When I was small, I used to hate the fact I was born as a girl. I wanted to be born as a boy. I used to say that to my mom frequently. During my elementary school days, I would play baseball with my male friends after school. In any kinds of gathering occasions such as New Year celebration or Obon festival, people naturally gathered as a male group and a female group. I tended to stay in a male group.

When I was a graduate student, I was 22 years old at that time, the school offered me a part time job at the university campus. There were around 10 male professors in my workplace office. It was a study abroad agency.

My job was easy. I made coffee for the male professors. I was the only female worker. I read several newspaper written in English and gave the brief highlights to the other professors. Whenever I found some helpful information regarding foreign schools, I gave the rough summary to the professors.

One day, I got pissed off at making coffee for male professors. I know it sounds silly, but I was serious at that time. I was mad that I was born as a female. I was mad at the society that made the stereotyped concepts. In most workplaces, female workers were naturally responsible to make coffee for male workers.

Among the ten male professors, there was one professor whom I fully trusted and respected. He was open minded and smart. I started expressing my feeling about the stereotyped concepts to him.

He listened to me quietly and carefully. After he let me talk everything how I felt, he asked me why I didn’t like being born as a girl. Once I started expressing the reasons, all the memories from my childhood, even from my past lives, came to me vividly. I started crying so hard.

What he said to me was amazing. He said something like this.

“First off, let me apologize to you as a representative as every man who treated you in a wrong way, both on this lifetime and past lives. Secondly, please know women are more superior to men, which is supported scientific data such as DNA. Women are gifted many things that men cannot experience”. 

He went on and on about the benefits being born as female.

He also reminded me it was me who chose to be born as a girl on this lifetime.

The conversation with him was an excellent healing session. He successfully healed my wounds and change the energy direction from the past to the future. 

This day became my turning point. Since this day, I started appreciating on living a life as a woman. I cannot appreciate enough to this professor who naturally guided me to the right direction.

And, now, especially after I have my husband and daughter, I do appreciate being as a woman so that I can become his wife and her mom.

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This morning I walked to the bus stop with my daughter. When we almost reached at the bus stop, I noticed I was walking with bare handed. I usually carry my daughter’s backpack to the bus stop, but this morning, I forgot to grab it.

My daughter and I looked at each other’s face and busted into laughter.

We quickly run back home, grabbed the backpack, and run back to the bus stop. We made it. Some minutes later, the school bus arrived and she went to school as usual.

Just a silly simple mistake. But I am happy that I could laugh with my daughter.

It is good to laugh, instead of thinking seriously, instead of constantly being intense.

When I was in Japan, living alone and going to work, every time when I was overslept or forgot something to work, I could not laugh about it. Because I tended to take things seriously. Because I didn’t want to lose my job. I was obsessed to be on time, be perfect on everything. I was constantly intense.

Compared with my younger days, I am now more relaxed and easy going than ever. I am glad that I now can raise my daughter with ease.

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I finished reading Chris Anderson’s book; TED Talks: The Official TED Guide to Public Speaking. Chris Anderson is the owner of TED, a nonprofit organization that provides idea-based talks.

His book is inspiring and full of helpful tips for public speaking. He introduces many TED speakers in his book and I watched all of them. That is why it took me for three months to finish reading it. Each speaker was unique. Some of them seem to be a natural born public speaker, while some others obviously were nervous and their body and voice were shaking. I actually liked in both ways.  

One of the Ted speaker was Monica Lewinsky. In her talk, The price of shame, she shared her own experience on being a victim of cyberbullying. She went to the very edge to lose everything, including even her own life. But she survived with the help and support of her family and friends.

First off, she was scared and reluctant to go in public and share her story. However, over the time, she had heard the news about the people who went through cyberbullying and killed themselves. She thought she should come out in public and share her experience. She kept on motivating herself by saying the mantra to herself. The mantra was “This matters.” I am glad that she came out to public and shared her talk. Her sharing does matters.

I hope many people will watch and listen to her. Her talks was important for everybody. Bullying can happen everywhere. I personally experienced the terror from mass psychology. I also experienced being bullied by many others.

