At 20:30 p.m., I attended spiritual retreat workshop. It was a 2-hour workshop. There were nine students attended.
First off, we did the instructor’s guided mediation. It was the spiritual journey to go back to your past. At the first stop, we saw ourselves in our early years like a young elementary school child. I saw myself as the first grader, 6 years old. I had a short bobbed hair. I was wearing a red skirt with suspenders with a T-shirt. I looked like a main character of cartoon Chibi-Maruko-chan. I asked young version-of-me what her dream career was when she grows up. She told me number one of her dream career was a Mother, the second was a teacher for an elementary school, the third was a teacher for camping, and the last was a Manzaishi (a Japanese duo comedian)
We went back to the time when we were in our mom’s tummy. I felt my mom’s feeling. She desperately hoped to have a baby girl. Her first child was born as a boy and my dad’s family took him for one year. They put more values on boys than on girls. My mom thought if I was born as a girl, she could keep me.
Then, we were guided to one of our memorable past lives. I went to the time when I was born as a Lakota girl. In this lifetime, the situation was the same as my current Japanese family. It was their traditional way that they value boys than girls. Since I was born as a girl, nobody seriously listened to my opinions, even though I conveyed lots of valuable messages from holy spirits.
This girl of my past life started talking to me. She went through the uncomfortable experience being born as a girl, but she assured me that this lifetime is different. Also since she has been supporting me, I should feel free to speak up whenever I need to. In her lifetime, she had built a human phobia, but she also assured I should not take over her leftover feeling of human phobia.
Also, she told me in this lifetime, I was provided the super powerful supporters; my husband and daughter. They are the most trustworthy people in this lifetime for me. With their love, she said, I should be fine no matter what. I agree with her. When she mentioned about my husband and daughter, I felt great happiness and love and shed tears on my cheeks.
After the mediation, we proceeded to the actual practice. The instructor paired up the students. I read my first partner’s past life. I saw her as a Christian nun in Europe in one time. Other time, I saw her as an elderly woman in Europe. I started focusing this lifetime of hers. I felt she was a wife of a rich man in either England or France. They were living in a spacious and luxurious mansion. They hired many house servants. She was not skinny at all; rather, fluffy round body shape. She was generous and open-minded. Those days the owner of servants were not supposed to casually talk to her servants, but she was different. She was friendly to everybody including to the house servants. She would let them sit with her at the table and offer tea and cookie to them. Another life of hers I saw was a young Aboriginal girl. She was around 10-year-old running around with bare foot. She was very skinny, but looked very healthy in her dark skin. I thought it interesting her soul allowed me to see her two lives that were totally opposite. One life was a rich elderly white woman with ample-figured, while the other life was a young skinny dark skinned girl without a house. One life she probably never touched earth, while other life she lived with the earth.
My first partner read my past life as a nun in Europe. This didn’t resonate with me, but I do feel it might be my mom to send this memory through her. I was told once that my mom and I shared the life together as friends when we served our lives as a nun in Europe. I still have offensive feeling whenever anybody tells me that I had a past life of being a nun in Europe.
Our second reading partner was chosen to a different person. She was a young pretty woman. We were told to see the partner’s past life that they had lived with high spiritual awareness. I read her energy two days ago in the other workshop, so it was easy for me to retreat the memory. One of her past life was a Ten-nyo or a Japanese Miko. She looked like floating in the air, just like an Indian monk. She devoted her life to God and she was not allowed to marry nor have kids. She helped many people by conveying messages from God.
One student read my past life as a Miko. Same as the previous young woman I read, I devoted my life to God to convey spiritual messages. She felt I admire water falls. I told her she read my energy right. I do admire water falls.
Last practice was to read everybody’s energy and notice if any of them shared the life in the same area and time. I felt the instructor to be close to me. I felt she worked as a Miko with me close to ocean. I felt the same nostalgic feeling to the young woman. I felt pretty sure that we had known each other working as a Miko. I remember one woman as my sister while we were born as an ancient Black tribe. We both served as a shaman. We also shared the life as a Native American. In both lives, we were sisters.
Most people felt the same way as I felt.
The young woman felt the life with me differently. She saw me as an elderly monk and she was a young monk. I was her master monk teaching her about spirituality. We were living in a high elevation mountain area. We saw the village at the foot of the mountain. While she was talking about it, my soul resonated with her very well. It was great to hear that.
I enjoyed her class very much. I am pretty sure all of the student felt the same way as I did.
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