjoyed the horseback riding tour. Thank you to all the workers and horses for supporting us to have such a great time together. And as always, thank you to my family spirits for protecting us all the time and guiding us to a wonderful tour. We also loved the nice sunny weather and warm temperature during the tour. We will definitely go there again soon.

Since I watched the lecture with Mr. Akiyama in the homeopathy course, I’ve been impressed with his decision of not to eat and drink. He has been healthy without foods and drinks for 14 years since 2008.

I’ve been reducing the amount of food intake since December 2019 by the intermittent fasting method. I eat two meals a day and fast 16 hours every day. My next goal is to reduce my meal time to only once a day. Once my body gets used to the new habit, then my next goal will be one meal in two days then one meal in three days. Eventually I want to enjoy my life without foods and drinks. I am very serious about my wish.

In the morning my family and I went for bowling. Today I did pretty well. I had many spares and strikes.

I’ve thought about the owner of the local professional bowler’s shop. We talked with him on October 22^nd over the phone. He said he would send some website links of his recommended bowling balls, but he hasn’t done yet. He mentioned that he has a full-time job to make his living because the bowling business is just a side business/hobby. Now he has 45 balls waiting for him to take care. I hope he would accelerate his pace and we will get our own balls as soon as possible. Dear my family spirits, I have some small favors to ask. Accelerating our own bowling balls done is one of them. Pretty please, and thank you always for listening my wishes and prayers.

This morning my dad visited me in my dream. Right after I woke up, I felt my dad has 3-4 months left on this lifetime. I looked up the meaning of the dream. The online dream interpretation sites say that my dad misses me. I feel guilty that I haven’t called him for more than 3 months. Last time I spoke to him over the phone was in last July. I would have called him every week if I had stayed the same as before. But I have evolved now. I decided to follow my gut feeling and inspiration on everything I do. I don’t feel comfortable to talk to my dad yet, at this moment. I don’t know exact reasons why but I decided to wait for the right timing for me to talk to him.

It is good at least that I think of my parents almost every day, because of the assignments from the homeopathy online course. For the assignments I need to bring back all the old memories of my parents. For the first assignments I wrote down all bad memories about my parents. After I finished and re-read it through, I felt sorry for them to write down all the bad memories only. So I worked on writing down all the good memories about them, which is not required for the assignments but I wanted to do so. I wrote down lots of good things about my parents. They were very, very kind and nice people. I’ve now fully realized that how lucky I was to be able to become their daughter. Thank you to my parents for your unconditional love to me.

Now that I have to work on parsley. It started off from only one small plant, and now parsley has taken the entire section of the center area of my garden. It took me for full three days to take all the parsley from the garden, washed them off thoroughly, and let them completely dried.

I picked off only leaves. This process took many, many hours. But it was fun to enjoy the healing and refreshing aroma. Now I have lots of dried parsley that I can use for cooking or tea little by little. I appreciate the nature and plants for providing us a lot. I feel abundant, rich, and wealthy.

It has been freezing cold in the night and early morning for the past several days. My vegetable plants seemed to stop producing anymore as the leaves were all dried up. With the help of my daughter, I picked up all the tomatoes, cucumbers, and okras. We were amazed on the generous amount that were filled up seven of my containers and trays. I washed them all and let them dry. After they get completely dried, I will keep them in the freezer so that I can use them throughout the winter.