This morning I had a clear dream. I was killed by a gun shot by a stranger. I even saw my soul separated away from my physical body. And I watched my family and other people surrounding my old physical body. I could clearly see and hear what everybody reacted about my physical death.

I felt light as being just a spirit, without heavy physical body. I did not have any regret about this lifetime.

Right after I woke up, I was happy for this dream. The death in dream indicates a rebirth. Some unexpected opportunities will come up to change the environment, and that will bring a great success and happy results.

I am currently having peaceful days. I don’t have any complaints about the current life. But deep inside, I know I will need to take some new actions to have some changes.

I don’t know what will come up to me, but I am open to unexpected opportunities to guide me to a great success.

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The other day I attended the book signing at the local library. The author was a local resident. I was able to talk with the author and asked some questions regarding publishing.

She has published six picture books so far. Her first book was published in 2010. Since then, she publishes her book at the pace of once a year. She published her book through the self-publishing.

From the conversation with her, I could tell that publishing books is not that difficult as I think. It was good to know. However, she told me another thing which made me feel overwhelmed. It was that once the book is published, the author is the one who has to sell them by themselves.

Since our meeting, I have noticed how she vigorously did marketing on her books. I see her at the other local library or other event area, as well as the local farmer’s market. It was obvious the more the author attends an event or shows herself in the public area, the more people buy her books.

I am overwhelmed by the idea that I will need to do the same (vigorous marketing of my books) once I publish my books. When I think about it, I feel like giving up on my dream; publishing my books. At this moment, I don’t have confidence to sell my books as other authors do.

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Recently I was given one job opportunity. It was a private helper for an elderly woman. The job was to help her for cleaning the house, laundry, and errands. It was only for two hours, once a week.

It was my wish came true. Although I never mentioned about my wish to anybody, even to my husband, I simply had thought about it in my mind.

In these several years, some of my friends got this type of part time job. Every time I heard from them about their part time job, I envied them. I thought it would be easy job.

Another friends of mine mentioned about their hotel maid job. I was amazed when I visited their house. They told me they learned how to clean, especially cleaning around water area such as bathroom and kitchen, from their maid job. Their house was cleaned thoroughly, just like a luxurious hotel room. I secretly wished for this type of part time job opportunity to improve my cleaning technique.

Therefore, when the helper’s job opportunity came up to me, I gladly accepted it.  

However, things did not go well. It didn’t take me long to notice that my employer (the elderly woman) had a negative thinking habit. She started freely speaking about any kinds of complaints. The complaints were not about me or my cleaning, but about something in her daily life or her surrounding people (her friends and family). Sometimes she complained even about her past events that happened to her many, many years ago; 40-50 years ago. Perhaps she never handled all her negative feelings at that time, and that is why she still holds on to the negative feelings for all these years up until now.

I noticed every time when I came back from her house, I felt energetically drained. I felt angry or sad. I knew these feelings were not mine. I sucked up her negative feelings.

She often called me too. I didn’t like it because it derived my alone time or the precious time with my family. The conversation with her on the phone always drained me.

When I started thinking about the best excuse to quit this job, one thing opened up for me. During my daughter’s spring vacation, she didn’t allow me to take my daughter to her house. I thought I could use this as the best reason for me to quit this job. My daughter will have another spring vacation in next month, and starting the following next month, the long summer vacation (almost three months duration) will come up. I thought it is a sign that I should quit from this job, so I did.

I mentioned to her that I would not be able to keep coming to her house regularly due to the upcoming school off days. After I talked to her about my resignation of this job, I got so much relieved.

I know there are some people who can handle that kind of things very well, instead of sucking up the negative energy and suffering from it like I do. I hope she will have a new helper who loves cleaning and can handle listening to negative people’s talking.

From this experience, I learned one thing. I should pay attention what I ask for, even just a thought in my mind.

Even though you don’t pray or say out loud to someone, when you think about something, when you wish for something, it can be activated in the real world. In recent environment where vibration is getting higher than before, even a tiny thought can be activated easier and quicker than we expect. So, let’s pay attention to what you think. I think the best way is that to think only what you truly want to have it.

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Starting from today, my daughter’s school is on spring vacation for 10 days. America does not have many national holidays as Japan, but when it comes to off days at school, America has more days off at school than Japan.

