In our garden, lots of parsley and green onion are growing. I am looking forward to harvesting them tomorrow morning.

In the morning at 10 a.m., I had a second meeting with the insurance agent. This week I had talked with the other insurance agent over the phone, but for some reasons, I felt something that is kind of stopping me to go through the agent. Just a gut feeling.

When I started talking with the second agent, I could sense her sincere attitude from the way she explained and talked. I have decided to go with the second agent.

I woke up earlier than usual and prepared for my eye exam appointment. I wanted to have a better eye vision, so I didn’t wear my eye glasses at all this morning. My husband gave me a ride to the eye doctor’s office. After he dropped me off at the office, he went back home. After I saw my husband off, I walked to the office entrance and found out it was still closed. The notice says the office hour is 9 am to 5 pm. It was still 8:40 a.m. I needed to wait in front of the door for 20 minutes. It was cold outside.

At nine the office worker came and opened the entrance door. By then, there were 5 more patients waiting at the door. Everybody was obviously irritated for having waited for a while outside. The last person who arrived at the office stepped in at the receptionist counter. The other people knew I was the first person arrived, so they offered me to go next.

When I mentioned my name, the receptionist gave me a shocking news. She said their office is out-of-network from my insurance company. She apologized me on behalf of her coworker that they were supposed to inform the fact when somebody makes an appointment. I was shocked but for some reasons, I didn’t get irritated. I told the receptionist that it was not her fault. I canceled the appointment.

When I came back home, I noticed the condition of my inner peace. I was happy to know that I could stay being calm. I used to have a short temper and I would have gotten irritated and mad at them. I think it was due to my health condition. When my physical health was not good, I was easy to lose temper. Now I was okay, and that means I am doing fine in my physical health.

Today’s dream: I was with my family on our home site in Navajoland. We were building our house. We had many friends who volunteered to help us. We had fun in the process of creating something together.

When I woke up, I thought of my late dad-in-law. We always had much fun with him in creating something. If he was still here with us, this would have happen. This dream reminded me what I really hope. I need friends whom I can fully trust and have fun in creating something new together.

Today’s dream: I was somewhere in Japan. I was with a famous comedian in the house. The comedian and I were close friends living together in the house. The house was located close to beach and we can see the beach through the huge glass windows facing to the beach. We both saw a high tunami formed and coming to the beach but for some reasons we both knew we would be okay. The tunami didn’t hit our house. Then we went out to our yard. We had a small white puppy happily running around in the yard. We had a vegetable garden. We saw lots of fresh vegetables such as cucumbers, bell peppers, and tomatoes. We happily picked some up and went back to the kitchen to start cooking. Then I woke up.

I felt this dream showed the current situation. It may appear scary, but in fact, there is nothing to fear.

I did the guided meditation. My guide spirit gave me a candy. His message was like this.

My guide spirits are aware that I have been controlling what I eat. I have been avoiding eating candies to keep my good health. But they want to tell me that I don’t need to completely control what I eat. They told me I can eat candies from time to time. They told me the life exists for me to experience. The life exists for me to enjoy. They know that I know enough on how to get back to the good eating habit, so they don’t worry if I eat some candies when I want.

They want me to know everything will go well. Don’t worry anything too much. A candy is used as a metaphor. A candy represents any kinds of sweetness and fun things in life. They want me to enjoy sweetness in life.

After the incident from the insurance agent, I found two new insurance agents. I requested a quotation to them on last Saturday. Today in Monday morning two of them set up an introduction meeting with me. Both agents were female and they are probably around my age, probably slightly younger than me. One was the business owner and the other was the worker from a big company.

As of today, I had a good impression for both of them. I hope I will find the best agent for me while the next steps with them.

While I did the guided meditation, the memory of my ex-boyfriend came back to me. I really appreciate him for everything. Without him, I would not be here. I would not have my family with me at this moment.

If I could see him again, first thing I want to tell him is a huge appreciation. I want to tell him about my adventurous life after I broke up with him. I went to Mexico alone and made many new friends there. With them I explored many places. I started visiting Navajoland alone. On the way I ended up arriving at Sedona. I was not planning to go there, but found myself driving on I-17 South to Sedona. There, at the Youth Hostel, I met many nice people. I went to Navajoland with one of the new friends. I was provided an interpretation job at Lakota tour. On the way back from my third tour, I stopped by at Arizona to spend time with my boyfriend. On the trip, he proposed me for a marriage. Next spring he came to Japan to marry me. Next winter, I moved to America. Next year our daughter was born. Then, here I am with my husband and daughter.

I appreciate all the people and all the events to have created the current me. Without any of them, I would not be here. But all in all, my ex-boyfriend was the trigger for my life journey. Thus, I want to send my sincere appreciation to him. I hope you are having a good life with your loved ones right now.  

Recently my husband and daughter have been enjoying watching old movies together. They finished watching Matrix series including the newest one. Now they started watching Load of the Rings series. This movie is linked with my late friend Michiyo. I remember how excited she was after she watched this movie. She was so excited to see the beautiful scenery during the movie. Maybe she is now in the beautiful area in the spirit world right now.

As for me, while my family is enjoying American movies, I am enjoying watching Homeopathy lectures. I love studying and learning.

I had a peaceful dream. My late dad-in-law and my husband were dealing with personal items of my husband’s cousin who recently passed away. I was there as an observer. I saw my husband cousin standing there just like me as an observer. There was no conversation between us, but we were all in a calm state.

When I woke up, I thought of the cousin. He was smiling in a peaceful state. Maybe he wanted me to tell my husband that he is in a safe place with his spiritual family.