This morning in my dream, I was walking toward north. I knew I would face to some tough challenges, but I also knew I could handle them. I was full of courage and strong enough to handle them.

When I woke up, it made sense to me. My trip to Japan is coming closer and closer. The physical leveled me, in a way, is feeling scared and reluctant to see my parents again. I haven’t seen them for almost seven years. I don’t mean I hate them nor I don’t want to see them again. No. It is totally opposite. The truth is that I love them so much and I am reluctant to see them getting thinner and weaker. I have been avoiding seeing them for these years, because I could not handle the truth; eventually they would leave this life.

Right before I woke up, my family spirits sent me the message. In my dream, north represents the spirit world. By touching the north energy, I will be able to get clear visions about everything between my parents and myself, on why I chose them as my parents in this lifetime.

The main purpose of this trip for me is to tell my parents in person that I love them a lot. 

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In Japan, today is the last day of summer vacation for students. My Australian friend mentions today is their last day of winter. So, today is the transitional day for many people. We will end something today and get ready to welcome a new cycle for tomorrow.

Maybe it is the reason why I had a dream of a green frog this morning. I’ve heard about a frog in dream brings good luck. In Japanese, a frog is pronounced as “ka-e-ru”. It means to be returned. So, a frog in dream implies something will be returned, and in many times, the “something” can be money, good human relationship, or good health. In my case, since my current desire is to get back to my good health, this morning’s dream is definitely a good sign for me.

A frog can be also a messenger from spirits. Since a frog can live two different areas; in water and on land, and can go back and forth in both areas, a frog is considered as a spiritual being who can bring messages from spirit world to human world. In this sense, I feel honored that a frog appeared in my dream today. I consider this dream as a confirmation that I can keep my job as a messenger from spirits.

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I read the news about Louise Hay. Her Facebook Page describes her transition as “August 30, 2017, of natural causes at age 90. She passed peacefully surrounded by loved ones.”

Although I never met her in person, I owe her a lot. She created the solid foundation of spirituality in this era. I want to tell her my Thank-you from my heart.

When I was small, spirituality was a no-no topic to talk about. I was born with my past lives’ memories. I could read all the living creatures’ energy in color. I could see the passed away souls in the street. Every time I mentioned it, my mom shushed me. She was afraid that people might have treated me as mental illness by talking about such invisible things. Thanks to Louise’s consistent efforts, nowadays so many people can freely speak up about spirituality.

I like the truth that she had a long life as of age 90. And she could have her transition naturally. In her life, she had helped and encouraged millions of people. What we can bring back to the spirit world is nothing but our memories and our good deeds. In that sense, she earned millions of people’s appreciations. It is priceless. Thank you so much Louise for everything that you had done to this world. I see many souls are giving her a flower bouquet with their appreciations.

Somebody told me long time ago, that we can decide our transitional time, and method in details, as we like. It is based on our decision. That means, it might not appear exactly as your physical state of you desires, but it is true as soul leveled of you desires.

For me, I want to have my transition as natural. I want to know beforehand, which I most likely will, so that I can say thank you to my loved ones before I go. And, hopefully, after my transition, my loved ones will congratulate my graduation and appreciate for what I have done in this lifetime.

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I read the news about North Korea. They fired a missile over Japan on Aug 29th 2017. Every time when I read about this country, I am filled with many “why-s”.

I want to believe all the souls who are incarnated into the planet Earth are originally pure and divine. But how about the dictators? What are their life purposes and life missions? What about the people? Why were they willing to be born in the country? I cannot find any answers for them.

Then, I found one speech at TED talks. The speaker was a North Korean woman; Hyeonseo Lee, My Escape from North Korea. When she mentioned a stranger man, who happened to be there, gave her a large sum of cash (£645 to be exact) to save her family. She says in her talk “The kind stranger symbolized new hope for me and the North Korean people when we needed it most.”

So, maybe, they were incarnated to participate in this change process. I hope and pray that the people all over the world will support one another and change the world into a better one.