My daughter loves beauty. She loves fancy stuff. She loves feminine stuff. She is good at creating something. She has artistic fingers. Interesting to know that her gifts are not what I have. She is good at drawing a picture and selecting the color matching. She is also good at using scissors. As a matter of fact, she could use scissors very well at the age of two. Her preschool teachers were astonished at the fact.

Knowing her artistic gifts, I casually asked her to give me a haircut. She said she would love to.  I asked her to trim my back hair about 4 inches (10 cm) and have a slight trim on my bang. She did a wonderful job. I am so satisfied with her haircut. She still does not know how to make layers yet. But I am sure, once I show the method on the Youtube video, she will learn it quickly.

We also played a “beauty salon”. I was the customer and my daughter was the beauty stylist. She pretended to put a make up on my face, do a hair, and put a manicure.

After I played with my daughter like that all day long, I felt like I had been in spa. I felt relaxed and refreshed.  

I am looking forward to my daughter’s future career. I wonder what kind of career she is going to pursue for the future.

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Today March 9th is my birthday.

Yesterday I received some birthday wishes from my Japanese friends and Australian friends. They are one day ahead of America.

This morning, starting from midnight (early morning, I should say), I received many birthday wishes from American friends and European friends.

In the morning, I received a phone call, and some of my friends sang the birthday song for me together over the phone.

My 7-years-old daughter bought me a flower bouquet from her own allowance. (We give her monthly allowance). She talked to the flowers nicely such as “thank you for coming to our house” and “you guys are so beautiful and pretty.” I think this flower bouquet will stay healthy longer than normal.

Around noon time, I received another phone call. It was from my daughter’s school teacher. She asked me if I have a minute or so. I answered yes, then, my daughter’s classmates sang the birthday song for me over the phone. At the ending of the song, everybody said out loud, “Happy Birthday mom!” I almost cried. It was a wonderful surprise. I notice nowadays my daughter’s friends and our neighborhood children casually call me “Mom”. I feel so blessed.

Thank you everybody. It is very nice to have friends and my child(ren) to make my day brighten up.

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This morning I had a clear dream of buffalo. One male buffalo was in the living room in our house. The body fur was light brown and it had a white horn. The buffalo was friendly and calm. It looked like smiling. The buffalo didn’t come to me; instead, patiently waited for me to go to him. I asked my husband and my daughter if I should go see him and talked to him. My family told me “yes, the buffalo is waiting for you”. So, I took courage and went to him and communicated telepathically. He started living with us. We all could communicate with him telepathically.

I usually receive some messages before I wake up from dream, but this time I didn’t receive any specific messages.

So I meditated asking about the message from this buffalo. The buffalo came to me to warn me to get back to my sacred life path and life mission.

I believe one of my life mission is to write books. Believe it or not, Hay House writer’s contest took away my belief from me. From the winners’ announcement day (February 28th), I have been feeling down and disappointed that I was not needed.

I think that is why my family souls sent a buffalo in my dream and cheered me up on keep writing. When I keep writing, keep having the faith in me, it will eventually come true.

Although I don’t have my soul tribe around me (physically close to me), they are somewhere in this world in this lifetime. They might be feeling lonely same as I feel right now. I should keep on thinking of them no matter what. Eventually with my strong belief, with my power of belief, I will reconnect with them and support one another. Until the divine day comes, I will keep having faith in me and in my scared life path.

I thought I should share this message with my dear readers as well. Some of them might be feeling lonely for not having your soul tribe close to you at this moment. But they are living the same lifetime together with you somewhere in this planet Earth. Hang in there. The day when you can reconnect with them will come soon; sooner than you think.

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When I was in Japan, I was a big fan of Mitch Albom. He is one of the most well-known author in America. I read his book The Five People You Meet in Heaven and watched the movie.

Today, I happened to find the movie in Netflix, so I watched it with my family.

I love this movie. This movie has many inspiring messages throughout the movie. I am not going to tell the details to save the fun part for the people who have not watched it yet. But let me share one message from this movie.

“Each affects the other, and the other affects the next, and the world is full of stories, but the stories are all one.”

― by Mitch Albom, The Five People You Meet in Heaven  

I just love this quote. Everybody’s actions and thoughts affect others. We don’t know how each of our action and thought affects others, but it does, and that’s how each of us affect the entire world. And that is why we have to be very careful of each single of our actions and thoughts.

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I am sharing this quote for reasons. Today I attended at the business class at the local community college.

