Last night I did the guided meditation and asked any message for my Mantra class. On my first class, at the last part of the class, the instructor asked the students to convey the message from our guide spirits regarding the world after the Covid-19. I was getting messages from my family spirits and waited for mu turn. However the instructor forgot about me and ended the class. I know their mantra class is for advanced students. At the ending of the class, one student was dismissed from the class. The instructor told that she was not ready for this class. Thus, the instructor’s forgetting about me was shocking to me. Some negative thoughts came up to me. Am I too not ready for this class? I wanted to receive some messages regarding my question, but I could not see nor hear anything during my meditation.

Before I fell asleep, I asked my family spirits for support. I hoped I would get some message through my dream. Sure enough, I had a clear dream this morning.

Today’s dream: I was in the giant tour bus. The bus was all full with the tour customers. There were many different types of passengers on their race, age, male/female, personalities, and social status. We enjoyed our conversation constantly. I felt they were all related to me. I liked them all.

I was assigned a seat at the front row, just behind the bus driver. It seemed like I was the leader of this group. I made a decision about our final goal and navigate the driver on which way he should take.

I noticed I was not wearing any clothes. I looked back to other customers in the bus. They were wearing clothes normally. I was the only one naked. I didn’t feel embarrassed nor uncomfortable. I was proud of myself being true to myself. I had nothing to hide anyway. I liked it that way. Then I woke up.

The dream interpretation dictionary says participating in a tour bus means the dreamer is having a good relationship with other humans. Being naked in public means the dreamer wants other people to know him/herself more.

It is true. Now I have studying spirituality with other students and I have been enjoying the process. I want to show myself to them and possibly I want them to acknowledge me more than now.

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In the late afternoon at 11 a.m., I attended the Earth journey meditation guided by the holographic breathing method. The originator of the holographic breathing method guided us to the center of the Earth. I could allow myself to deep meditation state but I could not receive any messages from the Earth.

I thought this is a good way to feel the mother Earth’s feeling during the Covid-19. I will try this journey again in another meditation on my own.

Today’s meditation: I did the guided mediation to go see my guide spirit. Before I started, I asked my family spirits for advice on how to deal with my dad and the inheritance accountant.

I have many guide spirts supporting me. They can change their appearance freely according to my need. Today my guide spirit showed up in a gentle female figure. Her face was calm and gentle but also with determined strong will. She gave me a spear. The top of the spear was wrapped with flare. The message for me was to stick firmly with my decision. Don’t allow anybody to fool me or change my mind based on their convenience.

This meditation made my mind clear. I appreciate my family spirits for their constant support and love to me.

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At night at 8:30 p.m., I attended the Sunday service. Since this June, I attended their Sunday service every time whenever I was available, but tonight I strongly felt I should be selective on attending their Sunday service depending on the MC from now on. I will stop attending from next week. My next one I want to attend will be October 18^th when my favorite female will be the MC. Other than that, I should save my time on my own study and meditation. It is nothing wrong with their Sunday service. It was just me who has to be selective on how I use my precious time and energy.

In the morning I went to my favorite massage therapist’s office and received her massage therapy. It was my third massage. I enjoyed her relaxing massage. On last time when she used some cuppings on my back, the marks stayed for more than one week. She said the mark having stayed longer means the area needs to be taken care of. The more I receive the massage treatment on the area, the sooner the marks will disappear. I hope the marks from cuppings this time will disappear quicker than the last time.

Today’s dream: I was with my friend of my university days. We were staying at the Japanese hotel located by the beach. We enjoyed the hot supper and walking on the beach together. Then I woke up. Even though I stayed up late last night and didn’t have enough sleep hours, I felt refreshed.

I don’t think there was any messages through this morning’s dream. I am sure though, I received lots of healing energy from the water body.

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I spent all day comfortable. I finally made my own private time to study Sanskrit as review of my first Mantra class.

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After we came back from our tricycle ride exercise with our friend in the evening, I noticed one email. It was from the inheritance accountant. His email ruined my evening. It was not his fault. He didn’t do anything wrong. It was my dad who ruined my evening. The accountant reported the meeting with my dad.

I signed the inheritance agreement with a small condition. Now my dad is making the situation difficult.

I honestly think my dad is enjoying for making the situation difficult and annoying the accountant. My dad has all day long being bored, so he is enjoying having the accountant as his company to control. My dad is a control freak. I feel sorry for the accountant who finally realized the true face of my dad. Please my family spirits, control my dad and let the accountant deal with his last work.

This incident made me my mind. I am not going to see my dad nor talk to him anymore. “To try the patience of a saint. He can forgive you twice, but there is no third chance.” No more, dad. I am done with you.

Today was a busy day. I could not do much for myself, but busy with lots of house chores.

My daughter had two live lessons at her school. I am a learning coach for her homeschooling. As a leaning coach, I need to check my daughter’s school assignments. Sometimes I have to read the textbooks with her and learn first, in order to teach her. It sometimes takes many hours every day.

In this semester I am enrolled to three classes at the Japanese mediumship school. For the classes, I want to meditate every day, read the textbook in advance as their homework, and review the class afterwards.

I started feeling frustrated for not being able to have my own time every day.

At 5 p.m., I attended my second Awareness Basic class. Today we had 8 people in the class; 7 students and our instructor.

As usual we started from the instructor’s guided meditation. In the meditation we received healing energy. I felt female energy. It was gentle and subtle. I felt like I was embraced gentry by the female figures.

