From today my husband has gone back to the daytime work shift. We all woke up early in the morning and started the day with the Sun. It is good for all of us. I thank his supervisor to make efforts for my husband to switch the work shift.

It was great to have him at home in the evening and night. For the previous 6 months I added my new routine in the night; I would pray for his safely returning home before I went to bed. I can get back to original routine from today.

Today was my input day. I studied Navajo language and watched the TED talk and learned from the speakers.

One of the TED speaker offered an impressive story. He is a doctor and has had opportunities to hear from dying people. He concluded that the dying people are getting weak physically but getting vibrantly active and healthy mentally and spiritually. The dying people often talk about their already passed away family members and loved ones waiting for them close to them.

It is really true that luckily I witnessed it through my late mom. Thank you mom for showing your transition back to the spirit world. She looked sick physically, but looked very happy mentally and spiritually. I often went to check on her while she was asleep in her bed. Every time while she was asleep, she was putting a big smile in her face. I knew she was discussing on how she would travel back to the spirit world. I knew at the moment her soul departed her physical body, her family spirits were there waiting for her and picking her up.  

And I know when my time has come, my mom will be there with my family spirits, waiting and picking me up back to the spirit world.

My family and I visited a zoo in the morning. The visitors need to purchase an online ticket beforehand and they have a reserved time frame so as to reduce the number of the visitors. We selected the earliest time hoping there would not be so many people, but there were a whole bunch of people walking around. I miss the zoo in Navajoland where is always peaceful and quiet, hardly not many visitors. I feel sick by surrounded by a crowd of people. At least I was happy that my daughter and husband enjoyed the visit very much.

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In the afternoon, I watched an old black and white movie Navajo (1952). I like this movie because it has many spiritual aspects. It shows how Navajo people traditionally think of physical death. The Grandpa tells the young boy that physical death is nothing, because we are originally spirits and we exist forever and everywhere. The main character; the young Navajo boy can listen to the messages from winds. He can sense the other humans’ existence in a far distance. I enjoyed seeing some familiar landscapes in Canyon de Chelly National Monument.

I attended the three-day Oracle webinar presented by Denise Linn. Today was the final day.

During the guided mediation, she pulled three cards for the audience. And she asked the audience to close eyes and ask about the personal messages for each card. Same as yesterday, I asked my family spirits to give me any messages about our visiting Navajoland for 10 days in next month.

The first card she pulled was “Acceptance.” The card shows a Native woman looking at stars in the night sky. I thought of the sky in Navajoland. We can see stars much more clearly there because there is no much housing lights and the air is clear. It reminds me how much I loved looking at stars while I was still single and visiting their land. I used to talk to the stars in my mind.

The second card she pulled was “Family.” The card shows three wolves in the snowy night. I laughed at the coincidence. Now we are a family of three. I took this as a message that this time everything will turn out great because I have my precious family with me.

The third card she pulled was “Retreat.” The card shows a cabin in the woods. I took this message as is. I will go there to relax, refresh, and heal myself.

I pulled three cards on my own. Interestingly, I pulled two same cards that I pulled yesterday, and one card was the same one that my daughter pulled yesterday.

The three cards were Owl Medicine, Wounded Healer, and Nature Spirits.

Since yesterday May 18^th I attended the three-day Oracle webinar presented by Denise Linn. Today was the second day. She has been talking about the card reading technique.

Today she pulled some Oracle cards for all the audience. While she was shuffling the cards, I thought about our moving to Navajoland and my opportunities/possibilities to support people in healing.

The first card Denise pulled was “Surrender to the journey — release control.” It resonated with me well. It is out of my hand anyway. I should relax and wait for the best timing for everybody and everything.

After the webinar, I pulled 5 cards on my own. The five cards were Nature spirits, Ancestors, Grandmother Earth, Song of the wild, and Owl medicine.

I interpreted the messages through these cards like this.

Same as the first cared Denise pulled, I will be guided by Nature spirits and ancestors. So I should keep on kicking back, relaxing, and wait for the right timing to come.

