This evening I went for a long distance walking with my friend. We walked 6 miles. It took us 1.5 hours. It was a very nice walk.

During the walk, I mentioned about our house rent increase and our wish to buy a house soon.

My friend gave me a ray of light in house hunting.

She mentioned about her friend. Her friend is her neighbor across her house. The woman and her husband bought the house three years ago as their vacation house.

It is common in this area. Many rich old people who live in east side of America buy a vacation house in Southwest area. They spend summer in their place and spend winter in our area. It works perfect for them. They enjoy beautiful summer in their area. Their summer does not hot as our area. On the other hand, their winter is harsh with lots of snow. So, they spend winter in our area where it seldom has snow or very low temperature.

Sadly for them, they recently decided to get divorce. They are now in the process of divorce. The woman told my friend that the couple is planning to sell their vacation house.

My friend is not sure in details of when they will put their house in the market. But she is sure they will sell the house.

My friend’s daughter once visited their house. She said the inside of the house was nicely remodeled and well taken care of.

I was delighted with the unexpected possibility. If this house is supposed to be ours, I hope every step will go smoothly for us.  

Today my daughter had a wonderful surprise.

She received a birthday card from her Japanese friend. The card was her handmade and contained her kind message to my daughter.

I hope they will keep their friendship even after they become grownups. It is rare to meet nice friends.

They share the birthday month.

We went to store and bought a cute birthday card for her. We will give her a wonderful surprise back. We hope she will enjoy my daughter’s birthday card with her drawings.

I woke up feeling happy. I remember my family spirits were with me in my dream. They told me not to worry about the rent increase. They also told me not to take it personal. They reminded me that the previous rent amount was lower than the market value and that we could stay for almost six years with the good rate. We should appreciate for that. It was a gift from my family spirits. My mind got calmed and refreshed.

***

Back to the reality. The issue still remained. We will have to seriously think about our house. We have to take some actions to buy a house so that we will not need to worry about a sudden leave notice or a rent increase notice.

I thought about the neighbor house with a swimming pool for sale that we recently went to take a look. I checked the realtor’s website to see the status. It says “the house is accepting backup. The owner has accepted the offer but still accepting the house tour and offers from others.”

I called the new realtor whom we met at the house for sale. She was nice and easy for me to talk. She told me the house is under contract. She is the one who is dealing with the purchase process and the process is going well. She does not think the owner will accept any more price offers from others.

During the conversation, she was helpful to give me lots of information for house hunting. If I buy a house, I would like to buy it from her, not from the mean one.

I mentioned about current situation. She looked up the information of our current house. The owner bought this house with $165,000 in 2009 and tried to sell it with $171,900 in 2010. Nobody bought it. That was how the owner decided to rent it out instead of selling it. With the information, the realtor thinks the owner probably wants to have the same price for the house.

Considering other information such as the house’s age and lot size, the realtor does not think the price is the reasonable. Besides, the house does not have any remodeling or upgrades. The roof needs to be replaced soon. There were many cracks inside and outside of the house, so the walls need to be taken care of too. Unfortunately though, the realtor cannot offer us a free estimate until the owner decides to sell it.    

Some realtors’ websites estimated the house’s value as $111,000 or $118,000. There was a huge gap between what the owner wants and the realtors’ estimates. The owner will not accept these price range.

***

My husband and daughter really like our current house and want to buy it. If we buy this house, we won’t need to deal with a moving process, and that sounds brilliant. In my first five years, we changed our residence five times. We hated the moving process.

To me though, this house is not my ideal house. I want to have the entrance door facing to east, but this house is facing to west. I want to have the kitchen sink facing to a window and have the natural sun light, but this house’s kitchen is facing to bedroom. Even in the day time, I need to turn on the light while I cook.

I asked my family spirits for advice.

They told me to forget about the neighbor house with a swimming pool. As for the other option, buying the current house, they told me “do not rush!”   

I shared the messages from my family spirits with my husband. He agreed on their advice. We decided to wait for a while.

The post office now offers a prior notice email of the upcoming letters and packages. Two days ago, the notice email included the scan data of the letter from the realtor.

I got uneasy. I instantly knew this was not a happy letter.

The realtor is the representative of the house owner that we are renting. The owner can do anything, such as kicking us out or increasing the rent, as long as they notice us one month prior.

I had spent these two days feeling uneasy. If the realtor were nice and friendly, I would casually ask her what the letter was for. Unfortunately I cannot do so. If I asked her, she would reply back to me in her usual cold voice tone to wait for the letter arrive. She is not nice.

***

Today the letter finally arrived. I was right about my intuition. It was not a happy letter.

It was a rent increase notice. The letter was straightforward. It does not contain any greetings or nice wordings.

The letter said they will raise the rent by 12.5 % from January of next year. The letter asks us to sign the official document of the rent increase agreement and send it back to her. The letter also says even if we don’t send the agreement document back, it is considered we agree. Otherwise they have rights to terminate rent contract; which means we will have to move out by the end of next month.

I was shocked.