I don’t like anybody park close to my car, so I found a parking spot at the corner and parked my car very close to the curb. I left enough open space from my car to the while line. But after the class, I saw somebody parked very close to my car. The person’s car tire even invaded into my territory (within my parking area). All of a sudden, I felt a rush of anger toward this car’s driver.  

But today, I took a different action and thought than before. I took a deep breath and calmed myself down. I decided to forgive this driver. After three deep breathings, I could regain my inner peace.

I was surprised at myself on how far I have come so far. If this similar thing had happened just one year ago, I would have yelled at the driver. If I yelled at the driver, that would have caused a new issue.

I hope my small effort for not keeping my anger for a long time have brought a good effect on others, somehow and some way. I believe even small efforts will make the world better.

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When I came to this country, several people told me that I am a super empathic person. I didn’t know the meaning of this word, so I thanked them for saying that anyway.

Then when I came back home, I looked up the meaning of empath. I really didn’t like it. I didn’t like people recognized me as an empath.

The truth was though, I was empathic. Super empathic.

I still clearly remember my first years. When I was small, I used to see people’s energy in color. Sometimes it was scary because from the energy color, I learned people could lie in front of other people’s face.

For example, if somebody was invited to a certain gathering, although the person was reluctant to go there, he/she would lie in front of the person who invited, by saying “thank you for inviting me. I would love to go.” One lie will bring another lie. The person will have to attend the gathering and pretend being enjoying.

When we lie, that means our outer aspects (face expression and statement) and inner aspects (true feeling that our hearts feel) have discrepancy. And these discrepancy will cause another tragic events, over and over again.

As a child, I saw many people lived like that. I, as a child at that time, felt so sad for growing up. Because I thought I would have to act the same way when I become a grown up, lying and hiding my true emotion and feeling, and live my life like that.

So, being empathic, I experienced the sadness by watching and sensing the adults’ discrepancy between their true feeling and outer expression.

I believe most young children are super empathic. In order to protect them, we, as adults, should match up our true feeling and outer expression.

It is easy and simple. When we are happy, we laugh. When we don’t feel comfortable, we express our feeling honesty, but do our best not to hurt anybody’s feeling. When we live our lie in that simple manner, we won’t make younger children to be confused

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Nowadays when I offer Reiki healing session to the client, I feel this opportunity is given to me and the client. The benefit goes to both parties.

Before I give the healing session, I perform a payer and energy cleansing process for myself. The main purpose is to ask for support not only to my spirits and angels but also to the clients’ spirits and angels for the best healing energy. And most importantly, I ask for support to allow me to become nothing but a pure pipe for the Reiki energy.

My reiki session starts before the client comes. My hands becomes very hot and ready to flow the healing energy. My thoughts stops wandering around so that I can simply enjoy the calm music and warm healing energy.

After the healing session, I always enjoy to see the client’s face skin. It gets clearer than before the session. We chat for a while about small happiness in our daily life.

This is what I really like to do. I appreciate to my clients to provide me this great opportunity.

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Interesting synchronicity again. Two of my friends asked me the same question two days in a row. They asked me what my true desire was. 

And I do know everything happens for reasons. I needed to think about the answer by myself for a better understanding about my true desire.

Last night I went to the planetarium. While I was watching stars, my mind went so calm and started flowing the travel freely in past, present, and future. My mind stopped here and there in the past where I was provided very critical life events. These were definitely beyond my ability. These were the evidences that I was not alone. My family souls were/are always with me and provide me the best opportunities at the best timing. My dream job or the situation I had longed for many years naturally came true.

Then I thought I found the answer regarding my true desire. My true desire is to be famous as a spiritual teacher and writer (specifically, I am just a messenger). I want to contribute in making a better world. But another true desire of mine is to have peace in my daily life, which I am achieving it with my dear family. I am fully enjoying this peaceful daily life with my family.

These two seem like conflicting. Once I become famous, the more I become famous and well-know, the more my work (books and lectures) become successful, the more I will get criticized by critics or by the people who are against from my belief. To be honest, I am not ready to receive all kinds of critics yet. So, in a way, I am enjoying being invisible.

Until I fully make my mind if I want to pursue my desire to be famous, or if I want to maintain my private happiness, perhaps my mind will keep flowing this direction and that direction… I guess it is okay too. It is critical for me to enjoy the process on being lost and try to find my true desire. 

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