In the late morning at 11 a.m., my mom-in-law informed us that my brother-in-law was connected to the life support in the hospital. The doctor asked his girl friend to let the immediate family and close friends know to say good-bye to him. We decided to visit him in the hospital tomorrow.

My husband wanted to have an alone time, so he went to the gym. Meanwhile, around 3 p.m., while I chanted a Japanese mantra to my brother-in-law, I shed lots of tears. I felt he already made his mind to depart from physical realm to the spirit world.

I slept well and woke up energized. I noticed the nerve pain in the right foot was much reduced. Instead, I noticed the stiffness in both of the back of knee after I woke up in the morning and tried to stand up. I had keep standing while doing the computer work and study, but from today, I started adding more time on sitting down on a chair to reduce burdens on the legs.

In the evening at 7 p.m., we were planning to join the star gazing party at the local community college, but it was cancelled due to the snow clouds covered the entire sky.

The other day, I ordered a set of Purple cushions. Their products such as cushions and pillows are well known for medically beneficial for the people who has a severe back pain. Their products are pretty expensive, but I thought it worth if they really help reducing my back pain. I tried them out this evening. I liked them.

I could sleep through for 7.5 hours.

For the past couple of years, purchasing a new vacuum cleaner was in my purchase wish list. The other day, I finally decided purchase it. There were 2 vacuum clears on sale. One is a robot type and the other one is a normal designed one. We currently have 4 different types and different sized vacuum cleaners but all the four were pretty old; more than 10 years old and don’t suck up a dust or trash powerfully.

I tried out the both 2 vacuum cleaners. I am pretty satisfied. Especially a robot typed vacuum cleaner works great to clean the entire house. These two will help me a lot by saving my time and energy on cleaning the house.

I went to the clinic to receive a refill of gabapentin. I am thankful the doctor approved my refill request. Even though I am in the process of reducing the frequency to take the pill, I still want to keep it for my upcoming trip to Japan for just in case support.

I could sleep 9 hours straight. For the past two mornings, I clearly felt the nerve pain in the right foot has gotten reduced. It was not drastically reduced, but I could feel the subtle reduction in nerve pain.

I could sleep 9 hours straight. With the recent high-quality sleep, I can feel the nerve pain in the right foot has gotten reduced day by day.

I watched the recoding of my homeopathy teacher’s lecture. I needed to take a break frequently so that I wouldn’t get tired. It resulting in spending all day just to watch through the 3 hours lecture.

Four days have passed since I graduated from the online game. I feel so light without doing the online game. I cannot believe I had wasted my precious time on the online game for 11 years. But now I am free from any obligations from the online game.

I could sleep 9 hours.

I had an interesting dream. I was in the school classroom and eating my homemade bento by myself. I didn’t feel lonely or sad or anything, rather, I was fully enjoying being alone and as a matter of fact, I was happy for being able to taste my own cooked food without chatting and eating. In the real world too, I prefer eat by myself. I don’t want to eat and chat simultaneously. I want to focus on eating food with appreciation to the food.

This dream is linked with my awareness of yesterday. I realized my desire to be approved and praised by others is gone. In the dream, I was happy for eating lunch by myself. There were some other people like me, enjoying being alone and eating their homemade lunch. I felt comfortable to see this dream as a confirmation that I don’t need any praises from others.

I had a home sauna in the afternoon. The home sauna was also my first since the injury day. I from time to time felt the nerve pain in the right foot, but other than that, I enjoyed the detoxing process by sweating out.

In the evening at 4 p.m., I talked with my Japanese friend. I invited her to our hot spring tour and she was excited about it.

I could sleep 10.5 hours. Recently, I sleep longer and deeper. I feel my body needs the sleep to heal the body by itself.

In the afternoon, I went to town with my husband. Since I still could not walk around in and out the several stores, I stayed in the car and rested. While I was waiting for my husband, my homeopath friend called me, and we ended up chatting for a long time. It was good to talk with her. The conversation with her made me realize that I still have desire for recognition and desire to be praised by others. During the conversation with her, I thought I can let the desires go. I can recognize me and praise me. I don’t need others to be happy. I can make myself happy.

In the evening, my husband changed the engine oil for both of our cars.

I could sleep 9.5 hours. I had a fun dream. I was with one of the most famous Japanese comedians.

Today I went to town by myself. My daughter stayed behind at home tackling with her school work. She has been working the school work ahead of the schedule for the upcoming Japan trip.

In the evening, I talked with my Japanese friend regarding the short trip to Kyoto.