In this morning’s dream, all my old and uncomfortable memories came back. These were the actual memories of my younger days when I could not say no to others. People used me for their convenience and I didn’t protect myself even though I knew they were using me. These memories were the ones that I wanted to forget. I wanted to pretend these never happened to me.

I have to accept that I didn’t wake up comfortably. It was not fun to remember these bad memories. I knew I had this dream for reasons.

Last night I watched the online homeopathy lecture regarding Mother Tincture. Even though I don’t have none of their Mother Tincture in hand and didn’t take it, the effect of the Mother Tincture miraculously happened. They have the Mother Tincture named “Somatsu.” It treats with the people’s inner child that they treated their younger selves without respect.

I followed the advice of the homeopathy teacher. I went to my younger-self and hugged her, and told her to rest assured that older-self me is now having a happy life with my husband and daughter. I, the-older-version-of-me, am taking good care of myself. I can speak up whenever needed.

Then I all of a sudden realized that the events happened recently to me happened for reasons. In every event, I could say no and speak up to protect me. Even though I didn’t look very nice to them, it is okay for me to do so. I deserve to speak up to protect myself. I am glad that I am not too naïve. I am not a too-good young girl anymore. I am a strong will woman to be able to protect myself and my loved ones. I picked my younger-self up and take her with me for the rest of my journey in this life.

I attended the online lecture of Aroma and Herb expo in Japan. I listened to two online lectures. One was from the homeopathy school teacher and the other one was from a channeler from star being. Toward the end she shared one message and it resonated with me.

The message was about the importance of “Yudaneru.” It can be translated to “let go” or “receive”. She said the best way to practice of Yudaneru is to accept any offers from others. we can start from a small thing. For example when you go to a restaurant, a worker offers to take your coat from you and hang it over a hanger, or a worker may offer you to pull a chair for you before you take a seat. She said go ahead and take any offer that is given with appreciation. It was a nice synchronicity. I just thankfully accepted the gift card offered from the fabric store as their sincere apology. I have been accepting any offer that somebody provided me. 

Today I received a gift card from the fabric store. It came with a nice greeting card. When I opened the envelope, I could feel good intention and sincere thoughts from the store manager. I communicated with the store manager and found out the gift card was from the store. She asked me to accept it. She said I deserve to have the gift card. I decided to thankfully accept it. I will use it for me and others. Thank you to my family spirits for supporting me with this case. It started with an uncomfortable experience, but I am glad it ends with good thoughts and lessons learned.

Late at night around 8:30 p.m., I received a phone call from my mom-in-law. I was surprised at her call because she usually does not call me directly. I thought my husband’s phone had some issues that she could not get hold of my husband.

I quickly went to the living room and handed my phone to my husband. When I said it is from his mom, his face expression told me something big happened and he already knew it.

It was the announcement of my husband’s cousin’s sudden death. My husband just had a phone call from the cousin’s older sister and was informed 30 minutes ago. However, it was a shocking news that my husband wanted to tell us in the next morning. It was a tough news for him to accept. My husband and his cousin were very close to each other. They were born only 3 months apart from each other. They grew up together and were classmates at the school. They were like twin brothers. Nobody knows at this moment yet about the actual death cause. When his mom went to his room, he was already dead for many hours, maybe 1 or 2 days had already passed. We know he didn’t die from suicide. We just had a good time during our last visit. We know he had serious issues in his liver. The police has been investigating and the medical team will take over to find out the death cause.

In the evening at 5 p.m., I attended the online Reiki share gathering. We had a new member attended. She is the same way as me, originally from Japan, but currently lives in Canada. I was happy to meet her and sent a direct message. We exchanged some greetings and conversation during the gathering session. I am happy to meet her.

At noon I had an online meeting with an insurance agent about life insurance and pension insurance.

It was really nice to have the nice agent that I learned a lot about the insurance. I am entering to my last life stage and need to plan ahead of my old age.

One of my favorite YouTuber/writer announced that he receive an offer from two publishers to publish his book. I am a big fan of him and happy for his great news. I commented his Twitter twice and to my surprise, he sent me a direct message. I am happy to be connected with him. He follows me even though I will not post anything in Twitter. I believe in Universe that it will arrange the best situation at the best timing, if we are actually spiritually connected. I look forward to have a nice moment to get to know each other, if we are supposed to work together sometime somewhere. As always, thank you to my family spirits for everything you guys arrange events for me.

In the morning we had a surprise visitor. Our friend brought a belated birthday gift for my daughter. She remembered my daughter’s birthday wrongly as December 12^th. She was close though with her memory. It was very nice of her to remember her birthday and cerebrated. The birthday gift was a pretty pink box with many different scientific experiences for girls. My daughter made some fizzy bath bombs as her first project.

