This morning I received an email inquiry from my homepage contact page. She asked me if I was interested in collaborating with her business. She thinks their audiences and my audiences will appreciate for our content in our articles. Her collaboration idea was to post and promote each other’s article through our homepage.

At first, I was so happy for somebody had contacted me. I was also happy to know somebody whom I haven’t met in person read my articles. With the happy feeling, without thinking, I almost accepted her collaboration offer instantly.

I didn’t do so, however, because I do my business with the help of my husband. I needed to ask his opinion before I reply back to her.

I talked about this with my husband.

We feel the directions of her business and my business are not exactly the same. Besides, as of now I am not ready to promote my business nor my articles.

We concluded to politely turn down the collaboration offer.

I appreciate the person who contacted me. It was nice to know I have somebody who read my articles.

I appreciate my husband too for discussing about the collaboration offer. It is nice to know I am not doing this all by myself. I appreciate my husband to stand by me.

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We had a cold rain all day long today. This winter has been much wetter and colder than the previous years, as the weather report predicted.

I noticed my body is under the hibernate state. My body orders me to eat more sweets and stay being lazy during this cold winter days.

Although I still keep doing the daily exercise, I have been struggling to keep doing so. I know my personality. Once I indulge myself to skip the daily exercise with the excuse saying “it’s okay to skip only one day”, it will continue being like that. So, I am fighting with myself every day not to listen to the lazy part of me.

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For the previous ten years, I had complained about the Arizona’s powerful sun and the heat during the summer time. Since 2016, I had been strongly wishing for moving to a different area where it has much more snow and rain than our current area. We actually went to three different states to explore the new areas and looked for the houses. We never had met the right land nor the right house yet.

This year is my 11th year living in America. I finally realized one thing.

So, my realization was my body got used to Arizona of its powerful sun and the heat. I actually like we have constantly sunny days. One research shows we have close to 300 sunny days in a year.

I appreciate the Arizona’s powerful sunlight and fine weather.

I am grateful to finally say this. I love living in Arizona. It took me ten years to say this.

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My husband changed the engine oil and the oil filter for our cars. Since he started his career as a vehicle mechanic, it is easy for him to perform the vehicle maintenance service. It is handy to have him with us.

I thought back my younger days.

My car life started when I was 22 years old. I bought a used car for myself. Until I turned to 32 years old when I had to give up owning my car, I did the major maintenance for my car by myself, including engine oil and oil filter change. I put the snow chains on my tires whenever I went for skiing. I took take good care of my car by myself for years. I was proud of myself for doing these by myself.

Compared with that, after I moved to America, my husband has taken care of the maintenance service for our cars.

Other daily things are the same way.

When I was living alone, I needed to do everything by myself such as assembling a new product, fixing computer error, fixing a minor water leaking, changing light bulbs, or taking care of bugs inside the house.

Here in America, my husband takes care of all of these choirs.

It is great to have a handy person in the house and I appreciate for my husband. But at the same time, I have to admit. I have been spoiled by the convenience.

This can be applied to everything in our daily life. Once we get used to convenience, our ability might get weakened. We’ve got to brush up our ability from time to time in order to keep our ability available whenever needed.

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Starting January 1st 2019, Netflix started streaming the decluttering program. The main cast is a Japanese woman. The program title is “Tidying Up With Marie Kondo”.

I have seen her in Japanese television programs along with other online videos. I have also read her books. She has been famous of her own tidying-up method, Konmari method.

I like her method on the following four points.

– The first step is to think about our preferable future and visualize it in details. That includes our house and belongings. The vivid and detailed vison of our preferable future becomes our strong motivation for tying up.

– Once we motivate ourselves, greet to our residence and ask its support.

– In order to judge whether to keep a certain item or not, we put the item close to our heart and feel the vibration. She encourages us to use our feeling of “Tokimeki” in Japanese, “Spark joy” in English.

– In case of getting rid of an item we don’t feel Tokimeki or Spark joy anymore, we show our appreciation to the item for its purpose to come to us, and let it go.

I like her way to show our respects and appreciations to material things.

I think it is based on our animism belief. Japanese people believe Gods and spirits everywhere; in lands, daily materials, and houses. We are not living alone. We are living together with all the Gods and spirits around us everywhere. Since everything has its own divine meaning to exist, we respect each one of them.

