Last night I had a small argument with my husband about the recent grade for my daughter’s assignment that my husband helped. I didn’t like the way my husband talked back to me. Most likely he was affected by negative energy that he brought back from the workplace. It seemed he snaped out of the anger to me. I suggested my husband to stop arguing and let this go, because it was originally not a big deal. Then I went to my room and had alone time for a while. I focused on the negative energy that I received from my husband and did TFT method to release the negative energy. I did the process twice. Then, my feeling really calmed down. I was glad that I was so peaceful right before I went to bed and had a sound sleep without any disturbances.

This morning when I woke up, I don’t know why but I was filled with appreciation to my husband. My heart was filled with love to my husband. I went to my husband and expressed my appreciation feeling to him, and wished him to have a great day before he took off to work.

Even though I don’t remember my dream, I am sure that I had a good talk with my family spirits. They encouraged me to keep using whatever I do for releasing any types of negative energies and feeling instead of keeping it for a long time.

I had a vivid dream this morning that I woke up with the clear memory of it. It was a dream of my dad. In my dream I was walking on the isle in the local grocery store in Japan. I happened to run into my dad. My dad told me that he had been in bed due to the very bad situation of sickness. He also told me he was at the very close line to depart this physical world. I felt sorry for my dad. I apologized my dad for not visiting him in Japan and not even calling him for the past three months. Then I woke up. I thought about the possibility to visit my dad in Japan within this month. On my second thought however, the idea was quickly wiped off. I have decided to follow my gut feeling on everything. My gut feeling obviously is reluctant the idea to get on an international flight, to have a long hour flight, to deal with the security check, and to go through all the transportation in Japan. But these are just one of the excuses for avowing the visit. The most reluctant factor for me to visit my dad is crystal clear. I don’t want to spend any time with my dad because I know he keeps touching my nerves constantly with whatever he does. I don’t want to argue with him. I don’t want to create any more bad memories about him. I want to keep the sacred distance from him. My dream probably came from my guilt feeling to my dad.

Now that I have started learning about the technique to heal my inner child, I understand everything happens for reasons. Recent events that touched my nerves are all related to my dad. I had a big argument with one of the insurance agent team members because her attitudes and wordings reminded me of my dad that I could not accept. Most recent event that annoys me constantly is my neighbor. He constantly opens his garage and sits there watching our house. He is a chain smoker and constantly smokes, which I hate to smell the cigarette smell. And he constantly coughs intensively, which I hate to hear his cough all the time. I know this man shows up to inform me of my inner child related to my dad.

Now what should I do about it? I meditated and asked my family spirits for advice. Soon, I received advices to clatter the old and unnecessary items and clothes. They told me once I organize the house and get rid of the unnecessary items, my energy field will be cleansed too, so that I will not get easily disturbed by outer conditions and other people.

I woke up early in the morning and went to the local gas station to fill up my car. Our local gas station is constantly full in their normal time all day long, so I try to go in an abnormal time when not many customers are there. The gas price has been calming down. In our area it was $3.59 per gallon. In Tucson it was even cheaper to $3.29 per gallon last week. I feel the inflation of the food prices have been calming down too. At least for my last two shopping, I didn’t surprise at my final price of my grocery, which I appreciate with.

In the early afternoon with the help of my family, I did some yard work after monsoon. Every time when we do any types of yard works, I feel the energy of my late dad-in-law. He was there with us and enjoyed the outside work with nature.

I have watched QX-Scio seminar for the past two days. It contains a 6-hour lecture in altogether. The lecturer is a very unique person. He was born with 24 chromosomes, which the majority people are born with 23 chromosomes. He said he can be a man and a woman. He spent his life up to the age of 45 as a man, and now he switched to his gender as a woman. In either way, he is handsome and beautiful. He has full of good humor and enjoys his life to the most. I really enjoyed his lecture and learned a lot from him.  

Today I watched the macrobiotic online lecture. It has been for a while since I saw this instructor online last time. She always looks younger than her real age with her skinny fit body. Today she focused on one of the macrobiotics’ important concepts; time. October 4th is 重陽 The Chrysanthemum Festival (The Choyo Festival), which is September 9th, the ninth day of the ninth month, in the old lunar calendar … Especially right now is at the transitional timing of changing season. Choyo is one of the five seasonal festivals in Japan and Japanese ancestors cerebrated it by decorating their houses with of chrysanthemum flowers in order to eliminate any negative energies accumulated in the house.  

The instructor mentioned our recent trend is to save time on cooking. Japanese people call it as “時短.” The people are constantly overwhelmed by their busy life and try to cook as fast as they can. The recent trend for cooking is to use a microwave to heat up. But the instructor suggested to use more time in cooking because what we eat really affects our body, mind, and soul. In the kitchen take your time to prepare food by taking to each ingredient, appreciating them, and using gas fire. I totally agree with her. Food is energy that we intake. I want to intake my food with full of appreciations and high vibrations by taking my time in cooking.   