It was interesting to see the last three cards. The first card shows the sunrise in East. The second card shows the sun traveling from South to West. Finally the third card shows Sunset in North as owl medicine represents north and spirits in spirit world. So my final goal of this life is to connect strongly with the spirit world in North and connect a rainbow bridge between spirits and humans.

Starting from today, our local library will resume their regular hours and businesses. Here in America, at least in my local area, people started acting everything has gone back to normal. I started seeing people without wearing a facial mask in public. I hope everything is back to normal now. I personally like people wearing a facial musk in public though.

Today’s dream: My family spirits taught me about psychic attack. They suggested me to let go of small things that I experienced yesterday. I encountered a rude worker at the local Subway restaurant yesterday. She ruined my day and I got mad at her attitude. I was thinking about raising a complaint to the store manager about his worker’s bad attitude. But I didn’t do so. A couple of deep cleansing breathings calmed me down. So, this dream was the answer from my family spirits. They told me it was good for me that I didn’t raise a complaint to the store manager. They warned me every action of mine influences the outside world. If I keep staying calm, I influence in a good way to the outside world. If I had attacked the female rule worker by raising a complaint to her supervisor, it would cause psychic attack from the female worker to me. My family spirits want me to stay safe and avoid any possible troubles to protect myself and my family.

The message from my family spirits made sense to me. I appreciate their constant support and love to me.

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My husband brought back a good news. He used to work at the night shift in the previous 6 months, but his supervisor is willing to move his work shift to the daytime. I am happy for him.

In my dream, I attended at the Lakota tour as an interpreter again. I did much better in my job than my younger years. I hope this dream will come true so that I can visit their land again as a job.

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Today my daughter finished all her school work. She will enter her long summer vacation for 2.5 months until the beginning of August. She decided to the daily task during summer break. It includes to study Japanese language, read Navajo creation story and myth.

Also we are talking about visiting Navajoland for one week or so in next month. My husband cannot take one week vacation, so only my daughter and I will go this time.

Today’s dream: I was again with my mom. It was amazing that I saw her in my dream two days straight. She told me she has been reading my life book. It is like the Akashic record book but limited to only this lifetime. She didn’t know everything about me while she was alive. She has been enjoying knowing about me much more than she used to. I was adventurous in my childhood and I still am. She said she will keep watching over me and protecting me. Also she has been enjoying staying with me. I am happy to know that.

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In the afternoon my sewing machine died on me. It kept on showing E-6, which means “The motor locked up because the thread became tangled, or the needle bent and hit the needle plate.” According to my record, I purchased this machine on September 2015. It has been working properly for close to six years without any maintenance. I think this machine is pretty good.

Luckily I have my husband. He is a handy man and be able to fix almost all the machines. He opened up the front cover of the machine and thoroughly cleaned the inside. He fixed it with only one hour or so. He has amazing gift in fixing things.

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In the evening we watched the movie Land (2021). It was a great movie. I liked especially the beautiful mountain landscape. The movie story is supposed to be in Wyoming, but the film was shot in Canada. The movie talks about the Native people’s land. I didn’t know the sub main character acts as a Native until the ending. I recommend this movie not only to nature lovers but also to the people who have hurt mentally before and want to be alone in nature.  

This morning I was with my mom in my dream. I met my mom at our local station. She dressed up nicely as she used to. She liked to decollate herself nicely all the time. I showed up in the outfit which I like the best. I was wearing my favorite T-shirt and a pair of short pants. I didn’t wear make up on my face as usual. One thing was standing out. I was not wearing a pair of shoes. I looked around to see everybody else around us were wearing their shoes. I told my mom I would go back to the hotel and get shoes. When I went back to my hotel room, I noticed I don’t have any shoes at all. Then I woke up.

According to the dream interpretation dictionary says I am in the transitional stage from the old self to find a new self.

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Today was a hot summer day. In the morning my family and I went to the canyon hiking.

We have several house plants growing healthily in our dining room. Among them two plants are especially growing fast. They are China Doll plant and Money Tree. We replanted into a bigger flower pot so that they can grow more.

We planted okra seeds in a paper coffee cup. I hope they will sprout well.

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In the afternoon we watched the movie Dance with Wolves (1990). I watched this movie many times before, but I still could enjoy watching it, especially with my family.