In my dream my brother visited me. He took me to a nice and luxurious French restaurant and treated me a nice dinner. We talked calmly. Then I woke up feeling relaxed.

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In the afternoon at 1 p.m., I had an appointment for Q-Ta for the regular checkup. They have two technicians; a man and a woman. Both of them are young, perhaps still in their 20s. I chose the young woman to work for my device. It was an easy appointment. She called me at the appointment time and instructed the remote work procedure. Then we hang up the phone and she worked on my device remotely for 1.5 hour. When she was done, she called me and we had a little chat of Q and A. She told me she upgraded the software of my device, which I don’t know exactly what the update will do. She also informed me that the manufacturer offers their customer their original antivirus software for one year for free of charge, so she removed the one that I purchased from the biofeedback laptop. I felt secured to have her as my engineering technician for my device. I will have an appointment with her every month until the last day of the first year support.

In the early morning, I jumped up with the alarm sound of 4:30 a.m. I realized that my departure day was just one week before, last Tuesday morning. I felt it was my dad to remind me of that.

This time is totally different experience from that from my late mom. When my mom passed away, I kept on weeping for her 49-days duration. As for my dad, maybe I don’t have that much strong spiritual connection with him. I don’t cry that much. Still, I send my good thoughts and prayers along with mantras to my dad every day, so that he can depart to his spiritual homeplace without any issues. I appreciate him for letting me to become his daughter. I don’t have any grudges to him because his innocent but unbelievably actions to me eventually made me strong in my soul.  Don’t worry Dad. I am not mad at you. I wish you all the best and rest well in your spiritual homeplace.

My daughter’s school is almost done. She has two more assignments to submit and five more quick lessons to finish. To be honest, I have a mixed feeling of sadness and happiness. My daughter feels the same way. She wants to stay being a child and that is why feels sad about growing up. At the same time, she is excited to grow up and independent. I understand everything is changing and evolving. That is why we have to cherish every moment so as to not to worry nor to regret.

Last night I could communicate with my reiki teacher. I was glad that he replied back to my email right away saying he would love to spend alone time with me and my family. I was happy to know that he still remembers my family’s names. Last night in his email he said he would be leaving for Sedona today. So, he should be in the airplane right now. I am so happy for him and myself that he could finally make it to visit Sedona. I am sure he will love this land and the land energy. Even though we cannot spend lots of time together, I am looking forward to seeing him again in person,

Our shed project is in a good hand right now. I talked with the handyman last night though email, and we confirmed the rough estimation of the material cost and the labor fee for all the procedure. Our new shed is pretty big size of 16 X 24. The handy man will start working from May 18. When we visit Navajo land next time in June, our shed should be completed. We are so excited for our new shed.

In the early morning, I worked on taking care of the garden weeds. Later in the morning, my family and I installed the garden poles and bird netting. Just working around the garden gave us a good exercise. This morning, we planted plants of a tomato, a cucumber, and a jalapeno. I hope they will grow strongly and healthily.  

My cousin shared two pictures of my dad’s Otsuya, the previous night of the funeral. Oen picture shows my dad’s face in the coffin. He looks calm and peaceful as if he is happily sleeping. When my dad organized the funeral for my mom, he didn’t have any limitations from anybody, so that he ended up paying more than $80,000 just for the funeral, inviting more than 200 attendees. I think it was a crazy idea. This time my brother was smart enough to arrange the funeral just for the family only. I sent my dad a set of Japanese mantras, good thoughts, and appreciations, and wished him for a good departure to his spiritual home.

In the morning, I had a good time in my meditation. I meditated during taking care of garden weeds in the backyard. I was still confused and stressed out in the morning, but after my alone time having a deep conversation with my higher self, I started having the clear mind. Now I know what I should do and what I want.

Around 3 p.m. which is 7 a.m. in Japanese time, I sent 2 voice messages to my brother.

The first message contained my appreciation to my brother that he sent me the detailed information on how our late dad departed his physical body. I also explained how our late dad paid off his negative karma by suffering for the last 2 weeks before his departure. I shared three links of my presentation videos that I presented at the Japanese homeopathy school. I hope my presentation videos will touch his soul in a good way.

