In my dream, I was at a temple. In the temple, there were only four people. All the four people were monks. I was a monk too. I have known them very well. Since I didn’t recognize the three people in my physical realm, they should be my family spirits. The four of us had a constructive conversation. Through our brainstorming, we came up to some great ideas. We all thanked each other for our great ideas. The temple was located up high in the sky. Even though we were at the very high place, whenever we wanted to see somebody in the physical realm, we could see them. All we needed to do was just focus on the person.

When the time had come for me to go back to the physical realm, the other three monks gave me a warm hug and wished me good luck in the physical realm. Then I woke up. It was a good dream and spiritual experience.  

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At night from 8:30 p.m., I attended the Sunday Service. This was my 4^th attendance to this gathering. I like being in this group. They are sincerely working hard for enhancing their spiritual awareness.

Every time it has a different energy. I am interested especially in sermon and spiritual communication demonstration.

This morning after I woke up, I didn’t jump up from the bed. Instead, I stayed in bed focusing on my feeling.

It has been almost 4months passed since my mom has departed to the spirit world. I feel lighter day by day. I feel like I have been in the recovering process to regain my true-self. I noticed how heavy traumas and burdens I had been carrying on my shoulder. Each day the heavy burdens have been peeling off. I never felt my soul lighter in this lifetime.

The main cause for all my trauma was my mom. But now my mom’s departure revealed the hidden truth I didn’t notice while she was alive. The true cause is my dad. My mom had been so stressed out for dealing with my stubborn dad for the entire time of their marriage.

It was just recently when I really and fully experienced how stubborn my dad is. I noticed his true face while I was visiting my mom in this January. My dad was never nice to my mom. Whenever my dad treated my mom in a mean way, my mom turned into mean to me. My mom needed somebody to release her stress. I need to protect myself. I cannot stay with them forever. I am so glad that I got away from them while I could.

This morning’s dream: I was with my daughter at the Japanese traditional hotel in Japan. We comfortably slept in Futon on the floor. On the next morning my daughter and I enjoyed sightseeing of Kobe. We had a great time together.

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It was one of the extreme heat days. I had lunch with my local Japanese friend at the restaurant. We share many things in common especially our hometown in Japan. I enjoyed so much for chatting with her in our local dialect.

I often tell my husband how relaxing to speak my own language. I wish he takes it seriously and will start studying Japanese language for me.

In this morning dream I was with my parents at their house in Japan. My mom kept on nudging me many things of to-do and not-to-do for my dad. My mom acted as my dad’s slave or worker who solely worked for my dad. While I was witnessing my mom, I felt sad. I went to my dad and begged him to take good care of my mom. I told my dad that my mom was not a worker for him, instead, she was his wife; the precious partner. I told my dad if he didn’t change his attitude, he would lose my mom. No matter how hard I tried to talk to my dad, no words would go through to my dad. He never changed his attitude. He stayed being stubborn. I went to the bath tub and soaked myself into a hot tub. I saw a sewing machine sitting on the side of the bath tub. For some reason, the sewing machine was shining. I knew that I should remember this sewing machine. This is the main message from my family spirits.

Then I woke up. Right after I woke up, I remembered that my mom already has departed. I started crying. I was sad that my dad never changed his attitude toward my mom while she was alive.

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After I calmed down, I looked up the meaning a sewing machine of dream interpretation.

A sewing machine in dream implies the dreamer’s concerns and worries will be solved quickly. I think this was the main message from my family spirits.

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After I calmed down, I looked up the meaning a sewing machine of dream interpretation.

A sewing machine in dream implies the dreamer’s concerns and worries will be solved quickly. I think this was the main message from my family spirits.

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For today’s meditation, I did the guided meditation to Focus-21.

The visions were displayed by frame-by-frame playback like an old movie. But all the visions were colorful ones. The visions were that of a house that we will live in the future. The house was built by woods. Interior was decorated by wooden furniture and items such as tables, chairs, counters, and tableware. It was comfortable space with calm and relaxing energy. I am looking forward to meeting this house in the near future.