Then we went to see our guide spirit. This time my guide spirit showed up as a male figure. He looked like毘沙門天, Vaisravana (guardian god of Buddhism). He didn’t look like a statue, rather, looked like a real human. I just saw him on his upper body. He was not wearing any clothes. His body was well-built. His six-pack was impressive. He was wearing fire around his upper body. He gave me a flame. The flame was red and powerful. He said the red energy, the flame energy, was what I am missing and what I need the most right now. The flame would give me full of gas, lots of energy, taking initiative, leadership, strength, courage to speak up, courage to move forward, passion, and willingness to take an action. When I received the flame, my body got warm. I felt the heat especially in my palms and heart.   

When I sheared my experience to others, the instructor told me the flame also means to purify as the flame burns any negative energy.

We moved to the study with the textbook. We learned aura and chakra.

The instructor shared her personal experience. She had once suffered from not seeing nor not feeling anything during the meditation. During that time as a beginner student, the heard Chakra Bija Mantra from her teacher. The mantra was so powerful that she could actually her aura field spread wider. It became her trigger to cleanse and open hear chakra.

As for practicing to feel aura field, she shared one method. With somebody’s approval, we can open up our both palms to the person and approach from far distance to near, feeling the energy field.

As for the color of chakra, there were different interpretation. In this school they use the newest concept as follows.

First chakra – Red

Second chakra – Orange

Third chakra – Yellow –

Fourth chakra – Green and pink

Fifth chakra – Blue and turquoise

Sixth chakra – Indigo and Purple

Seventh chakra – White and Purple

Then, we proceeded to the actual practice of psychometry.  

We did five practices.

The first two was paper-rock-scissor. The instructor make one of the three and hide it off the camera. We students read the energy.

I got that right on the first practice and wrong on the second practice. For these two practices, I instantly got the first intuition, then some seconds later, I saw a clear vision. The first practice, I followed the clear vision, but for the second practice, I followed my intuition. So, these practices told me I should wait for my family spirits to show me the right vision, instead of trusting my intuition.  

As for the third and fourth practices, the instructor used two different colored fabric; blue and orange. I got the wrong reading on the both practices. I asked my family spirits to blow cold air for blue, and to blow warm air for orange. I could not sense it correctly.

As for the fifth practice, the instructor held a country’s flag hidden from the camera. I saw the vision of white, green, and orange. I thought it as a flag of Mexico. The instructor showed us the right answer. It was a flag of France. The instructor praised me that I read the energy very well. After the class, I checked the both flags. She was right. I read very well. The flags of Mexico and France are similar in its designs and colors. I was so happy that I am getting well on communicating with my family spirits. Thank you so much to my family spirits for supporting me. You guys are always awesome.    

I took the Cologuard test on August 31^st. I sent out my stool test sample via UPS on the same day. It was delivered to their lab. Madison, WI, on the next day. Their website says it takes two weeks for them to test and send out the result. Today was the result day.

Thank god, my test result came in as negative.

I think this is an amazing invention for them. The test for colon cancer used to be stressful and time consuming. Now thanks to their invention and effort, we patients can take the test sample at our house and send it to their lab via UPS. I appreciate everybody who are involved with this amazing invention and delivery process.  

Since last Tuesday, September 8^th, the local public school had resumed preparing a free meal kit for kids 0-18 years old. The meal kit contains breakfast and lunch for one week. The school distributes the kit every Monday morning. This meal kit give away will continue until the end of this year.

My daughter is qualified to receive the meal kit. She received a boxful of food. Everything was frozen and individually packed. They reminded me of an airplane meal.

I appreciate for the local school and CDC who have made this decision to support the children in our community.   

While our recent routine of evening tricycle exercise, my friend shared her experiences with her friend.

She has a friend who live in the same apartment complex as hers. They have been friends for 15 years now. Her friend was diagnosed as dementia and has been treated through medicines for these past three years. Regardless of his doctor raised his medication dose level as the maximum, the symptoms of his dementia has gotten worse every day. My friend does not have any lawful connections with him, but she cannot leave him alone. She has been taking care of him as a friend for free of charge by preparing his meals giving him mediation every morning and evening.

As one of the dementia symptoms, her friend sometimes does not remember his own name nor her name. Sometimes he expresses anger toward her for nothing. But still she doesn’t stop taking care of her friend.

I asked her the reason why she still takes care of him. She said both of her parents passed away 20 years ago. At their last couple of years, they were diagnosed as dementia. I don’t know the details on who took care of them in their last years.

She said she hates the sickness itself, but she never hated them. She said maybe the soul of a person with dementia does not with the body anymore.  

I thought of my dad. He might have dementia even though he would deny. At this moment I don’t like my dad being stingy, stubborn, and self-centered. This might be his original personality not from dementia. I don’t know. All I can do at this moment is try not to hate him.

I attended Sunday service at 8:30 p.m. today’s gathering was a small group. There were only 17 people including the female MC. Toward the end of the demonstration of communication with spirits, the MC asked the audience if anybody wanted to receive a short message from their family spirits. Since this one was a short one, the medium would not describe in details about the message sender. It was just fine with me, so I raised hand.

One female medium received a message for me from somebody who is related to me.

She saw three images. A stuffed animal, healthy green leaves in trees, and a cup of Water. From these images, the medium interpreted the messages for me as follows. My related spirits want me to drink plenty of water, to see plants’ greens in the far distance to recover my eyes’ good health, and to do whatever I liked in my younger days.

These three message resonated with me. Especially for the last one. I felt the sender of this message was from my mom. My favorite things in my childhood was to deal with spirituality on either speaking about spirituality or experiencing it. And that is exactly I have been doing recently. So, yes, this message was a nice way of confirmation that my mom has been supporting me in my working hard on increasing my spiritual awareness and blushing up my spiritual gifts. Thank you mom for encouraging me and supporting me.