At night my family and I had a hard time sleeping. It was too hot to sleep even we turned on the fan and cooler. I went to bed at 8:30 p.m. and finally fell asleep after 12 a.m.

I had only 2 hours sleep, because I had the Past life reading workshop started at 3:00 a.m. This workshop is newly proposed at the school. They set only seven students at the maximum, and class lengths was only one hour. I liked this small sized class.

The instructor did a past life reading for all the seven students. I think she set the time of 7 minutes each. She did an excellent job as always. It was interesting to hear the reading for other person. Every person has a different spiritual history and preference in their way of living and same patterns in their actions.  

Before this workshop, I asked my family spirts to show my past life as a Native American. I wanted to know any advice and messages on how I can overcome people phobia.

When it came to my turn, I was so happy that the instructor read my past life figure as a Native American woman.

Her reading was like this.

Being born as a Native American is my spirit’s pattern to be born in the planet Earth. My spirit has deep connections and roots on the Native American land. The Native American woman had black long straight hair. She divided into two and braded them in front of the body.

She saw a vision of two huge rocks. In between the rocks, sun was shining through. Also, a vision of rainbow.

I had lived a life during the time White people came to our land. Even though they had the religion and worshiped God, their actions and behaviors were far away from good people. They lied, stole, and killed our tribal people. Even though I was born as a woman, I was leading people in fighting. I didn’t forgive those bad people. I never erased the rebellious spirit. I brought the memory back to this life time so that I can rewrite the bad experiences and memories to a better version. It will be good not only for me but also for my family spirits.   

Going back to the Native’s sacred land is my inevitable destiny. Behind me, there were a whole bunch of spirits who shared the same experience with me in the past life. They were supporting me by dancing and drumming through our ceremonial rituals. In this moment I felt their collective energy that was warm and supportive, I shed tears. When I go back to my spirit’s homeland on this Earth, I should spend the rest of my life with many things that I could not do in the past life. That includes spending time with my family. Also it includes sharing the wisdom from our elders on how to protect our sacred land and how to live peacefully with fellow humans as well as other living creatures on Earth.

My family spirits also wanted me to be careful on how to use my energy. I am very energy sensitive because I have been working as a shaman for many past lives. I’ve always worked something dealing with God. My spiritual ability is very strong and powerful, so that I need to be careful for not getting disturbed by lower vibrations. They wanted me to focus on communicating with higher dimensioned beings only and convey the important messages to fellow humans.

Today’s dream: It was a fun and relaxing dream. My family and I were in our homesite in Navajoland. There were my Navajo family too. We had three dogs. My dog was a brown golden retriever and my daughter’s dog was a small black mixed breed dog. We were all running around on the ground, and the simply running around with our dogs was really fun. My husband’s grandma told me to stop worrying about anything and just come back to Navajoland and enjoy the land energy. She showed me some visions. In the vision I was offering my homemade food to the local people and they paid for it. Grandma grinned at me and told me I can make money in many different ways to support my family and myself. She said to me that living on Navajoland would be much easier than I think. She said “it is actually easier done than said,” instead of “it is easier said than done.” We both laughed. And my conscious came back to my physical body.

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I read the book of Spider Woman’s children: Navajo weavers today Written by Barbara Teller Ornelas and Lynda Teller Pete.

Today’s dream: I was with my Japanese friend and her husband. The three of us were visiting a huge farm and a vegetable garden. First we were welcomed by many bulls. They were huge and black. They were friendly and sat down next to me. I pet them gently and they looked at me in a gentle eyes. Then one huge milking cow came close to me. All of a sudden she stood up by her two back legs and sprayed milk to me. It was like a gentle warm shower. At the vegetable garden there were lots of healthy vegetables and fruits ready to pick up. Among them one huge watermelon was very impressive. Then I woke up. I know this dream had a good message to me. I expect something great will happen soon.

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It was my daughter’s second day of the summer camp. After I dropped her off at school and came back home, I started having a pollen allergic reaction. I did a steam therapy for my nose and throat but it didn’t work. I needed to wash my nose very often during the day. I went to bathroom back and forth and my precious four-hour alone time went by so quickly. At least my daughter came back with a big smile on her face. She had a great day with her friends today. It counts as my happiness too.  

When my husband came back home from work, I mentioned my allergy. He said his coworker was suffering from a bad allergic reaction today and her face especially under the nose area got all red. Poor thing. I was not the only one who suffered from pollen’s attack today.

