Last night I shed lots of tears during the healing session with my palmist teacher. Then I woke up this morning, I felt a weird sensation in my throat. I could not say anything because my throat was clogged up with mucus. It was my very first time that my throat was clogged up to such an extremely point where I could not voice out.

I didn’t get panicked though. Because I knew it was a part of the healing process from the session of last night. I knew my throat clogged up to tell me that I could not talk back to my dad for many years, even now. I am not going to pick up my phone and go ahead tell my dad all the cussing words to him. Instead, I recognized my body, mind, and spirit had been suffered from putting back my true feelings and voices back for such many years. I talked to myself, my inner self, that I don’t need to suffer from anything anymore. If I don’t want to go see my dad, it is okay that I go back to Japan without going see him. It is okay that I would not be able to go see him again before his departure. I still thank and appreciate my dad for being my dad and for teaching lots of good things and bad things, so that I could retain true myself. I don’t need to feel guilty for not vising my dad anymore. Now I am free from feeling guilty. I live my life as I want. Thank you to my throat for guiding me to my true self.

By afternoon, all my mucus in my throat cleared up so that I could freely voice out.

In the evening at 6 p.m., I had a private counseling with my palmist teacher. I knew he is good at a healing session to release negative emotion, so I asked him to release my feeling to visiting Japan. I want to visit Japan, but I hesitate to make an actual plan. His session was really helpful. During the conversation, I realized that I am still feeling scared to my dad and that is why I hesitate to go back to Japan to see him. I shed lots of tears and released my negative emotion about my dad.

As the next step of my decluttering project, I decided to completely stop the game. I have been playing this online game for 9 years. My daughter found this Japanese game online when she was 5 years old. She could not read Japanese instructions and messages in the game and she would ask me the meanings. Then I got hooked and start logging in the game every day. I hated that I would be attached to the game even when I was extremely busy. As a part of decluttering project, I made my mind to stop playing the game. I uninstalled the game from my cell phone and tablet. I felt so relieved.

I was fully energized with the decluttering motivation. I finally started decluttering in my house. As a starter, I worked on the closet of my office and the clothe closet. By the end of the day, I made the outside trash bin to full. I felt so comfortable to making much clear space in my house.

My old and late friend visited me in my dream. He invited me to his house and showed me around where he lives. While he was in this physical realm, I always felt being safe and protected with him. Now he is in the spirit world, and his energy still stays the same; he still gives me comfort and safe feeling. I appreciate him for having a good time with a get together in dream.

Today is my brother’s birthday. Even though my brother and I haven’t kept in touch since my mom’s departure, I still think of my brother and pray for his good health and happiness.

In my dream, my brother visited me. He invited my family and me to his house and welcomed us with homemade delicious foods. Even though I am not connected with my brother in the physical realm, we are still connected in spirit so that we can visit each other in dream.

I spent most of the day with the online computer training as the preparation of a biofeedback device.

My daughter’s school is planning to have a school in-person event in next month. we used to attend the closest one every year, but this year we decided to attend a new event that we never have attended. I reserved an accommodation close to the venue. We are looking forward to the event.

In the evening at 4:45 p.m., I held my fourth workshop; awakening spirituality workshop. Today my workshop focused on communication telepathically. As always, I was amazed at everybody’s spiritual gifts. At the ending of the workshop, I pulled one oracle card for each of the attendee. It was also an amazing result that each card naturally answered their question and concern.

Tomorrow is my fourth workshop, so I spent most of the day for preparing material for the workshop. I am planning to do telepathically communication tomorrow.