I hope her Konmari method will be widely accepted around the world. Her method is needed to everybody not only for tidying up, but also for drastically improving our way of thinking and way of living.

Her method leads us to a comfortable way of thinking and living peacefully along with everything on this planet.

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This morning the temperature got much higher than yesterday. Although some snow stayed here and there in our backyard as well as in the streets, we had enough sun light. I enjoyed the warm energy from Sun. After the gray sky from snowy weather of yesterday, it as blessing to have blue sky with Sun shine back.

My daughter’s winter vacation is soon coming to an end. She is feeling sad about going back to school.

She often wishes to change our bodies. She wants to have my body and wants me to have her body.

Her reason was not what I expected. She envies me for not need to go to school. She wants to stay home as I do.

That being said, I don’t think she hates going to school. She always comes back from school with the happy state. She talks about fun things that she and her classmates have had on the day.  

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I thought about her wish. If we could do that, it would be fun. I would enjoy having her small body and going to elementary school.

I fully enjoyed being an elementary school student in my childhood. The reason was simple. I didn’t need to think about anything. I had many good friends. I was good at playing sports and running around. I laughed a lot. Everything was fun. I didn’t have any stress or concerns to think about.

This process made me realize the technique to stay being happy. It is simple.

— “Do not think too hard.” —

Everything is in fact simple enough for us to cope with. It is only when we start thinking too hard, everything becomes too complicated for us to cope with.

We all knew this simple technique when we were small. Thus, all we adults need to stay being happy just like small children is to unwind our thoughts.     

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This morning we were surrounded by snow, everywhere. Yes, everywhere, including the asphalted streets. It is very rare for this area to have such a big amount of snow.

Last time we had this much snow was right after my daughter was born. It was the Christmas Day of 2009. My daughter was still three weeks old. Due to the big snow, the electricity went out for more than eight hours.

This time, thankfully our electricity did not go out. Our Internet service also was fine.   

Only one drawback from this big snow was my husband’s work. His workplace was completely shut down. Unfortunately his company did not compensate for today’s work hour, he needed to use his paid holiday hour to cover.

Other than that, we enjoyed playing with snow and walking on snow.

We were all safe and healthy in this cold weather. I guess all was well.

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I had a great start of the new year of 2019.

I woke up at 5 am. I prepared breakfast for my family and myself. After we had breakfast, we went for a walk.

This is our recent routine for the new year day.

It started snowing from the early morning. We enjoyed walking in the pure powdery snow.

I love snowy day. The cold breeze from snow refreshes not only the outside air but also our feeling. 

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I want to share my wonderful dream of last night.

In my dream I was pregnant again. I touched my belly. It felt as if it was right before the due date. Even though I was in my dream state, I still could feel the warmth and a baby bumps on my belly. It felt so real to me.

I was surrounded by my family spirits. I felt the existence of Daigo, my son-in-spirit inside my belly.

I asked my family spirits how the pregnancy process went. I hated going through the pregnancy process, such as vising the OB-GYN frequently, taking a blood test, and managing my glucose level with a great care. That was the main reason I decided not to have our second baby.

My family spirits told me not to worry about it. They told me to just focus on how I was feeling. I focused on my feeling. It was nothing but happiness. I was so happy.

On my second thought, I wondered of my age. My thoughts started wondering. How old I was? Would it be happening in the real life or only in my dream?

Then, again, my family spirits told me not to worry about anything. Just stay focus on the happy feeling of being pregnant and having Daigo.

I again shook off all my concerns and wonders. I just enjoy feeling happy.

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Then I woke up. I am pretty sure my family spirits woke me up on purpose.

I checked the time. It was 00:03 am.

I liked my family spirits’ kindness. The number 3 means to create something. The Three energy is to give birth to a baby.

It might not be giving a baby birth, but it can be anything. This dream tells me that this year I will give birth to something. I will give a life to my creations. And their message for me was to focus on only the happy feeling while creating something new, instead of worrying about the detailed procedure.

It was a great start of the year. I appreciate my family spirits for the wonderful message through my dream.

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At the age of 28, I often thought of my passion. My passion at that time was to explore America.

Up until then I have visited America four times.