I wish the realtor was little bit nicer than doing this. I wish the realtor at least let us know in advance by a phone call, prior to the official letter. Instead, the realtor just sent out the cold-hearted letter all of a sudden. The letter was intimidating and threatening. I felt the disadvantage of being a tenant.

As for this realtor, she was nice and kind at the beginning. At least I thought so. However, my husband warned me to be careful with her from the beginning. He knew she would change her attitude right after we made a contract.

He was right. The realtor completely changed her attitude from nice to cold-hearted. After we signed the contract documents, any communications with her, including the conversation over the phone and the text messages, were unpleasant. We have been living in this house for almost six years. Whenever I needed to communicate with the realtor regarding the house, I would ask my husband to do so. He didn’t like communicating with her neither. That was how we have survived from dealing with the not-nice person.

Maybe it is the sign for us to move out this house. But then, where should we go? We don’t have any opportunities yet to find another house.

Before I slept, I asked my family spirits to talk to me about our residence in my dream.

Today it rained all day long. It was one of the rare day that rained from morning. It was cold as the lowest temperature of 2 C (35.6 F). Still, it was not bad as Navajoland at all. Their lowest temperature had been already -10 C (14 F). 

***

I watched the movie “Indian Horse (2017)”.

This movie is based on the Richard Wagamese’s non-fiction novel “Indian Horse”. It is about an Ojibwe boy who survives the Indian residential school system to become a star ice hockey player.

In one word, this was a tough movie to watch through. While watching, the memories in my deep inside flooded back to me. My soul still remembers all these terrible and unfair deeds in the past lives.  

The scenes in the school where the nuns and other school faculties treated the Native boys and girls in an abusive and cruel way. They were denied everything they received from their parents and grandparents; the mother tongue and the culture. They were forced to become a Christian.

In the movie, even after the main character boy got out of the school and became a star ice hockey player, he went through the unfair treatments from the public and society. After many Natives went through this kind of unfair treatments, they ended up becoming an alcoholic to escape from the mean society.

It was painful for me to watch this movie through. My husband left the movie in the middle. He could not watch through. He didn’t say much, but I understand how he felt.

I remember both of his grandparents often told me about their own experiences in the boarding school. They went through the unbelievable and shocking experiences, just like being described in this movie.

This is my sincere hope that the Native ancestors who had been treated improperly in the society are now all in the safe and peaceful place; aka, their original spiritual homeland. They deserve all the bests. I know they have been watching over their dependents very well from the spirit world.

I want to contribute to make this world to a better one. I have been praying for it every day. My contribution might be small, but I believe everybody’s positive thoughts does count.

My husband and I attended the Thanksgiving lunch at my daughter’s school. It is the school’s annual event to celebrate Thanksgiving food with our children.

I always enjoy this event. The school offers the special lunch to parents and guardians with a small fee. The lunch contained turkey, mashed potato with gravy sauce, steamed corn, rolls, and pumpkin bread with whipped cream.

I just had the lunch, but I already start looking forward to the next year for the lunch.

***

We had a company during the lunch. It was my daughter’s best friend’s mother and grandmother. They told me they greatly appreciate my daughter for being their child’s friend. My daughter and their child have been close friends for these past two years.

They told me their child has “Oppositional defiant disorder; ODD”. It is common mental disorder for small children who had gone through some traumatic experiences in the family. Since her parents were divorced, the child has experienced the dysfunctional family. According to her mother and grandmother, previously, the child had tough times due to the emotional swings at school.

After my daughter became her best friend two years ago, the child’s emotion got much improved than before. That was why they appreciate my daughter so much.

I recall of their teacher of the previous year. The teacher told me the child often got out of control. Nobody could handle her except for my daughter. The teacher said my daughter worked as the natural tranquilizer for the child. My daughter has a lot of patient and would listen calmly and carefully to the child. That was how my daughter always succeeded to calm her friend down.

My daughter is very nice and kind. She is well-behaved and respects others. She is wise and good at observing others. She speaks up whenever she has to. Many people often praise my husband and me for doing a great job to raise our daughter.

I appreciate their compliments, but it was not due to how we have raised our daughter. I honestly believe her good personality comes from her original soul. My daughter was born with it. She was born already mentally matured. She is an old and matured soul. My husband and I are honored to be her parents in this lifetime. She is an earth angel.

When my daughter was still a toddler, she often told me she would like to become a teacher for difficult children or mentally disordered children. I believe it is one of her life purposes in this life. She might become a teacher to save many children in the future.

I feel honored for being her mother in this life. I am willing to support my daughter for her fulfilling her life purposes.  

Last Friday my daughter came back shocked. She told me her teacher was leaving.

All the students saw the teacher was crying during the recess.  

My daughter handed me a letter from her teacher. It was addressed to me and my husband. It was a simple letter mentioned she was happy to have my daughter in her class and appreciated her for being very nice and kind to her. She also mentioned about her leaving the school. She wrote her last day would be November 26th. My daughter told me we were the only one who received a personal letter from the teacher.

I emailed the teacher and informed I received her letter. I also mentioned to her that we appreciated her kind support to my daughter.

The teacher replied back to me and told me she would call me and tell me the truth after everything is done.

