Last night at 2 a.m., I woke up and could not get back to sleep for a couple of hours until 5 a.m. It is my pattern. I cannot sleep on the first night on Navajoland. Lots of thoughts came in to my mind. I felt my late dad-in-law was excited and talking to me. He suggested to talk about my new business to my mom-in-law. He also suggested to emphasize that the biggest purpose of my new business is to move back to Navajoland as soon as possible. Once I agreed, I guess our conversation was over. I could fall in asleep.

Around 6 a.m. of their time, which is 5 a.m. of our time, I naturally woke up with the dogs’ barking and birds’ chirping. As soon as I opened the entrance door, my mom-in-law walked in to the trailer house with the food tray. She said she woke up feeling hungry this morning so she cooked 4 breakfast sandwiches. She said last night that she hadn’t had appetite recently, so I was happy that her appetite was back. Having us there made her happy and resumed her appetite feeling, I guess.

After we ate, my husband and my mom-in-law went to two offices; the local hospital and the utility office. At these offices my mom-in-law added my husband as her backup in their official page. Since it was tough for her to switch the owner’s name from my dad-in-law from her after his death, even though they are a married couple, she wanted making these procedures easy for the future. They also went to the MVD office. In last October they finished the paper work to rename the trailer house ownership from my late-dad-in-law. They even paid for the fee, but they haven’t heard anything from them even though they were told somebody should contact them within some month. Unfortunately though when they arrived at the office, they saw a long waiting line even in the outside of the office because they had only one worker in the office. They could not do anything about it today.

In the evening we went to visit my husband’s cousin’s house. My husband and his female cousin talked a lot over the phone, but they hadn’t seen each other for more than 16 years. When they hugged, the cousin got emotional and cried. Late they told me that they (my husband and the female cousin and the male cousin) were always together when they were small. And now the male cousin passed away in last December. My husband and the female cousin kept on talking by themselves. I know how they felt. I had a very good time when I saw one of my cousins when I was visiting my parents in 2020. I am happy for them that they could finally see each other again after many years.

Today was a big day for my family. We visited my mom-in-law in Navajoland. As usual routine, I woke up much earlier than usual, prepared Obento for us so that we can have lunch in the car. We encountered many vehicles traveling the same direction with us. Since it was a graduation season, people traveled to congratulate their family members. We encountered many police cars that caught people for speeding. I drove the majority of the route. I took extra caution on not to speed up. We stopped by a rock store in Holbrook. We all thought of my late dad-in-law. He used to love this store and purchase lots of stones and rocks. We hope he was there with us in spirit and enjoyed looking around his favorite store.

We arrived at my mom-in-law’s house around 5 p.m., in her time 6 p.m. As soon as we parked our car, she came out from the house and came to us. When we hugged her, she was quietly shedding tears.

After we finished unpacking our stuff in the trailer house, we again visited my mom-in-law. We were hungry and I was about to cook dinner. We wanted to know if she already cooked some food for us, which she used to do while my dad-in-law was still alive. When we casually asked her if she cooked some foods for us and if she already ate dinner, she said she didn’t cook anything nor didn’t eat any meals except for a light snack. She said it was because she was all by herself. She doesn’t have anybody to cook meals for or to share foods with. Before she finished saying that, she started crying aloud. She said she has been doing this, all of a sudden crying aloud by herself, very often. She said all of her cats and dogs probably worry about her. I felt sorry for her. And I was thinking of my dad and wondering how he was handling the loneness living all by himself. Our first night we all got emotional.  

Everything is calmed down for now. I finished reading the book Rich Dad Poor Dad written by Robert Kiyosaki, and today I started reading the book The Creature from Jekyll Island written by Edward Griffin. I am still reading the beginning part of his book, but I appreciate him to share the valuable information. I support his advice. He says we cannot change everybody. We can change only 3% of the total population. We have to be careful and find out who is ready to know the truth and take appropriate actions. Once we find the right people of the 3%, we join the force with them and share the right information and educate each other. Then, once the right people has enough power and leadership, the other mass people will follow them. The important thing is to know the truth. The truth cannot find in the mass media such as major TV channels, the major newspapers, or the major internet news feeds, because they are all controlled by them.  I want to keep studying and learning about the truth.      

