In the morning I received an email from my friend. It was very, very long email. She expressed her complains about her part time job. Reading such negative complains was not fun, rather, just time consuming. Besides, I don’t work there so that they were nothing to do with me. On my second thought though, her email gave me some lessons. Leaned from this experience, I won’t send a long complaining email to any of my friends because I don’t want to drain their energy nor steal their precious time. Now that I know one method to calm myself whenever I run into any stressful situation. I take some long relaxing breathes. If I can, I meditate and ask the lesson from it. More than anything else, I should thank my husband for going to work for me. Thanks to his support, I am not under any stressful work environment.
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Today’s meditation: I meditated with hemi sync guided meditation of Free Flow to Focus-21. I wanted to see the past lives related to my Japanese family members; my dad, mom, and brother. Even though I was in a deep meditated state, nothing came up to me. Besides I woke up without any memories of my dream. Maybe today is a quiet day.
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At night I had a total reading session from a medium at the Japanese mediumship school. The medium was the instructor at the Japanese mediumship school. I saw her during the spiritual communication demonstration at one of their Sunday Services.
She started conveying messages from my paternal grandpa. Unfortunately he passed away when my dad was young, I don’t have any memory about him. Nothing the medium conveyed about his appearance and his message seemed to be irrelevant to me. I had a feeling that the medium got the wrong spirit.
Then she conveyed a set of messages from two guide spirits. One guide spirit has been supporting me to raise my voice regarding the world peace. He wants me to complete my book. Once it is done, he will switch to other guide spirit.
— While I was listening to this message, I recalled of my early 30s. I read many books about Japanese-Americans who were born and raised in America, but during the World War II, they were discriminated and put into the concentration camp. Those days I often visited Little Tokyo in Los Angeles and met those old people listen dot their stories. I wanted to write a book about them.
The other guide spirt has been encouraging me to draw a portrait. That made me recall my younger days. In my elementary school and junior high school days, I was good at creating art works, especially painting and drawing. I didn’t continue studying the art, because my parents encouraged me to have a higher education, mainly to enter a notable university. The medium kept on repeating the key word “France,” but it was not convincing to me at all. I have lived my life up to now without any influence of France. I never was and am not interested in there at all.
At the last 10 minutes, I asked two questions regarding my past life with my Japanese family members. Nothing was convincing to me. I felt the medium could not see any of my past lives. She just told her own opinions and advice based on her physical level experience. I didn’t feel comfortable on hearing it.
All in all, I felt she read somebody else’s energy, not mine. To be honest, I was disappointed and not satisfied with her reading session. But I know one thing. She did her best effort. She might do a better job for others. It is difficult to find a best matched medium who can read my energy correctly. Ideally, I should raise my spiritual awareness enough, so that I can read my past lives better than anybody else. It is my goal. This reading session helped me to realize my goal.
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