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I finished reading the book Life of the Navajo written by Amanda Bishop. It is a thin book but contains lots of information. I enjoyed looking at the beautiful illustrations and pictures in the book.

This year the weather is definitely different from the previous years. I have been living in this area for 12 years now. I always had a tough time to get by in May and June as these months are the hottest and driest months of the year. This year we had a cool temperature in last May. I sometimes wore a long sleeve shirt and long pants with even a light jacket in May. This month is different too. Even in June, the hottest summer month, I need a T-shirt and long pants in the morning and the night as it is too cold for a tank top and short pants. I read some news talking about the positive impacts from the Covid-19 pandemic. Because humans refrained from using cars and airplanes, the quality of air and ocean water have much more improved than before.

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My daughter attended the first day of Summer school. I prayed my family spirits and her family spirits that she would have a good time with other participants.

She came back home and told me lots of things that she experienced. All in all she had a good time. Even though she went through some minor uncomfortable experiences from some mean adults and bulling children, she told me in a fun way. I am proud of her getting stronger than before. I really hope she will keep enjoying the summer camp and staying safe all the time. Thank you to our family spirits for taking good care of my precious daughter.

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I read the book Monster slayer: a Navajo folktale Written by Vee Browne.

My husband went to work. He had an extra day off from work last week and stayed 4 days at the house with us. He stayed in bed longer than the usual work days and woke up around 8 or 9 a.m. I needed to prepare three meals a day for him.

So, I was happy that he went back to work this morning. We got back to the regular work days. We woke up at 5:30 a.m. I fixed him breakfast and lunch and saw him off to work.

This coming week he will have another extra off day from work and will stay at home for 4 days. After this week his work shift will get back to the normal work shift, which I am kind of looking forward to.

From tomorrow, my daughter will attend the summer camp Mondays through Fridays. Even it is only 4 hours a day, I will be able to enjoy my alone time during the weekday daytime. It is normal for the majority of moms, but our daily routine was changed since last year of Covid-19.

Having my husband and daughter at home during the weekday daytime all the time, sometimes exhausts me. I will definitely enjoy my free time from tomorrow.

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I read four books today.

First laugh: welcome, baby! Written by Rose Ann Tahe – It was a cute picture book. Easy to read and understand.

The Water Lady-how Darlene Arviso helps a thirsty Navajo Nation Written by Alice B. McGinty – I like this book very much. The illustrator did a great job. This book gently reminds the readers how blessed we are to live in the areas with running water. I have visited northern area of Navajoland where they didn’t have running water. Also I went through two months without running water and gas after the Great Hanshin earthquake in 1995 in Japan. I support people to try to preserve water and keep appreciating our great resource of water.

The Navajo Written by Andrew Santella – This book is short but very informative to introduce about the Navajo and their history. It serves very well for a reader who wants to know the basic information. I didn’t know they were originally nomadic hunters and gatherers living in the northwest of Canada thousands years ago.  

Monster Birds: a Navajo folktale Written by Vee Browne – I enjoyed reading this picture book.

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Today is my dad’s birthday. I thought of calling him, but on my second thought I decided not to call him today. I know he would be happy to hear my voice, but…. I just sent good thoughts and prayers to him. Happy birthday Dad.

In the morning my family and I went to the canyon hike. Today the entire trail was amazingly vacant. We hardly encountered anybody in the trail, but we did encounter many wild animals and birds. The weather was nice with clear blue sky and nice breeze.

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I have been reading the book Dog flowers written by Danielle Geller. This book is a memoir of the author who was born to Navajo and a white man. I had enjoyed reading her book. She must be a brave and matured soul to choose such a tough life. While I was visiting many different Navajo families on the reservation when I was single, I encountered many, many alcoholic people and their family members who suffer from being hooked. In my life in Japan, I did encounter some alcoholic people but they never got to the same extreme level as her family members.  

It took me seven days to finish reading this book. I could have finished reading the same volume of book if it were written in my language. But for the books written in English I still encounter new words that I don’t know the meaning and I look the meaning up, so it takes longer than reading books in Japanese. I waited my only alone time at night after my daughter went to bed and read it little by little.

I like her book very much. I want to write and publish a memoir like hers. The only difference will be the structure. I like my book in chronological order unlike her book. Her book is structured in back and forth between the past and the current. I think this is a common technique for the majority readers, especially for mystery books fans.