My first trip to America was when I was 20 years old. I participated a home-stay program. I stayed for one month at the volunteered host family in California. My second was our family vacation when I was 22 years old. We went for sightseeing in San Francisco and Las Vegas. My third was with my friend when I was 23 years old. We visited my American friend in San Diego. My fourth was sightseeing in New York and Florida for our honeymoon trip with my ex-husband.

I clearly knew my passion was not to visit tourist spots for sightseeing nor shopping. My passion is to meet local people and learn their way of living.  

I thought it was time for me to travel America alone. I took a one-week vacation in the summer of 1998. I purchased an airplane ticket and flew to Los Angeles. I had only one night hotel reservation for my first night. The remainder was left open. I wanted to go with the flow for my adventure.

On my arrival day at Los Angeles airport, I met one Japanese boy. He lived in Los Angeles and worked as the shuttle bus driver for the hotel that I stayed in my first night. We instantly fall in love at our first sight and started dating. Five months later since our first meeting, in December 1998, I took a two-week vacation and went to see him in Los Angeles. He took me to a road trip to Arizona. Our final destination was Navajo reservation. It was my first visit of Navajo reservation. There, we met a Navajo man and became friends with him.

I resigned my dad’s company at the end of 1998. In order to explore my life, I needed the environment to easily take a long vacation. I started working as a temporary worker for the American major computer company.  

In March 1999, at the age of 29, my boyfriend-at-that-time and I visited our new Navajo friend. He let us stay in his home site for two weeks. There I met his family. His had his wife and two sons.

In March 2000, I separated from my boy-friend-at-that-time. I started visiting Navajoland alone from my fourth visit. I was working as a temporary worker to support my daily life and travel cost.

In February 2001, I met a German man at the job interview. He was the director of the German printing equipment company, looking for someone who could establish a Japanese branch with him. He hired me as the office worker. It was an unbelievably excited job position to establish a new company as a start-up member with him. Through the business trip opportunities, I visited many different place within Japan along with Germany and England. I enjoyed meeting new people from other countries. I was satisfied working with the high position and the high pay.   

During such busy and exciting days working for the company, I started having vivid dreams. In my dreams, Navajoland was calling me to come back. I knew it was real. I knew I needed to go back to Navajoland soon.

I went back to Navajoland for a short vacation, a couple of times, while I was working as a full time for the German company. Every time I went back there, I wanted to stay longer.

I discussed with my director about my passions. My director encouraged me to follow my passion. So I resigned the company in 2003.

I started working as a temporary worker as an in-house translator at the water heater manufacture and the medical equipment manufacturer. I also worked as an interpreter for their new product introducing conference.

In 2006 and 2007, I visited Lakotaland as an interpreter for Japanese customers.

In July 2007, on my way back from Lakotaland to Japan, I stopped by at Arizona to visit my boyfriend-at-that-time. He proposed me for a marriage and I accepted his proposal.

In March 2008, he came to Japan and we got married in Japan.

In December 7th 2008, after eight months of the U.S. immigrant visa procedure, I moved to America.

In December 2009, I gave birth to our daughter.  

For the last ten years, I settled in America with the help of my husband and my daughter.

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There is an interesting fact about Saturn Return.

Saturn Return occurs when the planet Saturn comes back to meet your natal Saturn. My first Saturn Return period was in March 1999. It was when I met my husband.   

In my understanding, Saturn helps us to get back to the route of our original life mission. In my case, at that time, I almost forgot about my life mission. I tried hard to settle in Japan. My efforts included trying to become a president of my dad’s company, getting married to a Japanese man, and purchasing a house. None of them didn’t work well for me, because they were not on my life mission route. I was heading a wrong direction. I believe Saturn helped me to correct my life direction. And the most important start happened in my first Saturn Return, which was to meet my husband.

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I have another interesting fact.

The Navajo man whom I met in my first trip to Navajo reservation is now my dad-in-law. From the first day we met, he started calling me his daughter. Now I has become true.

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My Heisei period had brought me all the way to America. Although it was not easy, I am happy with my past journey. I appreciate to my family spirits and angels to have guided me to the place where I am at right now.

My life journey continues…

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In Japan, we recognize a year by the name of Era. The name of Era is based on the reign of the emperors. We use the Era year in a variety of paper works in our daily life, so that we keep being alert what year of what Era.