When you witness somebody being bullied, please do not simply join in to a mass bullying group. Let’s at least take time to know the truth. In many cases, the person might have made a small mistake. However, like Monica says in her talk, “We all deserve compassion.” 

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I like online shopping because I don’t need to have a conversation with anybody when I buy online. Yes, I admit that I am a misanthrope somewhat.

Anyway, weird things happened. Two days straight, yesterday and today, I received two packages from different online shops. In both orders, one item was missing.

I needed to report about this to both stores. I didn’t want to call because I don’t like to speak English on the phone. Besides, most of cases, I need to listen to the recorded announcement instructing to press this number and that number, then I will need to wait for the next available representative.

So, I chose their online chat as my contacting method. While I was chatting with two different representatives, another weird things happened. Although I never met them in person, I could see their appearance and daily life pattern.

One representative was a man. He was in his early 30s. He was wearing a light blue and yellow plaid shirt and a light beige colored slacks with a pair of sneaker. He was a single dad who were raising two teenage girls. He loved his daughters and he didn’t mind sacrificing his time and money for his daughters.

The other representative was a young woman. She was in her early 20s. Her current job was her first job in her life. She didn’t like her current job. She put up with her working hour by thinking about her private time after work. She enjoys her private time by going to yoga and cooking classes. She enjoys chatting with her friends there.

I don’t know why I saw these visions. It does not happen all the time but does happen once in a while. They might be somewhat spiritually connected with me. So, the missing items brought me some spiritual seeing ability practice.   

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Babies choose their parents and all the given environments such as their gender, nationality, date of birth, and date of place.

I want to share one story. I heard this story from a girl who was 5 years old at that time. The girl was gifted to see and hear spirits and angels.

While the girl’s mother was pregnant with her second baby, the girl often talked to the baby’s spirit in her mom’s tummy.

One day the baby’s spirit told the girl that it decided not to be born this time. The baby was planning to be born as a unique being; “different from others”. It would provide great learning opportunities for the baby and the baby’s family. However, after the intense observation of the parents’ current energy and the probable future energy, the baby’s spirit and its family spirits decided this parents were not ready for this plan.

One night, the baby’s spirit said good-bye to the girl. The girl saw the baby’s spirit was carried by 4 small angels and flew into the sky. The girl saw them off until they became invisible. The girl didn’t say that to her mom.

On the following morning, the mother felt something wrong in her tummy and went to see the doctor right away. The doctor found out the baby was already dead in her tummy. It was 1 week before the due date.

Later on, the mother got pregnant again, and had a healthy baby.

According to the girl, the healthy baby’s spirit was different from the previous one.

The previous one already found the perfect parents who willingly agreed to go through having and raising a challenging conditioned baby. This parents were ready to have challenges, and also, they are willing to change the society based stereotyped perspectives through the baby’s growth. 

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I am a fresh-air and natural sunlight lover.

Every morning right after when I wake up, I open all the windows in the house. This is my routine all my life. I do so even in rainy days and windy days. I like to have fresh air and natural sunlight, and I need them physically, mentally, and spiritually.

Once in a while I run into some people who are not like me. They don’t like to have fresh air and natural sun light in their houses. They like to keep their windows and curtains shut all day long. Their houses are always dark, so that you need to turn on the light even in daytime. The old energy get stuck at the same place because there is no stimulation of energy flow. In such houses, I feel my energy is drained. I eager to go back to my house as soon as possible.

Hotels are same way. The room temperature is controlled by air conditioning system. At most motels, windows cannot be opened for security reasons. Even if we can open one window, the air flows only one way without air circulation. I can’t feel healthy when I need to stay at hotel for many days.

In my personal opinion based on my own experience, we all need fresh air and natural sunlight for our good health. They are natural medicine to raise our vibration. They also function as cleansing by removing old and sucked energy. 

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I keep enjoying listening to Hay House’ World Psychic Summit. Today’s interviewer was Pea Horsley; an animal communicator. She guided the audience an animal communicator meditation, so I participated too.

She told us to think about one animal that we wanted to communicate. I thought about my dog who passed away in 1992. My family adopted a sheltie when he was only 3 weeks old as a puppy. He had lived his life for 11 years with us.