The situation seemed to be serious. According to my daughter, her teacher was not resigning with her personal reason. She was fired. Nobody knows the reason why she got fired. I concerned about the teacher. I have talked with her a couple of times in person. She does not seem to be a bad person at all.  

***

This morning I talked with the school vice principal over the phone. I asked her what happened to the teacher, but she politely told me she cannot give me the detailed information. The school has been interviewing candidates who will take over the class. According to the vice principal, the teacher did not show up today.

That was a big deal. I understand the school cannot tell the detailed information to protect the teacher’s privacy. I just hope the teacher will feel better soon for whatever happened to her.

I want to share a success story of my mom-in-law. Her success story was to have improved her hemoglobin A1C in a short term.

Several months ago, her lab test result of hemoglobin A1C was pretty bad. It was somewhere in 8. This number is considered as a critical diabetic situation.

Since the shocking day, my mom-in-law drastically changed her diet. Although she loves eating carbohydrate groups especially breads, potatoes, and rice, she removed her favorite foods from her daily diet.

Six month later from the shocking day, she had another lab test.

At the clinic, her physician excitedly told her “congratulations!” My mom-in-law at first bewildered. She worried about for her pregnancy. As you know, when a female patient hears the “congratulation” word from her physician, it usually means a pregnancy, right? FYI: She does not need to worry. IF she was pregnant, I don’t mind to adopt their new born and raise him or her as our own child.

But this was not the case. What the physician was congratulating was about her hemoglobin A1C result.

Her hemoglobin A1C was dropped to somewhere in 4. This is a very good number. She completely recovered herself from diabetes. It is a real amazing story. She made it possible only in six months duration.

She loves drinking Coke. In the past six months, she still had a can of Coke every day. She never gave it up. She concluded that taking sugar, in her case; Coke, is fine with her body.

She told me that since everybody’s body functions differently, I will have to find out what is the main cause to raise the blood sugar level in my body. It might be carbohydrates just like her experience, or it might be sugar unlike her.

I am so happy for her success on recovering her good health.

***

While I was listening to her story, I was wondering what method will work for me to the point where I can completely reserve my diabetes.

I am now right in the process of my challenge. It is the intermittent fasting; the method of 16/8. I fast 16 hours every day from 7 p.m. to 11 a.m.

I started it on October 1st. It has been 48 days so far. My weight had gradually reduced in a baby step until two days before my recent monthly period. I had a sudden weight gain and unfortunately, my body keeps the gained weight. I weighed 61.2 kg on October 1st. I lost to 59.3kg on October 23rd. As of today it is back to 60.7 kg…

That being said, I still am thinking positively. The universal rule is that we are all connected and that everything happens for a reason. My mom-in-law’s success motivates me and inspired me. It was possible for her, and that means it will be possible for me, right?

While my evening walk of yesterday, I saw a hawk perched at the light pole in our street. Since a hawk is a messenger from spirit world, I felt the hawk told me to be alert and to be open to receive his messages.

***

I was right. The message came through my dream this morning.

In my dream I was in the airplane. I was with my daughter. We were on our way to Japan to visit my parents. So far, it was the same as usual. But the next scene was different from normal. The flight attendance escorted us to our seats. Our seats were in the cockpit.

I never saw that kind of view in my physical life. My daughter and I were sitting in front of all the handles and buttons to operate the airplane. In front of us, there was nothing but a wide clear view of blue sky.

We, my daughter and I, operated the airplane very well as the pilots. We arrived at Japan safely.

There, we had a good time with my parents. My parents were very healthy and active. We walked to our favorite restaurant along the beach. We enjoyed watching the surface of the ocean shined by the Sun. We laughed a lot together. It was so nice to see them in such a happy status.

***

In the evening in real life, I contacted my parents. I am happy to know that they are enjoying their normal life at their house.

I thought of the hawk showed up last night. I feel the hawk shared his vision with me. The vision was what he always sees from high up in the sky. From his bird’s view, everything looks good. I feel the hawk wants to share his perspectives to see things like he does. All is good. I realized everything is going as it should be. I appreciate the hawk for a wonderful message and vision.

Since two days ago, I gained my weight by 1 kg (2 lb) all of a sudden. I honestly didn’t do anything bad to my body such as eating sweets or too much amount. Usually I gain weight right before monthly period. I was right. My monthly period came yesterday, which was one week later than the scheduled date. As for the sudden weight rise, it calmed down with monthly period. My weight dropped down by 0.7 kg. I feel relieved.

This year of 2019 was the start year of my menopause. My monthly period cycle started showing its irregularity. Here is the log of my monthly period in the year 2019.

January 20th

February 19th – 30 days

March 16th – 25 days

April 18th – 33 days

May 10th – 22 days

June 9th – 30 days

July 14th – 35 days

August NA

September 3rd – 51 days

October 3rd – 30 days

November 14th – 42 days

Regardless of its irregularity, I appreciate that I still had it in each month except for August. I appreciate my body cells for keep having the cycle rather than completely ended. That being said, I will accept my body’s aging process. It is a natural process anyway.