This morning I went to see the Ophthalmologist for the diabetes eye exam. My nurse was extremely rule and arrogant. I don’t know what was wrong with her, but she kept on treating me really badly.

I noticed one slight improvement in me. Before, maybe me one years ago, I would get irritated by this rude person. Today, however, I was totally fine. I took a couple of deep breathes and was able to calm myself down to normal state. Instead of getting affected by the rude person, I stayed being calm and observed this person.

I thought about what is the meaning of interfering with this rude person. Perhaps, one meaning is to recognize my improvement and congratulate myself for being able to stay calm. And the other meaning is to let me recognize that if I don’t want to be treated rudely by medical staff members, I should avoid coming to the hospital as much as I can.

The medical staff can be rude and mean because they have to deal with sick people every day. It is understandable. So, my conclusion is simple. I want to avoid coming to the hospital as much as I can.

Therefore, I will need to commit myself to positively proceed to maintain my good health. My small but consistent efforts will be doing daily exercise, eating healthy and moderately, and maintaining my calm state.

I guess I should appreciate for this rude nurse to make me realize some findings today.

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I am watching the The Truth About Cancer: A Global Quest, Day 2, directed by Mr. Ty Bollinger. All the information is very eye opening.

Along with watching the show, some of my personal experiences pops up to my conscious.

In the show, one girl answered the interview, saying she was forced to have chemotherapy. I think we all have experienced a strong pressure from the community and hospital staff to receive the same treatment as others. Once you refuse the treatment, many different staff members come trying to persuade you to take it, by putting strong pressure.

Here is one of my personal experiences. I knew vaccines are very bad for babies. I wanted to avoid any vaccines for my daughter. But I also learned that not having vaccines will cause my daughter troubles, such as not being accepted by public schools or even by public preschools.

Anotehr example. During my labor, I was taking some homeopathic remedies in the labor room. When one of the nurse knew that, she warned me to stop taking homeopathic remedies right away, otherwise they would kick me out from the hospital. I couldn’t believe what I heard. Not only form this nurse, but also I experienced many, many unpleasant instructions from medical staff members. That is why I am reluctant to go to the hospital.

In this show, they shared the information that mammography causes cancer. Actually I’ve heard this many times when I was in Japan. That is why I didn’t have one. Once I moved to America, every time I went to see a doctor for annual checkup, they strongly recommend mammography checkup. One American female doctors were very good at persuading me. She looked into my eyes and suggested me to take one. I can tell she believes mammography can help finding cancer at the early stage and the early discover of cancer is the only way to save the patient’s life.

So, I made an appointment of mammography. It was three years ago, 2014. As the appointment days was coming closer, I started hearing the clear voice telling me not to take mammography checkup. The voice came from my family souls. I trusted my family souls and canceled the appointment.

I don’t fully trust what the doctors or nurses say. Especially when they try to persuade me something relates to medication or treatment, I tune into my gut feeling. It is beyond the logical thinking. Just a feeling. And the feeling is always faint. Very subtle sigh. I believe I am responsible for my body and health. Instead of accepting everything doctors and nurses say, we should listen and honor to our gut feeling first, and make a decision whether to accept or refuse.

In this show, the director commented that his intention of this show is not to blame medical staff. There are many good people working in the medical industry. He emphasizes that the system is broken. And that is why he is sharing this show to educate people, so that at least people know their right to accept or refuse a certain medical service. I totally agree with him. I appreciate him for sharing this show.

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Today March 21st is the day when we enter to a new cycle. The Sabina symbol of March 21st is Aries 1st degree. It is describes as “A woman rises out of water, a seal rises and embraces her.” My horoscope teacher mentioned that after going through one cycle ending of pieces 30th degree, we go through a certain blank stage. It is pitch black so that we cannot know what will be there in a newly coming cycle. However, we cannot go back to the old cycle anymore. Only way that we can take is to take courage and jump into a new cycle. This degree is telling me “once you jump in, you will get embraced.” That means once you take courage to jump in to a new environment, you will be okay because you will receive expected supports.

Today I started watching The Truth About Cancer: A Global Quest directed by Mr. Ty Bollinger. I personally and honestly believe that cancer can be healed without surgery or any western medication. And I support his work and effort.

In Japan, a Japanese doctor, Dr. Makoto Kondo, has suggested that one should not fight against cancer. I agree and support his voice. Cancer may kill, but I would choose to live the remainder of my life without any extra suffer from not beling myself.