When I merged with his spirit, he projected all his memories about his life with my family and myself to me. All the memories through his eyes were beautiful. Each scene accompanied with our emotions. There was no word communications.

He passed away from his sickness and old age. It was very sad for us. I see many people have another pet right after their pet passes away as a replacement. It didn’t happen to my family. Since his departure, my family and I could not have any more pets. We loved him and we didn’t want to replace him with a new pet. He was unique and only one for us.

After his death, I suffered from regret and guilt feeling toward him that I could not spend more time with him.

My dog told me it was okay. He asked me to let go of such feelings toward him. He said all the animals come to certain people as their pet for reasons. When he communicated that with me, I instantly knew he came to my family, mainly for my mom. My dog also told me all the pet animals know their time is shorter than humans. They know they will go before them. They don’t scare of death, like humans do.

He showed me the last moment of his transition from physical realm to spirit realm. He said there was no pain at all. He felt full of love from us; his physical family as well as his spiritual family who came to pick him up.

It was great to be able to communicate with my dog. I felt he was reincarnated to a female dog in this life, and is currently living a life somewhere happily. I felt his current owner is a little girl who is taking good care of him. They are best buddies. I am happy for him. You deserve to have a happy life.

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For these past several months, my phone has acted weird. My main contact is my husband. Whenever he tried to reach me by calling, my cell phone went directly to the message center. Whenever he tried to reach me by texting, he didn’t receive any reply from me. After he came back home, he would mention about that. On my side, however, I was at home all day long with my cell phone available with me all the time. I didn’t hear any phone calls or receive any text messages.

That kind of things happened many times. Perhaps other people experienced the same. The sad thing is though, I don’t know who tried to contact me, because my cell phone never showed any caller history or text messages history that I didn’t receive.

Luckily today, my husband found out my cell phone had too much unnecessary data. So he cleaned up such data.

My cell phone now has enough available data and starts working normally. I had spent several months without being reached by anybody. Well. I guess it is okay. When somebody needs to reach me, it happens anyway anyhow. I fully trust my family spirits that they connect necessary people with me no matter what.

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Today I did a woods meditation. I walked into the woods, deeper and deeper. When I reached at the center of the woods, there was a lake. The surface of the lake was sparkling. It was beautiful. Very calm and quiet. But at the same time, I could hear the branched and leaves dancing with the wind were making gentle sounds. Rhythmical. Sounds like mom’s lullaby. I felt like as I being held in my mom’s arms.

Then, a female being came out from the lake. She could be one of my family spirits. She had a soft and long hair. The hair was shining silver and waved by soft breeze. She was holding a small wooden gift box. She floated toward me. She smiled at me. She took my palms and put the gift box on my palms. Even though she did not hug me, I felt like I was hugged by her gently and warmly.

She communicated with me that I should open the gift box. I opened it. I found a small spear. It was shining silver. I instantly knew it was not used as a weapon. It was a protection tool for me.

In my journey, in my daily life, every time I encounter a negative energy person who is surrounded by angry energy or sad energy, instead of sucking up such negative energy, I should use this protection tool to reflect the energy back to the originator.

I thanked my family spirit for the wonderful gift. This is the tool I need the most right now.

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Hay House offers World Psychic Summit starting from today for one week. I enjoyed today’s three interviews. While listening to them, I reassured the importance of practice in order to enhance our psychic ability. Meditation is critical. Quieting our mind regularly is a must that we need to make time every day.

I already knew all their suggestions, but it is good to remind them from time to time. Knowing and actually activating are two different things. Although I knew that, I haven’t done the practice every day.

I meditate every day, but other than that, I have stopped other daily practices these days.

I used to pull one angel card every morning, but I haven’t done this for a while. I should start incorporating it in my daily routine.

John Holland suggests to play with our intuition. For example, before you receive the phone call, guess who is calling without seeing the caller ID. When you receive the utility bills, guess the charged amount before you open the bill. Before you go to something such as meeting or dinner, ask your gut feeling how you feel, and trust the first impression.

Following your intuition and trusting it fully will bring us a solid foundation on our psychic ability.

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