In the morning I called the internet provider and requested to terminate the contract. In the evening at 3 p.m., they sent me the engineer to remove their equipment. I terminated the contract due to their bad service, I personally feels I have the right to receive a refund of a half month’ fee, but most likely they are not going to provide a refund of this month’s fee. I talked with my friend and asked for advice regarding dealing with a bad business. She recommended me to report my experience to BBB (Better Business Bureau) and The Chamber of Commerce. I went to these two websites and searched this internet provider. I saw a whole bunch of complains from their customers about this company. I will sleep on it if I should report to these websites or not. I am happy though, that I am not doing the business with them anymore.

In the evening at 5 p.m., I attended the online Reiki gathering. Today my Reiki teacher shared two Zen words. Both words are familiar with me but it was a good reminder. The first reminder was 一期一会 (Ichigo-Ichie). This is one of his favorite words and he loves to remind us often. It means one meeting is once in a lifetime, and so, every moment is precious. We have to enjoy every single moment to the most. The second reminder was 言霊 (Kotodama). It means spirit of words. Words have power. Words is reality. Whatever we say, it becomes reality, and so, we have to pay attention to what we speak. My late dad-in-law often reminded me about this too. Maybe it was a reminder from him through my Reiki teacher tonight.

Since yesterday’s noon, our home internet had been out. Since this company is a local family business and nobody works on weekends, I patiently waited until Monday morning when they resume to work. to be honest, I was reluctant to call them because I already knew the workers and the business owner were all rude and not professional. But I had no option to call them. As I expected, I needed to deal with the rude worker who was not supportive nor helpful at all. She asked me to do the procedure, to unplug their equipment, wait for 30 seconds, and re-plug. Even though I told her the resetting procedure was not working, I needed to do this four times. The female worker was very rude. She didn’t listen to me. Every time when I started explaining, she would cut me off. There was one time I needed to raise my voice and asked her to let me finish my explanation instead of cutting me off. From the beginning to the end of our conversation, she never apologized for the inconvenience company’s service. She said somebody would come to my house to check at tomorrow evening. She continued that if their engineer does not find any issues in their equipment, they will charge me $95 for the visit. I was furious after the conversation with the female worker.

I meditated and calmed myself down. I am learning the technique of healing an inner child. So, I asked myself what was the deep cause of this anger? Was there anybody who acted like this rude worker in my past? I quieted myself and waited for the vision. Soon, the vision of my late mom popped up. I see. It makes sense to me. My mom often did this to me. Even though I was talking, she always cut me off and kept on talking. She never listened to me. I talked to my inner child. I told her that the old time was gone and it would not happen again, because adult-I will always protect the small-I so that nobody can mess with us anymore. 

I opened the book of Robert Kiyosaki. It was an interesting synchronicity. The first sentence that caught my eye on the page says “Stop doing what is not working, and look for something new.” I thanked my family spirits for the advice. Yes, I will terminate the contact with this bad internet provider today, and have a new contract with other provider.

In the evening after my husband’s work, we went to town and made a new contract with internet provider. This new provider offers 5G home internet with unlimited data with a reasonable price. The setting up was easier than we thought. We didn’t need to their engineer come to our house to connect. We just set up on our own within 15 minutes. The new internet service is fast and stable. We are loving it.

In the morning at 8 a.m., I attended the regular team meeting. The team leader announced that the half of her members would move to other team. It was a bit sad announcement to see them off. Then at 10 a.m., I attended the seminar that shared the information for the students who want to enroll high ranked universities in America. They provided lots of useful information. My daughter is not interested in enrolling in a university and I won’t need to pursue to get some more information.   

Most of the daytime our home internet service was out. Recently our local internet provider frequently gets out for many hours. I saw many bad reviews about this provider, but unfortunately we don’t have any other provider options available in our area. The good thing is though, during the internet is out, I could have precious time with my daughter to show how to cook lunch and dinner.

At noon I had a zoom meeting with my team leader. It was a powerful conversation. We both agreed to study for security license together. The security license contains 4 different sections. Today we looked at the test material together. Each exam has 90 days on the first payment. It means even if we pass all of the 4 exams on our first attempt, it will take us at least one year to pass the all exams. It will be difficult exams and we will have to study hard, but to be honest I am so happy for these new challenges.