I personally believe the choice is absolutely up to the patient on whether taking radical surgery and chemotherapy or making effort on finding alternative methods such as completely changing diet and life style. 

Right before I went to bed, I received a message from one of my Facebook friends. She forwarded a message that most cereals such as Lucky Charms contain Trisodium phosphate as ingredient. In the forwarded video, a guy who loves his kids mentioned about the danger in the cereals in his panicky voice tone. After a little research, people already talked about this topic a couple of years ago, and the company officially replies that it is an approved food additive in the U.S., European Union and other countries of the world.

But all in all, today is the jump day. So, it is understandable that people get a little freaked out about their new findings. It might be the influence of the energy of entering to a new cycle. I think, though, it is absolutely our responsibility to be well educated about our modern food and medical situation. Each of us should be a smart consumer and patient.

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Today March 20th 2017 in Northern Hemisphere is the spring equinox day. From today, my daughter’s school gets back to normal, after 10 days spring vacation. I finally regain back my precious alone time. Along with the spring equinox, I feel energy is shifted upward.

In Sabian Symbol, today is the last day of one cycle and it is Pieces 30th degree. I have this degree in my Venus in my natal horoscope chart, so this degree has special meaning to me.

Pieces 30th degree is described as “The Great Stone Face.”

The person with this degree is known as trustworthy, stoic, and stubborn, just like the old rock. Native American people call old rocks as “grandpa” as showing their respect. The grandpa rock has lots of experiences and wisdom to share with people. They have solid belief in them. Since this is the last symbol and ending one cycle, this person tries to imprint or leaves their wisdom and voices in books or artworks, or even reputations as evidences for the person’s life. Their books or artwork might be something spiritual, stemming from the ancient days, through the old rocks memories. So, in a way, the person channels the ancient day’s memories and imprint onto their books or artworks.

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This morning I was watching some comedy show at Youtube. I was not planning to watch Doreen Virtue’s this week’s message video, and I don’t watch it every week, but for some reason, this morning, I had a strong feeling that I needed to watch her this week’s video. So I did.

Interestingly, the second card that Doreen pulled was “Books”. Doreen conveyed the messages to the people who are guided to write a book, but currently focuses too much on the future. They worry about who is going to buy their books, marketing, and money regarding the book. And the message was to stop worrying and just focus on service, and then, the service will fulfill them. The concluded message was “Just write the book, and the rest will be taken care of.”

I loved her messages. Thank you Doreen. This message was the one that I needed to hear the most, at this moment.

I’ve been worrying too much about marketing. I’ve been concerning about who is going to read my books. I also worry about even this short article. Once in a while, I wonder if there is any reader who keeps checking my homepage and reading my article regularly, hopefully every day. Since I don’t have any feedback or comment from anybody recently, I almost thought about stopping writing a short article.

So, at this moment, what I need the most is to motivate myself. I need to encourage myself to keep going.

Perhaps I need to go back to my original point. I write articles and books because writing is what I love to do.

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When I was waiting for my prescription medicines at the pharmacy, I happen to meet one of my old friends. She was there to pick up the birth control pills for her daughter who is 18 years old. Her daughter has a boyfriend. The mom concerns about unexpected pregnancy, so she suggested her daughter to take the birth control pill.

When I was at the junior high school, I belonged to the swimming club. There, many girls were taking some medication to adjust their monthly period for their convenience. They wanted to avoid it to come during the school trip or the swimming competition day. They told me it was very easy for them to get the medicine. All they needed was to go to the hospital and had a small conversation with the doctor. No actual physical examination was needed. We were at that time 13 to 15 years old. We barely had our period started.

I am personally against of taking any kind of hormone medication. I don’t think injecting artificial or other animals’ hormone into human’s body, is good for the body. Especially for teenagers, they should pay extra cautions to maintain their natural vital function.

I like my monthly period. I never thought of adjusting it on my convenience. Every time I have my monthly period, I feel cleansed. I feel happy to be included myself as a part of nature. It is amazing that my body gets balanced with the nature such as Moon. And my emotion gets affected by the moon phase. At the new moon, I feel calmed and generous. At the full moon, I feel overwhelmed and need more sleep and quiet time.

I like to live in an old style, following our ancestors’ life style. I prefer to avoid any kind of unnatural hormone medicine.

