When I think back of my life so far, I notice I have experienced many different aspects of myself. I have different thinking patterns and personalities, they keep on changing every year at each life stage.
During I was a student from the kindergarten to graduate school, I don’t remember I felt scared of making new friends. I never had any issues to make friends and keep them as my close friends for many years. I thought myself as a people person. I was talkative and sociable. I never scared of people.
Then at this stage of my life, living in America, I am not talkative nor sociable. The biggest change in me is I scare of humans. If possible, I want to stay home alone, studying online courses, reading books, or writing stories. I don’t feel like going out with friends to have a lunch or a dinner together.
There are the reasons that I am like this. I was hurt by so many people whom I met in this area in this country. No matter how I tried to express myself and my truth, they didn’t understand me.
I don’t need any fake friends on this land to just hang out. I don’t need anybody around me who keep on talking about themselves and their belief and religion, and not be willing to listen to mine and accept my belief and religion.
Someday, I will move out from this area. That will happen in the near future, hopefully within next year. I believe I will be guided to the right place and the right people. I am grateful for my Japanese friends who are trustworthy. They listen to me. They encourage me. They support me. I really hope I will build such a great friendship with Americans in the future.
I am here on this land feeling this way is because I need to experience many aspects of myself.
♬ Any feedback? (^^♪
three wisdom 