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At 7 p.m., I attended the online event with Bashar again. This was the second day and the interviewers were different people from last night. It had different energy and different questions/answers. Personally I liked the event of the first day. The energy was much calmer and the information we received from Bashar was much more helpful than today’s event.

Today, my focus went to the interpreter. She was probably slightly younger than me. I think she did a great job in interpreting. It must be tough for to properly interpret all of today’s interviewers as some of their questions were hard to understand even in Japanese. She reminded me of my younger days when I was doing the interpretation job at Lakota land. I appreciate my family spirits for providing me those opportunities though. Every experience is precious and priceless for me.

I attended the online event with Bashar at 7 p.m. It was a 2-hour event, but for the first one hour, I could not hear anything. The video too, disappeared from time to time. Maybe the event organizer, in this case the Japanese publisher, had been attempting to fix the sound issue. Finally around 7:40 p.m., I found one person’s announcement on the Twitter page that the event would start one hour late due to the sound issue in their equipment. When I went back to the event page slightly before 8 p.m., the event had been on-going. This time the sound issue was solved.

I decided to purchase the ticket of this event because I wanted to see my favorite YouTuber. I liked his calm energy. He asked Bashar questions that he received from his YouTube subscribers. I could feel he was excited to communicate with Bashar, but he stayed always calm, polite, and respectful. I enjoyed attending the live event.

Right before when I fell asleep, I saw a usual vision with my eyes closed. It was like a scenery from a window of a spaceship. A bright light suddenly appeared in my vison and let at the high speed, just like the spaceship in Star Wars. I felt I quickly visited a starship and visited my star people. In the next second, I was in a deep asleep.

Today’s meditation: I did the guided meditation to see a past life. I asked my guide spirit to show me my life in a planet or star other than the planet Earth.

I started seeing a light blue world. There were some small clouds in the sky. I felt the atmosphere being gentle and peaceful. I didn’t see any physical bodies, but I did feel their existences by energy. Everything and everybody moves on their preferable pace. There was no rush. Everybody I passed by had the similar energy. They were all friendly, nice, kind, and calm. There was no house. There was no wall or boundary. Because they don’t need them. There is nothing to hide. Everything and every thought are clear and transparent. There was no water body, but I felt some type of humidity. It was not too high or not too low. Just right range that I felt moistened and comfortable. Somebody told me I am originated from a star related to water. My star people are unique in energy. We are blessed with water aspect. We are not aggressive. We are basically humble and don’t show ourselves up in front. However, whenever in need, we have strength to step forward and speak out for the sake of my star people and others.

Right before I left from this vision, my guide spirit gave me some messages.

I cannot recognize my guide spirit’s sex. I can say it has both energy; male energy and female energy. My guide spirit reminded me that not all the events will not end as we expect. Sometimes things happen and bring chaos to people. However, no matter what happens, always know that my family spirits and star spirits are with me. They have been experiencing things through me. They all respect me because I am the one who can actually experience the events in the first place. The important thing is not to get influenced heavily, but witness the events and analyze them from a third person’s perspective, if possible. Whenever I am too deeply involved and influenced by a certain event, they will pull me out from the hole. So, don’t worry about anything. Just enjoy. Always remember to enjoy.   

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Starting from the end of last month, I have been dealing with some human mistakes at the fabric store. The mistake was made by the store manager. For a refund item, she wrongly charged again, instead of issuing a refund. As a result, I am charged the amount twice. It has been more than two weeks, but the issue has not be solved yet. The manager is very old and does not know about the right process. I have been trying to get hold of the store manager’s supervisor. The customer support agent said the manager would contact me soon. Still no contact yet. It has been very frustrating and I noticed my vibration has been influenced by this issue.

While meditating, I asked my family spirits what is the purpose of this uncomfortable experience and how I should react. Instantly I felt I should pull some Angel cards. I was guided to pull 6 cards from the card deck Magical Mermaids and Dolphins created by Doreen Virtue. Looking at these card put a smile back on my face. These cards cleared my frustrations and anger away. I felt peace and calm.  

Worthiness,

Soulmate relationship

Mother healing

Empowerment

Watch your thoughts

You’re being helped.

Maybe this uncomfortable experience happened to give me some lessons. The first thing popped up in my mind was my thinking habit that was mainly forced by my mom. My mom implanted the fixed concept. I need to free myself from the stereotypes. I still may see things from prejudiced point of view.

My family spirits reminded me again on how powerful my thoughts can be. I can create my preferable reality just by thinking things positively. After I do my part, then let it go completely. Wait and see in a relaxed and peaceful mind. In next moment I will be blessed by my preferable reality. As always, thank you so much to my family spirits. You guys are awesome all the time!