New York, New Jersey and Connecticut issued a travel advisory for the people arriving from states with high coronavirus rates to quarantine for 14 days. Our state was included in the states with high Covid-19 infection rate.

Some of my Japanese friends asked me if my family and I are doing fine. They told me the Japanese news have been talking about Arizona of its high Covid-19 infection rate.

Despite the fact the infection rate has been rising, the local people act like everything has gotten back to completely normal. Recently for these one month, whenever I went some public areas such as grocery stores, I rarely see people with a facial mask. Obviously the people without a facial mask outnumbers the people who wears it.

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Update: Effective on June 27, in our neighbor city, the mayor issued an emergency declaration requiring that people over the age of 10 wear face coverings or shields while in public. Our small town still stays as “strongly recommended to wear a face covering” but not mandatory.  

I thought of Japan. They never had such declaration regarding a wearing a facial mask.

This morning I found apricots in the local grocery store. I was happy to see them. Two years ago when I tried to purchase them, I could not find them anywhere. Maybe they are very rare in this area.

Two years ago, I could not get apricots, so I used plums to make homemade umeboshi. They turned out very nice. I am using it almost every day.

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After I came back home, I weighed the apricots. They were 1,800 gram. I washed them and let them dry for one night.

On next day, June 24^th, I mixed the apricots with the salt (20% of the apricots) and covered with a plastic wrap. I put some weights with a heavy iron lid and some water bottles. They will gradually I will let it soak for one month until July 24^th. I will let them to get sun-dried for three days. Then, I will put them in a clean glass jar and let them cook by themselves for one year.  

It has been very hot recently. This afternoon, I felt dizzy. I needed to take a three-hours nap to recover myself.

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While we were walking in the evening, we found one lost item at the side of the street. It was a small bootie. At first I thought it belonged to a baby, but my husband thought it belonged to a dog.

He was right. When we got close to our house, our neighbor with two dogs asked us if we had seen one of her dogs’ little bootie. We happily answered to her we saw it. We promised her that we would bring it back to her on our second lap.

When I picked the little bootie up and took a close look, I was amazed how well it was made. It was just like a human’s shoe with a sturdy sole. In our area where it gets extremely hot during summer, dogs definitely need their sturdy shoes to walk on asphalted roads.

I started enrolling process of homeschooling for my daughter on June 16^th. Their website has some issues. The first issue was the error while uploading a file. The second issue was their website does not allow a user to review / edit once the data was input. I talked with several of the enrollment assistance representatives. They all said they were overwhelmed at the greater number of students to be enrolled for the upcoming school year.

One of the representative told me the new students will be at least 15 times as many as the previous years.

Definitely we are not the only ones who think of switching their children from public school to homeschooling.

I really hope this change, switching to homeschooling, will be beneficial for my daughter.

My husband received a phone call from his mom. Our Navajo parents have been for sick two to three days. They had some symptoms similar to Covid-19. She said the pains they were having were something she never experienced before. On last Friday, they went to the local clinic to have a test for Covid-19. Because she was scared of Covid-19, she wanted to let us know in advance.

After the phone conversation, we prayed for their safety. During the prayer, I heard a voice that their test result would come back as negative. I had a strong feeling that they would be fine.

My intuition was right. Today, on Monday morning, my husband received a phone call from them. Their rest result came in as negative. We were happy for their good news.

We have been hoping to visit them in Navajo Nation. However, we are not allowed yet. The reason is that their area is considered as one of the highest danger for Covid-19. They have the highest infection rate in our state. Our Navajo parents told us to wait until it calms down.

Our Navajo parents also told us about the procedure of our homesite. The tribe updated their procedure so that we are required to be at their office in person and sign the final form. They don’t allow the family members to sign on behalf of the applicants anymore.