I had an interesting synchronicity. This morning in my dream, I was given a baby boy. He was maybe several months old, still could not walk around. He was smiling at me and raised both hands to me. When I reached my hands to him, he smiled even bigger. When I held him on my chest, I felt so happy and relaxed. The baby was already sleeping in my arms. When I woke up, I looked up the meaning of this dream. The internet dream interpretation dictionary says the dreamer will have good support to start something new and have preferable result on a new challenge. It was a timely message for me.

It was a super-hot day. We are in the middle of summer. While we were walking in the neighborhood area, a big snake, approximately 3 meters long, crossed in front of us.

My daughter’s school is almost done. She submitted one of the huge science assignment today and has only one more math assignment left. She is very close to her summer break.

I thought of last year. Around this time of last year, my dad-in-law was still alive. Those days my family spirits kept on talking to me that my daughter and I should stay at least 2 weeks on Navajoland and spend time with my dad-in-law. They wanted especially my daughter to see what my dad-in-law was doing for his medicine work helping people. My husband and I agreed with the idea and we were actually planning to go with the plan. I don’t remember exactly what happened, but we needed to postpone the plan. Then next month my dad-in-law got infected Covid-19 and hospitalized in July. He came back with an oxygen tank. He was already very weak and fragile, and he passed away in august. I still think what if scenario. What if we still proceeded the plan and spent the 2 weeks with him, he could have taught us a lot before his departure. I really miss him. He had helped me a lot. Thank you dad for your constant support for us.  

In the evening at 6 p.m., I had a phone conversation with my life-long friend. It is always fun and healing to talk with her. We always forget time because we have so much topic to share with, talk about, and laugh about. We always end our conversation with full of energy. I sincerely appreciate her long term friendship.

Today I recruited two people. It was my very first attempt. I mentioned about my current job asked if they would be interested in joining. Regardless of excitement and expectations, both attempts didn’t go well.

The first person was one of my Reiki students. I haven’t talked with her for at least 8 years. We had a good time on sharing our recent life. It was very natural for her to turn down my invitation. She is 69 years old and currently taking care of her husband who had a stroke and getting weaker than ever. She said she is pretty occupied with taking care of her husband.

The second person was my old friend. We met at the ESL class back in 2009 and became friends. She had been the business owner of a Japanese restaurant for the past 10 years. One of our common friends told me she recently retired from her work. I expected her to take the job opportunity as an insurance producer with me, but she turned down my offer strongly and right away. She is turning to 60 this year and does not wish to get back to busy work days. Since her retirement in last October, she has been enjoying her happy retirement life by shopping around, eating at restaurants, and going to vacations with her husband here and there.

So, two of my first attempts of recruiting didn’t go what I hoped, but I am still thankful that I experienced it. I know I will learn from mistakes and failures and eventually I will reach at the goal at the right timing.

All the process of First training from the company has completed. Today I watched all the archived training videos created by my team leader. It was helpful to watch the video on my pace. I watched them as 1.5 faster speed and whenever I wanted to take a memo, I could pause to take memo or re-listen the part.

At 7 p.m. in the night I attended the CEO’s team meeting. My immediate supervisor was promoted to the upper rank and she made a speech.

After the meeting, I was suffered from the emerging emotion to the immediate supervisor. I am not going to write about the details, but my emotion was negative such as anger, jealous, and sadness. After I took some homeopathy remedies, I meditated.

My family spirits shared their block of thoughts like this.

Dear our child,

Please know that the truth is not only what you see in your physical eyes. There are lots of facts that I cannot see. The person might have helped me in our past life, and now on this lifetime, it is my turn to repay her. Or, this person might have paid lots of energy in her past life, so that she is deserved to receive the rewards back to her. Or, it might be all in this lifetime only, meaning that she already had put lots of efforts so that now she deserves to receive rewards.

In any way, you don’t need to compare with anybody. It is not a win-lose race. You can proceed in your comfortable pace. We want you to enjoy the process. Enjoy every moment. If you can fully be happy for her achievement, then next is your turn. You will soon have your success moment. All is good. Keep smiling and keep moving forward. We all love you all the time.