Traditionally the name of Era had been changed when we get a new emperor. The current era is called “Heisei. This new era started on January 8, 1989, the day after the death of the Emperor Hirohito.

The current emperor, Emperor Akihito, decided to abdicate the Chrysanthemum Throne before he passes away. Thus, Heisei Era is coming to an end on April 30th 2019.

Many news articles and celebrities review these 30 years of Heisei period. I should review my Heisei period before it ends.

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As for my 30 years of Heisei Era, it was my early adult years.

When Heisei era started, I was 19 years old. I was a university student majoring in English linguistics. Although I didn’t study hard, I always got high grades. Studying English was not difficult for me. Instead of studying, my days were occupied with dating with my boyfriend, attending parties, and working a variety of part time jobs. I never worried about money because I was living under my parent’s roof, physically and mentally.

At the age of 21, my parents bought a new house and moved to the new house. I thought it was time for me to be independent from my parents, so I started living alone.

At the age of 22, one of my professors encouraged me to proceed to the graduate school. With their kind offer of a scholarship for the tuition, I pursued my further degree. I earned a Bachelor’s degree and a Master’s degree in English linguistics.

After graduated, at the age of 24, I started working at my dad’s company. I was planning to take over his position, to become a president of the company. I literary learned “Saying is one thing and doing another” by my direct experiences. It was tough. I had never experienced such heavy stress before. It was my first challenge in my life. I learned a lot from my mistakes while working there.

On January 17 1995, at my age of 24, I was at the middle of big earthquake, known as the Great Hanshin-Awaji Earthquake. I was renting one of the rooms of the 2-storied apartment. The building collapsed at both ends. Due to the evacuation order, all the tenants were required to move out to a safe area. I moved to the next city. Since my new residence was away from my parents’ house and I felt uneasy, I moved back to my parents’ house. Soon I found myself living uncomfortably living with my parents. I needed a drastic change. I decided to marry to a man whom I had dated only for three months. We had a huge wedding ceremony on December 9th 1995.

We got married without knowing ourselves. We started disagreeing for everything. Soon we realized our marriage was a huge mistake. After lived for one year, I moved out to a new place alone on December 1996.

At that time in Japan, a divorce was one of taboos. Both my parents and his parents were against of our divorce. They felt embarrassed for our divorce. My husband and I pretended we were still happily married even though we lived separately. After eight months living separately, our parents finally approved for our divorce. It was summer of 1997.

Up until then since I was born, I had moved my residence six times. I was still working at my dad’s company with a high position. I could afford to buy my own house.

On December 1997, at my age of 27, I purchased my own condominium with a 15-year home loan. At this moment, I didn’t want to get married anymore. I thought of living by myself for the rest of my life.

Continued to part two—   

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This morning I received an unusual email. It was from the Japanese spiritual teacher. She announced she would send the group distance healing energy on January 1st 2019 for free of charge on.

I participated in her first free session. It was on Oct 6 2017. I liked it very much. I could feel and actually see the clear vision from her session.

She stated in the description area that she needed the participant’s accurate full name, date of birth, and address. In case any information is missing, she will remove the participant without informing the person.   

I input my information her online application form. Right before I hit “Submit” icon, I felt like I should review the information I just input. When I clicked “Back” icon, all the information was cleared. Everything went back to blank. But for some reason, I clicked “Next Page” icon and clicked “Submit” icon, without thinking.

I could have contacted with her through the contact page. But for some reason, I didn’t do so. I don’t know why, but I thought I should just let it go. If my information has gone blank and she removes my name from the list, it is okay with me. I decided to let my family spirits decide if I need this free session or not.

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Update: She scheduled to send out the healing energy at 22 pm on January 1st 2019 in Japan. My time was 6 am on the same day in America.

On the new year morning, I woke up at 5 am. After prepared for breakfast, I went to my room and got myself ready for receiving the healing session. I meditated for about 30 minutes. I didn’t feel anything.

Compared with the last time, it was obvious that my name was removed from the list.

To be honest, I didn’t feel disappointed at all for being removed from the list.

I fully believe in my family spirits. They decided that I didn’t need to participate in this free session.

My family spirits are right. I can connect to my family spirits anytime anywhere. I don’t need anybody’s support for now.

I am grateful to know to know this. I feel blessed to believe in myself.

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