During my meditation, I asked if we can go there in July. My family spirits said “probably no.” I asked about August. They said “possibly yes.”  Hopefully we can go back there to visit our Navajo parents and get our homesite procedure completed.

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I have been having a meditation time as my daily routine since June 11^th. Today I did the guided meditation of Free Flow to Focus 12.

During the meditation when I asked about my Japanese family, I heard the voice “天中殺.” I don’t belong to them spiritually. I don’t closely relate to my Japanese parents in spirit. From my family spirits’ point of view, it is quite naturel that my parents and my brother rarely communicate with me. They told me not to take it personal, rather, see things from a wider vision.

Their advice was helpful for me as I constantly keep thinking of them.    

I woke up feeling calm. In my dream I was meeting and spending time with several god’s figures. They were the Indian gods including Lakshmi, Vishnu, Shiva, and Ganapati. I am not familiar with the Indian gods, so I could not recognize all of their names. Among all the gods and goddesses, Ganapati was the friendliest one of all in my dream. He was my guide and interpreter to other gods. He gave me a gift to me right before my departure back to my physical world.

Then I woke up.

I don’t remember what the gift was. But the good thing was I felt energized coming back to my physical body.

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As for today’s meditation, I did the guided meditation of Free Flow to Focus 21.

I asked about my mom. My daughter can see spirits. According to her, my mom is not close to me anymore. She has gone further up.

In the Focus 21, I could see my mom in spirit. She was very calm and peaceful. I was so happy to see her like that.

She conveyed the message like this.

She started talking about her last days. Her last days were tough on her. All the people constantly told her to hang in there (meaning don’t die). She had a fear for death. She was so scared to die. She completely forgot about the spirit world and that our souls don’t die. In her physical body, she believed she would be nothing after her death.

In such days, I came back to see her. What I told her was totally opposite from everybody. I told her to let herself release. I told her she could depart anytime on her own best timing and best way. She followed my advice at the last moment of her this lifetime. She went through the smooth transition back to the spirit world. She appreciates me for what I did to her during her last days. She encouraged me I should keep doing my good work on helping people in my way.

Then she told me not to worry about her. She is doing great in her realm, and she knows I am doing great in my current realm. She is just super busy right now.

She said she is very proud to have me as her daughter in this lifetime. She does not have any more advice to me. Before we end our meeting, she hugged me and gave me a whole bunch of healing energy. The energy was so powerful that I had sweat all over my body.

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Right before my leaving Focus 21 back to my physical body, somebody told me this.

From now on, when somebody shows up on my right, the person is related to my paternal sides.

When somebody shows up on my left, the person is related to my maternal sides.

When somebody shows up on my back of my head, the person is related to my Navajo relatives.

When somebody shows up above on my head, the person is related to my family spirits.

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I showed my gratitude to everyone who supported my mediation, and came back to my physical body.

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Tonight on Cancer new moon, I ended up with arguing with my husband. My daughter was sad about our arguing. She went to my husband in the kitchen and spent one hour away from me. While I was waiting for my daughter to bed, one memory came back to me.

It was the memory of my 10-years old. I was the same age as my daughter. In that night, my parents argued about something. My mom came to my bedroom in the upstairs. She whispered to me that she would leave this house. She told me she has her best friend in Kyushu island. She asked me to come with her. I instantly turned it down, as my mom was not nice to me most of the times. My mom was sad about my rejection. She never left our house.

I was wondering why this memory popped up in my head at this timing. It might be my mom to send this memory.

If I went back to that night, I still think I would choose the same answer, as I never became close to my mom. What if I had chosen the different answer? What if I had left the house with my mom? My mom would have a tough time for a while to support us, but she might have had a different life ending.

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I cannot change the past. All I can do at this moment is to live my life. All I need to do right now is to talk with my husband and make peace with him. So I did. My husband and I made a peace. We promised each other to communicate well for a better understanding.