The second message contained my honest feeling about the inheritance division. I mentioned that I am going to pursue my lawful portion on this time with 2 reasons. The first reason was because both of parents wanted my brother and me to receive their inheritance equally. Both of my parents told me so clearly, before I moved to America in 2008. The second reason was because I regrated that I didn’t fight for my lawful portion at the time of dividing my mom’s inheritance. I don’t want to regret this time anymore. Also, I don’t want to create any unnecessary negative karma to my brother, if my brother divides it in an unfair way. I don’t want to create any grudge to my brother.

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In the evening, my cousin called me on the phone. It was always nice to talk to him. Even though he is not biologically related cousin, he is thoughtful and kind. He told me he is now 72 years old and started feeling his aging. He fell down twice recently. The conversation with him made me realized that we have to cherish our time and use it wisely and responsively, because our time on this physical world is limited.

It was a very long day.

In my dream, my husband’s late cousin visited me. He told me that I would receive a chunk of money soon. Then I woke up. I grabbed my cell phone to check the time, the alarm went off. It was 4:30 a.m. that I set to get up in order to attend the monthly online training.

Then I noticed the red mark on my phone recording. It showed my brother’s cell phone number. He called me and left a voice message at 10:04 p.m. of last night. I usually switched my cell phone to airplane mode at 9 p.m., so I didn’t notice the phone call.

His message was short to notify me of our dad’s departure. At first, I though how I should explain that I cannot go back to Japan right away. I could, if I really want to attend my dad’s funeral, but I still have been suffering from the trauma. I feel scared to Japan and Japanese people from my last trip to Japan.

I decided to wait until my husband gets up. I wanted to get my husband’s advice. I didn’t feel like to attend the palmist training. I wanted to focus on my thoughts to my dad.

Then the phone rang. It was from my brother. I picked up the phone. At first, I felt scared to talk to my brother because we haven’t talked for four years since my mom’s departure. My brother’s voice was calm and sounded fine. I didn’t feel any aggressive energy from his voice. He said he doesn’t mind if I don’t go back to Japan to attend my dad’s funeral. He said he still remembers the procedures that were done for our late mom, and he would take care of it. I felt relieved that I don’t need to go back to Japan.

Toward the end of our conversation, when he started talking about our dad’s inheritance, his voice turned to aggressive and frustration. My dad had hired one accountant. The accountant lives close to my dad’s house and knows a lot about my dad’s financial situation because he was the one who dealt with my late mom’s inheritance procedure. My brother said he doesn’t like the accountant because he was not supportive to my brother. My brother said what happened to him last year when my dad gave some money to his 3 kids. When I heard my brother’s angry voice toward my dad’s accountant, I felt uncomfortable. Then we ended our conversation.

After the phone conversation with my brother, my husband woke up. We went for a morning walk and I shared what just happened to me with my husband. After my husband left for work, I had some alone time until my daughter wakes up. I talked to my dad’s soul and offered some O-Kyo, Japanese mantras, wishing him for his safe trip back to his spiritual homeplace.  

I cried for my dad throughout the day. I tried to get some sleep but I could not. I spent longer time than usual on focusing myself. I took more time on jogging on the treadmill, having a sauna, and taking a long bath time.

In the night at 9 p.m., I had an appointment with my palmist teacher. I wanted to talk about my feeling toward my late dad. I wanted him to confirm it is okay that I don’t go to Japan for my dad’s funeral. Even though I made my decision, I still suffered from guilty feeling. Also, I wanted to have some advice about the inheritance. I wanted to claim my lawful right to receive my portion instead of just accepting what my brother offers me, that will be unfair amount. During the conversation I decided to look for an attorney who is spiritually connected with me and willing to support me. Also, I decided to tell my brother my honest feeling and desire with the reasons why I want to pursue my lawful portion this time. After the conversation, I felt relieved. I shared my conversation with my teacher to my family. My husband, daughter, and I had a good conversation. We didn’t notice that we chatted for a long time. It was close to midnight when we finally finished our conversation and went to bed.  

Today I finally made a huge progress in my biofeedback session. I could not go to the past life session page for some reasons, but today, I finally reached to the page. Or, I should say, Q-Ta finally allowed me to reach the page. Q-Ta showed me seven of my past lives. I was surprised to see that I dealt with financial business in the majority of my past lives. Or I should say Q-Ta is showing the financial business in my past lives right now, because it is the right timing that I should be aware and heal something relates to it.