In the morning I saw a bird that was caught in the bird net. The bird was in a panicky mode and constantly moving around. As the bird moved around, it made the situation worse. The bird was now trapped in its neck, both craws, and feather. I approached the bird. I told the bird that I was about to rescue him and asked to calm down. I started cutting the tangled net one by one. Finally, I could release the bird from the net. The bird tried to fly away, but it landed on the closest ground. Maybe the bird broke the bone of the feather. Or it could be out of breath because of being choked its neck for a while. I gave the bird Reiki healing energy. At the same time, I prayed from my heart that the bird would heal quickly and be able to fly away to its family and friends.  While I was doing so, the bird was very calm as if it was receiving the Reiki energy and listening to my prayer for it. I told the bird to rest up for a while and to go back home when it is healed up. Then I went back inside the house. Even inside the house, I continued to pray for the bird. One hour later, I went to the backyard garden to check if the bird was still there or not. I was happy to see the bird was not there anymore. The bird was healed up and could fly back to its family.

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In the early afternoon I took my daughter to the fourth coding club. It is only one hour class, but I always appreciate the librarian to offer this wonderful learning opportunity for the local children.    

Our refrigerator has kept been leaking water underneath every day. I requested the realtor to send somebody to fix it. Also the fan of the bathroom has been out of order since July, which I also requested the realtor to send somebody to fix it. I sent the realtor a reminder this morning. She replied back right away saying only “yes.” I don’t know what to do. I know we as a tenant have the right to request the realtor to fix it. The realtor, who gets paid for monthly maintenance fee from the landlord, is responsible to keep the house properly with all the necessary appliances and functions work. Please my family spirits to show me any signs and ideas on what I should do about this house. Thanks to the advice from my teacher, my husband and I agreed on not to buy this house and stay renting for a while. I want to keep having a good relationship with the realtor (the manager of the rental property) until our last day of renting this house. All I want to have is peace with the realtor and a comfortable life at this renting house. And we don’t want to move out at this moment.

An interesting synchronicity happens. Right after I wrote down this request to my family spirits, I started reading a book of Fen Shui. I found the advice of this month saying “in this month you should spend days peacefully and calmly. Instead of expressing any complaints to others, adjust your energy by cleaning the house and organizing especially the refrigerator. Focusing your energy and keeping your energy field always clean, then the outer environment will gradually be adjusted and moved to a positive way.” I am glad my family spirts answered my question right away like this.

In the evening I attended the online seminar presented by a Japanese company. This company is an agent who helps the people who live in a foreign country to apply for the Japanese pension system. I guess there were many Japanese attendees because there were many questions. Last time when I talked with a worker at the Japanese pension office, she sounded that I am not qualified to receive the pension. But according to today’s seminar, I might be qualified. This company offers the investigation to check if a person is qualified or not, and if yes, the approximately monthly amount to be able to receive. Maybe someday I will contact this company and ask for the free investigation service. For some reasons, I don’t feel like doing anything at this time.

The take away from today’s homeopathy lecture was about acceptance. The instructor mentioned this lesson. 起こることを受け入れる。受け入れられないことが苦しみの種になる. It means that we should accept anything what happens to us. If we cannot accept it, it will become a cause of suffering.

It resonated with me deeply because I have been thinking hard about the house. Should we buy this house? My husband and I agreed to keep renting this house as long as the owner let us to rent it. But the realtor has not been helpful that she hasn’t arranged anybody to fix the bathroom fan and the refrigerator. We have spent inconvenient life in this house that we cannot strongly ask the realtor. When should we move to Navajoland? If we do so, how can we make money on that land?  

I know it is not health for keep thinking about something that is out of my hand. And that is why this lesson deeply resonated with me. I should let my family spirits take care of the things that are out of my hand. I should just wait and see, and accept the things and events to come to us. I should keep thinking positively and believing everything has been well taken care of. Everything should go well for us.

My family and I went to the orchard and farm. We picked lots of Asian pears and fuji apple at the orchard. At the farm, we picked some produces and purchased corns. I love their produces and fruits. They were busy preparing for the next month that they would have some family activities such as a corn maze and a hay ride.

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In the morning the lab test result of my husband came in. I was shocked that he was categorized as a smoker. His lab test shows that the nicotine marker was positive. I never thought he was smoking at the workplace but he confessed that he smokes from time to time. He said smoking releases his stress from work. He said he wants to stop smoking with the help of homeopathy. I picked some remedies for him. I hope the remedies will be some help for him to release his stress.