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During my daughter’s spring vacation, I went to bed with her around 8 pm and fall asleep with her. We wake up at 7 pm, so we sleep around 11 hours. I know it is unbelievable for an adult to have such long hour sleep every day.

I did this for the purpose of experiment. I want to share three advantages that I found from this experiments.

The first advantage is that my emotion stays calm. I don’t have any worries or concerns at this moment, so that I could fly back to my spiritual homeland easily and quickly.

The second advantage is that I can have a vivid dream. I had very clear dreams with detailed colors. And most importantly, I could remember these dreams clearly.

The third advantage is that my body gets easily functions as it supposed to. After good sleep, my glucose level stays unbelievably good.

I should appreciate my daughter to have these advantages from good sleep. Without her spring vacation, I would not think about sleeping with her for such a long hour.

It might be a good idea to change your life style pattern. By doing something unusual, you might be benefitted from unexpected advantages.

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Recently I met one mom with a little boy at the local library. We ended up playing together at the park on the day, and the following day, we went to the park and enjoyed our picnic lunch together.

Her little boy is three years old. He didn’t have preschool to go, so that the mom and the boy stayed together all day long, every day. The mom told me that since her son was born, she hadn’t had her own alone time at all. She made a big sigh while saying that. I remember those days. It was tough for me.

During my daughter’s spring vacation, I took her to the park every day. There were many moms and babies or young children. Among them, there was one mom and one girl whose age was around 5 or 6.

The daughter seemed like she peed in her pants by accident. The mom started scolding her daughter. Her voice was very loud and in a very mean way. For some reason, the mom’s voice sounded like desperately sad.

While I was listening this stranger mom’s yelling at her daughter, I felt sad. It reminded me of my previous years. Those days I didn’t have any family members or friends close to me, so that I didn’t have anybody to ask for help. I was stressed out about all the new things; taking care of my child.

From this experience, in the future when my daughter gets married and has babies, I would like to be there for her. Whenever she needs some advice or help, I would definitely like to be there for her.

If you know anybody who recently had a new born or young child, please offer small help to the mom. I know even a tiny small help will be a great help for the mom.

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Today the maintenance person came to my house and switched a swamp cooler ON and turned the gas heater OFF. Thank god, with this cooler, I will be able to survive without constant headache from the hot temperature.

The area where I live is located close to the Mexican border. It gets very hot, starting from middle of January.

In my back yard garden, three years ago I planted one avocado seed. It has now grown to almost same height as my height. At the front planting area, next to the entrance door, our rose trees have many rose flowers blooming.

To me, May and June are the toughest months. It gets very hot and dry. I love cold weather and I miss winter, which is very short in this area. On the other hand, my daughter loves hot weather and looks forward to summer. She is full of energy, just like summer.

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Today I received an email from the editorial company. The founder of the editorial company was a former editor at Hay House. The email announced their clients won the prizes in the writer’s contest. The contest was the one I applied.

In Hay House Writer’s Workshop contests, the founder of the editorial company advertised her company and their editorial services. She encouraged the event audience as well as the online learners to hire professional editors, even for the book proposal.

She mentioned about their editorial fee for the average book length will be around $7,500. I am not sure about the editorial fee for the book proposal, but it could start from $1,000 up to $5,000, depending on how much the editor need to help an applicant.

Up until here, it sounds normal, right? However, when you hear that three winners out of six awards were their clients, would you still feel it normal? I thought it is a huge rate. It is 50%. One out of two was their client. So, paying for the professional editorial service from her company slightly raised the rate of winning the contest.

When I read this email announcement from the editorial company, to be honest, I got shocked. I got shocked to know that many people paid for the editorial services, even for the book proposal.

I felt like that in the war area, those people who paid for the professional editors wore an appropriate armor with an appropriate weapon while I was wearing just a casual T-shirt and pants with holding a handmade bow and arrow. I got embarrassed to apply for the contest without any professional support.

As for me, I just prayed for miracle to happen. I didn’t think about hiring the professional editors to win at the contest. Hiring the professional editors might be a small test on how serious I was to win the contest.

I admit that I got shocked. But also, I am thankful for this email announcement. It opened my eyes. At least it asked me how serious I am for publishing my books.

My parents told me very often that paying for study will never be useless. They told me school fee and class fee are the most solid investments to myself. Everything that I study or learn will stay with me forever. Paying for the professional editorial service will be the same, the investiment for myself.

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