In the middle of the night at 3 a.m., again I talked with my Japanese friend over the phone. I know she is very busy with her work and professional homeopath course study, but she shared her precious time with me, listening to me and cheering me up. I appreciate her kind support.

Yesterday my shingle was calmed down and I was happy about it. Today the shingle symptom came back and it has the intense pain with the burning hot sensation. The shingle adds up the pain and makes the situation worse.

Today I could go to the kitchen and cook the food for my family. I also washed dishes. I prepared for the bath and got in and out to the bath tub all by myself without my family’s support.

I guess I pushed myself so hard. At night the pain was so intense that I could not sleep even though I took the strong pain reliever medications. The most painful area was the back of the right calf.

I received an email that tells the recent ER visit bill of more than $4,000. It was shocking but at the same time, the good news is that I am still alive and have been improving the wellness situation. On that day the pain was intense that I had no option but to get the ER doctor’s support.

I had a bowel movement and the stool was healthy size and hardness. In a day time, I forced myself to move around with the support of a stool as a walker. I could cook some food in the kitchen, and it made me happy and relaxed. Cooking is one of my hobbies to soothe and relax.

My shingle has been calming down. The intense pain in the right butt has been calming down. The only place that has a constant intense pain is the nerve pain in the right foot, especially around the toe pinky and the side of the foot on the right foot.

Since I haven’t walked for three weeks, just a few steps with the support of something makes me dizzy and I need to lay down on the floor or the couch. Even a few steps walking triggers the pain in the butt area. I cannot keep standing more than three minutes.

I had a dream. I haven’t had any dream since the injury day. I was with my husband in our backyard. One snake came into our backyard. The snake got rid of a cockroach for us. We thanked the snake and the snake stayed with us since then. I woke up comfortably.

I know a snake in a dream means a good luck financially. I thought a cockroach represents my nuisance. I wish this dream will come true that something or somebody will get rid of my nuisance on behalf of me.

My husband and I left the house around 8 a.m. headed for a back doctor. Even though I arrived at their office before the appointment time, they had me to wait for a long time. I was irritated about the long waiting time. Finally, the back doctor came in the office. The back doctor was a young causation male in his late 20s or early 30s. At first glance, both of my husband and I knew he is eager to practice on surgery. I knew he would strongly suggest me to have a surgery. We were right. He strongly suggested to have a surgery. As a matter of fact, he said a surgery is the only option for me to be able to walk like before. I didn’t agree with him. I asked to refer a physical therapy instead. He was reluctant but wrote down a referral to a physical therapy.

At the parking lot, my husband called the physical therapy office. The female receptionist was thoughtful. She recommended us to stop by at the physical therapy office to see the facility and meet the staff members there. We followed her advice. At the physical therapy office, the young male receptionist warmly welcomed us and showed us around inside the facility. When I mentioned to the male receptionist what the back doctor told me that my only option was to have a surgery, he said that the physical therapy functions almost same as a surgery and the majority of their patients got better without having a surgery. I made an appointment with the physical therapy session after four days from today. I appreciate this opportunity came up to me.   

I am proud of myself to have made small improvements.

The first improvement was that I wen to the laundry room by crawling and stood up by supporting myself with holding onto the washing machine, and hang laundry to hangers and clips. I could not walk to the backyard with the clothes, so I asked my daughter to brought them to the backyard and hung them. But at least, I did some parts of the laundry procedure.

The second improvement was that I crawled to the kitchen and stood up by supporting myself with holding onto the kitchen counter. I took out several ingredients from the refrigerator and cut them. Since October 9^th, I haven’t cook anything by myself. Cutting vegetables with a kitchen knife was soothing for me. I love cooking and I was glad that I could cook.

The third improvement was that I could enter the bath tub and got out from the bath tub by myself. It was my very first time since the injury day to take a bath by myself. For these 18 days, I needed my family’s support for getting in and out from the bath tub. Now I can do so by crawling. It took longer time to do so, but I am so happy for taking care of myself.

I cannot stand up by myself without holding onto anything yet. But I am so happy for my small progresses.

At middle of the night at 3 a.m., I talked with my Japanese friend for one hour. I appreciate her support. After I talked about my small improvements to my friend, I felt good

In the middle of the night at 2 a.m., I again talked with my friend over the phone about the homeopathy counseling session.

