I woke up feeling happy. My family spirits for sure answered my request that they advised me about the upcoming Sedona trip. They strongly advised me that I should go to Sedona to see my reiki teacher no matter what. It means I should let my desire and ego to.

I understand what they meant. I was struggling because I was trying to control the tour organizer. I was upset because she was stubbornly rejecting to what I wanted. However, it happened for reasons. It happened as a blessing. It happened to see if I can let go my desires.

Once I let go my desires, that is to have some private alone time with my reiki teacher during our stay, I could focus on my true desire. My true desire is simple. I want to see him again. So, I let go my ego and accept what is going to happen. Then, I started feeling so light and excited.

I decided to go see my reiki teacher in Sedona even though I might not have alone time with him.

Last night I communicated with the coordinator of the Sedona tour. For some reasons, her reply made me feel upset. Even though I mentioned I cannot make it to their lunch or dinner with the solid reasons, she seems to forget and asks me the same things many times. I admit that whatever she writes or says irritates me. Before I fell asleep, I asked my family spirits for advice in my dream.

In my dream my brother visited me. He took me to a nice and luxurious French restaurant and treated me a nice dinner. We talked calmly. Then I woke up feeling relaxed.

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In the afternoon at 1 p.m., I had an appointment for Q-Ta for the regular checkup. They have two technicians; a man and a woman. Both of them are young, perhaps still in their 20s. I chose the young woman to work for my device. It was an easy appointment. She called me at the appointment time and instructed the remote work procedure. Then we hang up the phone and she worked on my device remotely for 1.5 hour. When she was done, she called me and we had a little chat of Q and A. She told me she upgraded the software of my device, which I don’t know exactly what the update will do. She also informed me that the manufacturer offers their customer their original antivirus software for one year for free of charge, so she removed the one that I purchased from the biofeedback laptop. I felt secured to have her as my engineering technician for my device. I will have an appointment with her every month until the last day of the first year support.

In the early morning, I jumped up with the alarm sound of 4:30 a.m. I realized that my departure day was just one week before, last Tuesday morning. I felt it was my dad to remind me of that.

This time is totally different experience from that from my late mom. When my mom passed away, I kept on weeping for her 49-days duration. As for my dad, maybe I don’t have that much strong spiritual connection with him. I don’t cry that much. Still, I send my good thoughts and prayers along with mantras to my dad every day, so that he can depart to his spiritual homeplace without any issues. I appreciate him for letting me to become his daughter. I don’t have any grudges to him because his innocent but unbelievably actions to me eventually made me strong in my soul.  Don’t worry Dad. I am not mad at you. I wish you all the best and rest well in your spiritual homeplace.

My daughter’s school is almost done. She has two more assignments to submit and five more quick lessons to finish. To be honest, I have a mixed feeling of sadness and happiness. My daughter feels the same way. She wants to stay being a child and that is why feels sad about growing up. At the same time, she is excited to grow up and independent. I understand everything is changing and evolving. That is why we have to cherish every moment so as to not to worry nor to regret.

Last night I could communicate with my reiki teacher. I was glad that he replied back to my email right away saying he would love to spend alone time with me and my family. I was happy to know that he still remembers my family’s names. Last night in his email he said he would be leaving for Sedona today. So, he should be in the airplane right now. I am so happy for him and myself that he could finally make it to visit Sedona. I am sure he will love this land and the land energy. Even though we cannot spend lots of time together, I am looking forward to seeing him again in person,

Our shed project is in a good hand right now. I talked with the handyman last night though email, and we confirmed the rough estimation of the material cost and the labor fee for all the procedure. Our new shed is pretty big size of 16 X 24. The handy man will start working from May 18. When we visit Navajo land next time in June, our shed should be completed. We are so excited for our new shed.

In the early morning, I worked on taking care of the garden weeds. Later in the morning, my family and I installed the garden poles and bird netting. Just working around the garden gave us a good exercise. This morning, we planted plants of a tomato, a cucumber, and a jalapeno. I hope they will grow strongly and healthily.  

My cousin shared two pictures of my dad’s Otsuya, the previous night of the funeral. Oen picture shows my dad’s face in the coffin. He looks calm and peaceful as if he is happily sleeping. When my dad organized the funeral for my mom, he didn’t have any limitations from anybody, so that he ended up paying more than $80,000 just for the funeral, inviting more than 200 attendees. I think it was a crazy idea. This time my brother was smart enough to arrange the funeral just for the family only. I sent my dad a set of Japanese mantras, good thoughts, and appreciations, and wished him for a good departure to his spiritual home.

In the morning, I had a good time in my meditation. I meditated during taking care of garden weeds in the backyard. I was still confused and stressed out in the morning, but after my alone time having a deep conversation with my higher self, I started having the clear mind. Now I know what I should do and what I want.

Around 3 p.m. which is 7 a.m. in Japanese time, I sent 2 voice messages to my brother.

The first message contained my appreciation to my brother that he sent me the detailed information on how our late dad departed his physical body. I also explained how our late dad paid off his negative karma by suffering for the last 2 weeks before his departure. I shared three links of my presentation videos that I presented at the Japanese homeopathy school. I hope my presentation videos will touch his soul in a good way.

The second message contained my honest feeling about the inheritance division. I mentioned that I am going to pursue my lawful portion on this time with 2 reasons. The first reason was because both of parents wanted my brother and me to receive their inheritance equally. Both of my parents told me so clearly, before I moved to America in 2008. The second reason was because I regrated that I didn’t fight for my lawful portion at the time of dividing my mom’s inheritance. I don’t want to regret this time anymore. Also, I don’t want to create any unnecessary negative karma to my brother, if my brother divides it in an unfair way. I don’t want to create any grudge to my brother.

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In the evening, my cousin called me on the phone. It was always nice to talk to him. Even though he is not biologically related cousin, he is thoughtful and kind. He told me he is now 72 years old and started feeling his aging. He fell down twice recently. The conversation with him made me realized that we have to cherish our time and use it wisely and responsively, because our time on this physical world is limited.