I watched the movie The New World (2005). This movie is about Pocahontas. This movie reminds me of my late Navajo friend. He watched this movie at the theater in America. I wanted to watch it but it was not available in Japan at that time. Now 16 years has passed, and I finally could watch it through DVD.

He had some strong spiritual connections with Europe. His first and last girlfriend was a European girl while he was living in Germany. This is probably the main reason why he liked this movie very much even though he was a Native.

As for me, I don’t have any spiritual connections with Europe like he did. Just looking at European invading to the Native people’s land made me feel sick. This movie shows the historical truth that even though Natives warmly welcomed the unexpected invaders and even shared their food when they needed, the Europeans kept on stealing everything. Sorry to say, but I personally could not fully enjoy watching the movie from the Native’s perspective. Please don’t get offended by my personal opinion.

My friend in the local area is going to move to another city. It will be in the same state, but it will be a 5-hour drive away. She will move out on this coming Saturday. We planned to see each other at the last moment before her move. We originally planned to have lunch together at the restaurant, but I asked her to change our meeting place to the local park.

So we had a get together at the park. It was good for us to change the venue to the park as we kept on chatting for more than 5 hours. We would have been gently chased out if we stayed at the restaurant. 

It was nice to be able to meet her before her move.

We have not been close all the years. We had a 5-year absence that we didn’t contact each other. We never got argument or anything, but during that time I shut off my mental door to people on this land. I had been depressed.

Both of us don’t remember what the trigger for us to reconnect each other was, but we were happy for our reconnection.

I believe everything is up to our spiritual connection. I hope and believe we can see each other again in person in the future. I appreciate her for her friendship.   

Today my husband was off from work. We watched two movies of Lone Ranger (2013) Smoke Signals (1998). My husband and I have watched these movies before. The reason why we started re-watching old Native American movies is because we want our daughter to know a lot about Natives.

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Today I had one uncomfortable experience. I receive an email from the realtor. I hope she is originally a nice person, but when it comes to the communication via emails, texts, and letters, she sounds very coldhearted. One biggest example is about the rent increase notice. At the end of 2019, she sent us a letter. The letter did not contain any greetings or nice wording, but it went directly to the business. It was the rent increase notice letter of $100 increase per month. It was very coldhearted notice because it had only 30 days in advance notice and a huge amount. The letter ordered us to choose one option out of the two. Option one: accept the increase and start paying from the next month. Option two: leave within one month.

The letter arrived to our house at the beginning of December. Who can pack up and leave that soon?  We are the family; my daughter goes to school and my husband goes to work. We could not find a new place to move out. Of course we had no option but to accept the rent increase. Since that time, I totally lost trust to this realtor.

Today she sent out the similar type of notice email. It says we as a tenant are responsible to change an air filter. The email, same as usual, does not contain any greetings or respected words. Just went straight to the business in a cold hearted way. I believe changing an air filter is on the owner’s responsibility, not tenant’s responsibility. We have been living on the renting situation for 12 years now. All the owners prepared a new air filter and exchanged it every time when they switched from heater to cooler. In order to switch an air filter, we have to climb up to the top of the roof. We called the realtor and wanted to ask her to arrange somebody on her side, but she didn’t pick up the phone nor returned the call all day.

I meditated and went to the high vibration realm and talked to my family spirits.

I wishes are like this.

My family and I want to keep peace with the realtor.

We don’t know how many years will take for us to get ready to move to Navajoland, but we will for sure. Until then, I want to keep living in this house.

I visualize something unexpected and great news will come to us, such as the current realtor will quit her position for some reasons and somebody really nice and thoughtful will take over her position.

I think all I can do at this moment is to keep thinking positive and believe in we will be fine no matter what. We want to live peacefully. We want to deal with only nice and thoughtful people. We thank spirits for their constant support. I strongly believe this will be solved peacefully.

My favorite YouTuber posted his newest video clip today. He started positing his videos in 2011 and posted almost every day in 2012, but gradually the frequency got smaller and smaller by now. So I was happy to see his new video clip today. I never commented to any of YouTubers before, but I wanted to say hi to him. I took courage and commented to a YouTube video for the first time. I commented I watched all his videos and I love his Navajo-English slang video clip the best. He replied back to my comment and said he would make a newer version of the video clip. I was so happy that I could unexpectedly communicated with my favorite YouTuber. Nice.