I remember my dad told me while I was processing the US immigrant visa procedure. The process took us for 9 months. We needed to pay money in each procedure. And, I needed to take unnecessary immunization shots for the procedure, which I still feel they harmed my health. During this time, what my dad told me was divine, and I respect him for his wish. He said;

The world has been changing at the fast speed. I am sorry that you have to go through to the visa procedure. I hope and wish that the world will be changed by your grandchildren’s generations, that world will completely cease the country borderlines so that all the people can freely go and live in anywhere they want, regardless of the birthplace or the race. We won’t need a passport or a visa.

In this sense, we might be lucky to live in this transitional time frame. Whatever we do will influence our future generation. I hope we will select the right options at any moments.

I believe what we can do at this moment is to know about North Korea, and support the people. Please listen the other two speaker’s speeches at TED talks. Suki Kim’s TED talk; This is what it’s like to go undercover in North Korea. And Joseph Kim’s TED talk; The family I lost in North Korea. And the family I gained.

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I started studying about CPR and AED through online class. My mom recently had a heart attack. I don’t know about the exact situation on how she could survive. Maybe my dad or her friends were with her at that time. Thank you somebody for saving my mom’s life.

When a patient receives the proper first-aid treatment at an emergency situation, the patient’s survival rate is increased. Since I have heard about my mom’s survival story, I have been searching an opportunity to learn such first-aid treatment.

In order to save somebody, you don’t need to be a special hero. You just need to have the necessary knowledge at the right timing at the right place. As I am armed with the knowledge through this online class, I feel some of my lacking areas to be covered.

In almost all the lectures, the instructor emphasizes on the importance of protecting yourself first. Then, another important tip is always to stay calm. It is very true. The patient is under a panicking situation, a supporter has to stay being calm and alert for the patient, as every information might be helpful for the further treatment by the professionals.

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Yesterday since I accepted my tooth pain as the necessary process to heal, I have experienced an interesting finding. I didn’t wake up at the middle of the night for the tooth pain. I slept through all night. My tooth pain might be almost gone.

From this experience, I learned the importance of acceptance.

In the afternoon, I went to the grocery store. As usual, before I left, I prayed that I could keep my vibration high no matter what happens. It might sound weird to you, but you need to do this before you go to the grocery store in my area, where you will run into a whole bunch of grumpy workers and cashiers at the store.

When it came to the payment, I greeted to the cashier nicely with a friendly smile, as usual. Most of the times, my friendly smile works well to change the grumpy cashier into slightly nicer. But today, it didn’t work. The cashier stayed grumpy from the beginning to the end.

Nothing in the environment has changed. But today, I have changed my attitude. I accepted the grumpy cashier as she was. Then I felt good. In a way, I did well today, because the grumpy cashier did not affect my vibration at all, I could stay in the same vibration level after dealing with the grumpy cashier.

So, it is true that when you see things differently, things are different than before. Let’s make effort to see things differently into a better way, so that things will follow to be changed in a better way eventually.

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I have been suffering from tooth pain for these three nights. I had my molar treated on August 22nd. Luckily, from the second day, I didn’t have any pain at all.

For some reasons, however, the sharp pain came back in the night. For these three nights, after I went to bed at 9 pm, I had suffered from severe pain until midnight. And after midnight, I somewhat lost conscious and could fall asleep until the morning. I writhed in severe pain in the night, but the pain disappeared in the day time.

I did some research about the molar treatment and the accompanied pain. One Japanese dentist’s explanation made sense to me. He says in his article that after the molar treatment, the patient has severe pain in the gum area. There were some viruses that were supposed to come out long time ago. But with the crown, they never had opportunities to come out. Once the old crown was taken out, the viruses finally got opportunities to come out. It is good to go through these pains because these are supposed to come out anyway.

When I read his article, I finally could accept the pain in my molar and gum area.

It was amazing. Once I accepted the pain as necessary, I started embracing the pain. In a way, I could include the pain as my alley, instead of hating the pain as my enemy.

I thought I should use this technique in my human relationship. If I can accept some people whom I feel as my enemy, I might be able to build peaceful energy around me. And, that will attract more peaceful energy around me, and I can share my peaceful energy with many other people.