After we finished our conversation, I tried to get some sleep, but couldn’t due to the intense pain of the right foot.

Around 3 a.m., I felt the sudden pain in my stomach. On the next moment, I felt the sudden sensation of the stool. Because I still had the intense pain in my right foot and back, unfortunately though, I couldn’t get out from bed and run to the bathroom. I hurried to the bathroom, but right before the bathroom door, the watery stool involuntarily released. I got shocked. At that time, I completely forgot about the stool softener pills that I have had taken. I took two of the pills one week ago or so. I continued taking the pills three days but didn’t happen anything. That was why I completely forgot about it.  

I went back to my bed and then, after 10 minutes or so, another strong tummy ache came. I again hurried to the bathroom, but couldn’t make it to the toilet and released on the floor. This pattern happened another couple of times. I ended up throwing three of my underwear due to the unexpected release.    

I will never take the stool softener anymore.

In the early morning at 3:30 a.m., I talked with my friend over the phone. I cannot sleep due to pain and stay awake in this time from 2 a.m. to 4 a.m. every day. Luckily my 3:30 a.m. is 7:30 p.m. in Japan and it is good time for my Japanese friend. We were so delighted about the great news that I will be able to have a homeopathy counseling session from homeopathy teacher tomorrow. It is amazing.

In the morning before 8 a.m., my husband drove me to the clinic to take an X-ray. There, the technician escorted me in front of the X-ray equipment and told me to stand still by myself without supporting my body. I told him it was impossible that I could not support myself, but he was very old that probably he didn’t hear what I said. It was so painful but I forced myself to stand by myself holding my breath without supporting my body for some minutes. I hated the time.

In the evening at 5:00 p.m., I joined the zoom room for the homeopathy counseling.  From 5:30 p.m. to 6:30 p.m., for one hour, I had the homeopathy counseling session.

The pain was so intense that I had a tough time in releasing urine. The longest one was 9 hours that I could not release urine since 6 a.m. to 3 p.m.

I submitted my application to my homeopathy teacher for the homeopathy counselling. The school worker replied back to me that all the clients are supposed to be there in person at the school for the counseling. Also, applicants need to pay the counseling fee to be deducted from the Japanese bank account, which is impossible for me because I don’t have any family members to ask to pay for the fee on behalf of me and I don’t have any Japanese bank accounts.

My friend called the homeopathy school and talked to the office worker who deals with the homeopathy counseling sessions. My friend volunteered to pay for my counseling fee by using her bank account. With my friend’s kind offer and willingness to support me, the school worker set my counseling date as two days from today. It is a miracle that my homeopathy teacher takes me as her client this quickly.

Right after the worker at the school received my application form, the homeopathy teacher happened to enter the office. The worker mentioned about my situation to the teacher, and the teacher suggested me to take Support tincture named as Kundalini. This support tincture is for the people who have a huge gap between the real spiritual age and the original spiritual age. Luckily enough, I had the support tincture in my house, I started taking this support tincture.

I set my alarm at 6 am. My clinic requires patients to call the clinic at 6 a.m. in order to make an appointment on the day. I needed to make an appointment with my primary care doctor just to refill my pain receiver medication. I hate to have an appointment with a doctor. They have patients to wait for long. This doctor was the same as the other doctors. I called at the appointment time and the nurse told me to wait online room. I needed to wait there for more than 30 minutes until the doctor finally appeared in the online room. Regardless of the long waiting time, the doctor saw me only 2 minutes or so, because all I needed from the doctor was to refill my medication.  

In the afternoon, I had a hot bath with the help of my daughter. Since the injury, I could stay the longest in the hot tub today.

I made some phone calls. The first call was to talk with the insurance company. The agent told me that our insurance does not need a referral to see a new doctor. The second call was to a back doctor to make an appointment. I will go take an X-ray at the clinic, and have a first appointment with a back doctor on next Monday morning.

In the night, I felt the stubbing by needles like sharp pains on all over of my right leg. Through the pains, I felt the uncomfortable curse energy from my nuisance. I really hope my nuisance will notice what he has done to me. I hope he will feel the same or worse pain and torture that I have been suffering from his curse.

My daughter had a dream of me. In her dream, I was in my room doing my to-do-list items and chores. I was happily moving around.

Her dream gave me hope. She saw me in the near future. It means I will get well in the near future and stand by myself and move around to do all the to-do-list items.