I received a postcard from the biofeedback dealer. It was an informational and promo code postcard, but one thing I noticed was they wrote down the addressor’s name and address in handwriting. I felt a loving energy from the handwriting. In this digital age, writing down the name and address by hand was rare, and I appreciate their efforts to contact one of us with their sincere thought.

My husband asked me to offer him a homeopathy counseling session. I was so happy to hear his request. He wrote down some of his major symptoms that he wants to improve. One of them was his insomnia. I instantly suggested him to clean up his room and garage by getting rid of unnecessary items. I offered support and started suggesting to get rid of items. When we moved to this house two years ago, he rejected to trash them, but now he agreed with me to trash some of the unnecessary items that belong to him and never used for these 17 years. I was so happy that we could trash lots of items from the garage. I still cannot touch any of his unnecessary items in his room, but maybe someday. 

With the help of my husband, we installed more irrigation system to our backyard garden. Our plants look happier than before and have started growing solidly.

I run into a horned toad while walking in the neighborhood area. It was a baby one on the middle of the road. It seemed to be waiting for me, as the baby horned toad didn’t scare me when I approached to him. I tool a bunch of pictures of him. He changed his pause a couple of times and allowed me to take pictures of him. It was an interesting experience. After came back from the walk, I took a look of the pictures of him. He stood up with his front legs raised and put his head toward the Sun. I felt he gave me a message to stand solidly and not to yield in to whatever I don’t agree.

I thought of my late Navajo dad and his late two brothers who were a former Navajo tribe president and a former Navajo Judge.  

In Navajo creation story, there is a coyote who acts as a trick star and does a bunch of stupid actions coming from greedy and immatureness. A horned toad, on the other hand, acts as a grandfather and a symbol of a power of law, and who teaches a coyote logically and calmly that what a coyote has done was wrong. In Navajo philosophy, that the peace cannot exist without conflict. In other words, you have to fight in order to restore peace.  

While my daughter was in a hot bath and I was spending my alone time, my left ear started ringing in a high vibration tone. I knew this was the sign that one of my family spirits trying to contact me. I was right. It was my late mom. She told me that she has witnessed that what my brother has done to me and my family, that his stupid actions have tortured my family, and that my reasons why I am furious to my brother. However, my late mom gently requested me to try to understand my brother and try not to hate him. My late mom gave me a gentle hug and love in spirit. Even though these actions were not visible, I certainly felt them. I can assure she was there with me and what I felt was real. Thank you, Mom. I will try what you have requested me and I will learn as much as I can through this issue.

Today I gave myself a biofeedback session and focused on increasing oxytocin hormone. I also performed a session regarding balancing out the energy between my brother and me, because I thought I should accept my brother in a loving way, rather than treating him as my enemy. I understood his agony during the toughest time to taking care of my dad’s company that was almost bankrupted. I have to appreciate him for his hard work. I have to understand the path that my brother took, and that was why he has become so cringing on money and stingy. I still cannot forgive what he has done to me, but I can at least try to understand him.

For this past one month, I have spent peaceful days so that I could focus on studying and preparing for the final exam of the 2^nd year of the professional homeopathy course.

I am glad that I finally could regain my original peaceful mind in the midst of the inheritance division fight against my brother.

Our day started with the gentle female rain, which is rare in this area. It was really cold that we still needed to wear a winter clothing.

I like the cold temperature. I could focus on studying for the final exam for the professional homeopathy course. It was a peaceful and progressive day for me.

My mom in-law told me that they are having snow. Since she thought the winter was done, she planted some vegetable plants. Now she worries about her young plants outside.

In our area, we didn’t have snow, but we had a cold wind with the temperature dropped to 1 C. I regret that I went outside with my tank top and short pants. We needed to wear a winter heavy jacket and long pants.

My family and I worked on installing the irrigation system on our backyard plant garden. My husband is really good at working on the outside work. I feel if he needs to change his career, a handy man who can work on a wide variety of jobs is suitable for him.