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Today is my husband’s birthday. My daughter had been busy packing and decorating the gift box for him. She ended up to make a big cardboard box birthday gift for him. We celebrated with his favorite dish (beef steak and rice) and birthday cake. We shared quiet, peaceful, and happy time together. At his birthday of last year, we were still suffering from being unemployed and having uneasy days. I feel blessed everything has turned to be great this year.

When I met my husband for the first time, he was 16 years old. Those days he was still a child with pure heart. His outstanding personality was in his kindness and gentle demeanor.

After he joined the military, his original personality had been pushed away. He had spent eight years in the military. For those years, he was filled with anger almost every day. From my perspective, he was a completely different person from his original self. After he left from the military, he has regained his original personality back gradually, day by day, year by year. I love him being as his true himself.

I believe the environment can affect the person’s personality. The work place has especially strong influence.

I had once worked as an in-house translator for the water heater manufacturer. I had worked for them for two years. It was a very traditional Japanese styled company which had the strong concept of the domination of men over women. Whenever I did a great job, my supervisor stole the credit from me. Whenever my supervisor made some mistakes, he blamed me although I was nothing to do with it. Most experiences that I went through at the company were humiliating. And I knew, those days, I was full of anger. I was away from my true self. After I left the company, I started regaining my true self.

I think it can happen to everybody. It is important for all of us to stay being as our true self. If you feel you are under bad influence from your workplace, you might want to think seriously to leave the company. It is scary to leave from the old one, but once you let the old one go with courage, you might run into the best fitted workplace where you can stay being yourself.

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We are now enjoying autumn flesh breeze and clear sky. And, not to mention, very comfortable temperature; not too hot, not too cold, just right.

When I was taking a walk in my neighborhood area, I found one bundle of clouds in only one spot. Except for this spot, the sky was clear.

As you know, spirits are good at using nature to convey messages to us. And the message varies to the person who sees and interprets it. From these clouds, you might gain some new inspiration which the message is only for you.

To me, these clouds on the left look like three persons, which represent my family; my husband, our daughter, and myself. On the right, I see two small figures. I interpreted these two beings will be two of my grandkids; a boy and a girl.

There is no rights nor wrongs when it comes to interpreting the messages from the nature. Whatever resonates with you is the right message for you, but it might not apply to other people.

Looking at clouds is one of the good ways to practice on expanding your imagination and inspiration. Enjoy it whenever you can.

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Today I went to my routine diabetic checkup. I expected my A1C to be improved because the past three months, during the summer vacation, I had enough exercise every day. However, it went up to 7.8, which is very high.

I was disappointed. I don’t have any excuses for that. I thought I did pretty well, but the result showed I didn’t.

My favorite male doctor was transferred to next town, where it is one hour drive to the office. The receptionist asked me if I still wanted to stick with him or not. I chose the easy option, which is change my doctor whomever available today at the closest office.

Maybe it was a wrong option for me. The new doctor was intense, taking time by asking millions of questions. I ended up staying at the doctor’s office for more than 1.5 hours, which is to me unbearably long. The doctor scared me a lot.

Also she gave me lots of homework. I should check my blood sugar three times a day and keep food diary. She made a follow-up appointment with me one month later, and I was told to bring the food diary and the glucose checker. The doctor’s office has the software so that just connecting to the glucose checker, they can download all the data. Whenever I am asked to do such glucose related daily tasks, it reminds me of my miscarriage. It makes me feel sad and drained. By the time I left the office, I was exhausted, depressed, and loss of hope.

On the other hand, my previous doctor never took that long in our conversation. Regardless of such a short conversation, every time when I left the doctor’s office, I was cheerful, happy, and full of hope.

The difference between the two is clear. My previous doctor believes diabetic can be reversed, the other doctors don’t believe so. I want to stick with the positive thinking doctor. I will switch back to my previous doctor from my next visits.  

I already miss his cheerful encouragement. He always had a big smile on his face, telling me “don’t worry too much. You can reverse it for sure. It is going to be totally okay. Just watch out for your diet and do enough exercise every day.” I like to hang around with an easy going person rather than a serious and intense person.   

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